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It does to me though Though m new to this Maybe I had anxiety before but I never researched about it and now since February I started having such symptoms which I didn't realise for like 5 months since then. I find myself backfiring the thought with positive thoughts about him that no he is good But then it goes worse because that's assurance M just 20 and m freaked out for life Let's heal :)
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To me too*
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@nimziewd Have you had any CBT or therapy? Its a really tough thing to go through alone with having so many thoughts constantly crashing around your head. My therapist does say that using positive thoughts to cancel negative ones is mental neutralising and keeps the cycle going, but I haven't mastered that part myself yet either 🙃
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@carvz84 I m getting therapy but she has not diagnosed me properly. I don't like my therapist much. I felt like she is telling me that m faking it. When she knows how much m struggling. M a straight A student but this thing has got me like 50 percent less concentration now. It's affecting me everywhere. She actually triggered me more. I didn't even start ERP but she triggered me with the situation that stands on 10 from 1-10 scale. She hasn't properly diagnosed me yet. She has taken a test which she says led to dangerous diagnosis which she thinks is not true. So she is gonna take a personality test tomorrow. Idk what's all this about
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@nimziewd When I first went to therapy a few years ago my therapist had never heard of ROCD and right away I kinda felt like I was wasting my time. If you're still not feeling it after tomorrow I might look for another therapist, but you'll know the answer to that better than me. Has she referenced OCD at all?
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@carvz84 She did agree once that my symptoms are like ocd and ask me to try to tell my boyfriend about that but when I talked to her next time that I felt rocd ish She says don't use the word lightly, you haven't been diagnosed yet. It was pretty rude for me. I was trying to describe what I felt. I couldn't tell my boyfriend as he cannot complex compound information. He just says there is nothing like that, just exercise and meditate, m with u he said. So I didn't open up to him. My therapist doesn't believe it Why would he who doesn't even know what ocd is or have different thinking altogether.
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@nimziewd We are in a long distance right now and so it sucks more. I m sure he would have hugged me to sleep.
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@nimziewd And it's not just rocd symptoms I get pedo, harm and SO theme as well.
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@nimziewd Definitely find a therapist that works for you! Don’t give up. It can be super daunting and uncomfortable to keep explaining yourself to a new therapist, but I promise there is one who can help you!
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Commenting to follow. I often find myself having the urge to have existential conversations with my partner to somehow “prove” to myself that he’s actually good and we should actually be together
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Same :(
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This is me too - not to provide reassurance, but I find that I'm normally so critical of myself that it flips and turns to my boyfriend and I have the worst thoughts about his appearance and other stupid things when I know these things don't matter (and when I'm calm I can't keep my hands off him!). It's been a pattern for me and one I really want to change - these thoughts seem so ego driven and the opposite of the person I want to be! The quest for proof is never ending and what keeps us in the OCD cycle I guess. As soon as I feel I have 'proof' of one thing, something else comes along. It's exhausting, but we have to hang in there and try and recognise those thoughts for what they are (OCD, sabotage etc) and try not to let them get our attention. Easier said than done!
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I have a brief history of contamination theme but it was when I was so kid and it kind of faded as I grew up. That time there wasn't therapy available like this so I wasn't properly diagnosed.
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I am at a very difficult spot in my relationship. My boyfriend and I have been together for 6 years, and I have a history of cheating that for years we’ve been trying to work through. To me, it makes a lot of sense that my OCD has attached itself to this and for the last few years I’ve experienced intrusive sexual thoughts of others and relationship ocd. I have been open to him about the content of my thoughts and now, with a proper diagnosis of an anxiety disorder, I am able to reframe them and work through them with ERP so that my brain will *hopefully* get bored and stop sending them. But, things have not been easy. As a result of this and everything in our past, he has become anxious about all the scenarios where I could be having sexualized thoughts about other people. To him, if I am thinking something utterly different than what I am telling him or acting like to him, he can’t fully trust it. And of course, I can imagine how difficult it is to know your life partner is sexualizing others in her brain and to be able find a way to dismiss them as unthreatening, especially when past mistakes say otherwise. Is there anyone that has gone through this with a partner? And other than repeatedly explaining the egodystonic nature of my thoughts and providing reassurance, what are some things you did that helped them? Any advice helps! Thank you
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Lately my ROCD has been flaring up, making it difficult to even be around my partner. I’m having so many troubling thoughts with the one that bugs me most being, “maybe this isn’t my OCD, maybe I’m just in a bad relationship and I’m trying to cover it up and blame it on OCD”. This thought really scares me because there are valid doubts in my relationship but my boyfriend and I have openly talked about them and are trying to work through. My OCD won’t take that as an option tho. It makes me feel like I need to be 100% certain that these things can NEVER happen again or else we need to break up immediately. So anything he says in that moment about trying to do better, my OCD will not trust anything he says and just wait until the next “bad thing” happens. When I continuously bring these things up to my boyfriend even tho nothing has happened between these conversations, it exhausts him making it feel like he can never do enough. I feel so bad because I know it’s just my OCD getting in the way. But then that thought creeps in saying I can’t trust him because I need to protect myself. It’s just an ongoing cycle that is so tiring. I don’t even know what I want anymore. We are very opposite when it comes to emotions. I am very in tune and very emotionally intelligent, and he is not. He is the opposite. I do recognize that my anxious attachment style may be hard for him too but I can’t stop thinking about all of his flaws and all of the things he needs to do to make our relationship better. It makes me feel like I’m the only one putting in effort when in reality that is not true. But my OCD does make me feel like he doesn’t really love me or want to be with me and that he feels forced to be with me or do things for me. It makes me feel like him being with me is like a chore. Can anyone relate? My OCD just makes me feel like I can’t trust anything he says to make our relationship better.
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Themes constantly switching. I’ve been suffering with real event ocd the last year and am currently in therapy treating it. it’s nowhere near as bad as it was last year and it’s felt like a nice break. there’s days where it gets bad but i can’t compare it to the stress of last year. However i’ve noticed every time i overcome a theme a new one hits me out of nowhere. i’ve suffered with ocd since i was 9, and ive had multiple themes. i’m in a 2 year relationship with my partner and it’s amazing. she’s probably my second proper relationship due to the fact my first relationship gave me so much fear to get into another one as i was cheated on, and needed a few years to get over that. i kind of guessed that ROCD would creep in at some point as it just felt inevitable. anyways, i know my partner is not cheating on me, she’s beyond loyal, we are so so in love but i think due to that first relationship i had, being cheated on really messed with my head. it’s like my brain is telling me my partner has someone else even though i know in my heart nothings going on, and i trust her with my life. i also think because im in the happiest relationship of my life, anything that would indicate loosing her makes me feel sick and riddled with anxiety. and i know that’s completely normal for everyone. i think the most frustrating thing is, is knowing that my OCD has finally crept into my relationship which is something i never wanted it to do. this is a brand new theme and i have no idea how to treat this. i will speak to my therapist but if anyone has been through this theme and any advice in the meantime i would really appreciate it :).
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