I WANT TO FUCKKNG PUNCH MY BROTHER HE MAKES THESE MOANS NOISE THAT ANNOYS ME S OMUCJ AND TRIGGERS My thoUGHTS I WANT TO SUFFOCATE HIM AND KICK HIS FACE

?? try and see the funny side. I get triggered all the time for some really dark stuff like smashing my infants sons head on the side of the cot when he is in my arms, or when my son makes sucking sounds it reminds me of getting head, which then links his presence with a sex act. Horrible shit, but also really silly. Disengage and allow the sticky thought to be as stuck as long as it needs to a stick. Know the association could come and go, and always apply the same techniques

Rose colouredgirl I hope you don’t mind but whenever I’ve been down today I’ve come back to this post. I hope you see the funny side but it was a proper rage quit post. I love it???

Of course lmao. I don’t mind. It’s nice, i was just super fucking frustrated during that time lol cause the sound kept repeating in my head and it made me tick lol like i really wanted to punch him straight in the face and typing wasn’t enough to express the anger so i had to all caps

Thank you

Only a week ago (before my OCD and anxiety reared their disgusting friggin’ heads again), I could laugh about such thoughts, and I’d even taunt my OCD ? But it’s all waaaay stronger than it’s been for 7 years. It’s crazy how quickly I crumbled... This time, I have so much to lose! Beautiful wife, two beautiful kids.

That's OCD it's sneaky. It's done that to me many times. Lost many jobs. People just don't understand. My best to you. You will ride this out

Thanks Mark, much appreciated! Mine decided to manifest out of the sometimes overwhelming task of parenthood, so now my beautiful little son has become a series of intrusive thoughts. Just writing or thinking this makes me ashamed like people would never believe, and I know that it isn’t me! But OCD is like a fragmenting virus, infecting my brain so I don’t properly know what I feel a lot of the time. OCD is the great deceiver, and the devil ? I’m not very religious though, so take that with a grain of salt ?

Hahahaa???