rosecoloredgirl
- Date posted
- 6y ago
SoniclenSoniclen
- Date posted
- 6y ago
?? try and see the funny side. I get triggered all the time for some really dark stuff like smashing my infants sons head on the side of the cot when he is in my arms, or when my son makes sucking sounds it reminds me of getting head, which then links his presence with a sex act. Horrible shit, but also really silly. Disengage and allow the sticky thought to be as stuck as long as it needs to a stick. Know the association could come and go, and always apply the same techniques
SoniclenSoniclen
- Date posted
- 6y ago
Rose colouredgirl I hope you don’t mind but whenever I’ve been down today I’ve come back to this post. I hope you see the funny side but it was a proper rage quit post. I love it???
rosecoloredgirlrosecoloredgirl
- Date posted
- 6y ago
Of course lmao. I don’t mind. It’s nice, i was just super fucking frustrated during that time lol cause the sound kept repeating in my head and it made me tick lol like i really wanted to punch him straight in the face and typing wasn’t enough to express the anger so i had to all caps
rosecoloredgirlrosecoloredgirl
- Date posted
- 6y ago
Thank you
JustafellaJustafella
- Date posted
- 6y ago
Only a week ago (before my OCD and anxiety reared their disgusting friggin’ heads again), I could laugh about such thoughts, and I’d even taunt my OCD ? But it’s all waaaay stronger than it’s been for 7 years. It’s crazy how quickly I crumbled... This time, I have so much to lose! Beautiful wife, two beautiful kids.
MarkMark
- Date posted
- 6y ago
That's OCD it's sneaky. It's done that to me many times. Lost many jobs. People just don't understand. My best to you. You will ride this out
JustafellaJustafella
- Date posted
- 6y ago
Thanks Mark, much appreciated! Mine decided to manifest out of the sometimes overwhelming task of parenthood, so now my beautiful little son has become a series of intrusive thoughts. Just writing or thinking this makes me ashamed like people would never believe, and I know that it isn’t me! But OCD is like a fragmenting virus, infecting my brain so I don’t properly know what I feel a lot of the time. OCD is the great deceiver, and the devil ? I’m not very religious though, so take that with a grain of salt ?
SoniclenSoniclen
- Date posted
- 6y ago
Hahahaa???
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- 4w ago
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Recently ive been getting very scared to even be angry bc of the horrible thoughts I have and it feels even more real when I'm angry or even annoyed. Rn I was not even super annoyed at my neice but I felt a twinge of annoyance since she went up to my face and was yelling at me while I was resting on the bed and I got this image of doing something bad to her and I felt my hand twitch very little. I got nervous and felt relieved when her dad told her to stop screaming for no reason. I've been hyperfocusing on my bodily reactions (mainly my hands or how I'm feeling like did I just enjoy that? Was I considering???) And I've noticed the small twitches whenever I'm mad or annoyed and it's scaring me so bad! Like do I want to act out? Am I holding back??? I used to not even twitch at all when mad and I felt 100% sure I'll never act out but now it feels like I don't know bc what do these twitches mean?, I do know I don't want to ever act out but it's so scary. Recently whenever I feel angry once the argument is over I cry really bad after I'm alone and I pray so i never want or act out. And when the annoyance passes I also feel so guilty and want to stay away. Im scared these are real urges and i research for many many hours to make sure they arent urges or impulses and i also tend to ask chatgpt or here if the anxiety gets so bad 😕
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