Well woke up to intrusive thoughts right away. I don’t know if I’m having a backdoor spike, bc I’m anxious but not as anxious as usual. I’m terrified, and I know I have to sit with the uncertainty but I’m wondering if dehydration has something to do with it. Also why am I so scared it’s not OCD 🙃, I have no urges, I’m scared to have an urge. Harm OCD honestly is the fucking worst. I just want to be able to not have the fear that I’m eventually going to go crazy, these past few weeks have been good. The past two days irritating as heck.

Harm OCD

kr98

Date posted: 4y ago

I've got harm ocd as well! Oh yeah it's the worst! I hate it. Something that helps me is, that your thoughts are not real, they are meaningless chemicals. Our brains are just thought process functions, and it doesn't know the context of what the thoughts are. It doesn't understand. We just tend to terrify ourselves so much with how far out those thoughts are, that we put meaning behind it, and then scare ourselves even more down the rabbit hole of OCD. Things won't always be like this, I know it seems very difficult right now, but we were all at a time in our lives where we enjoyed every bit of it and didn't have anything like this going on. Things will get better! You just gotta keep holding on. Don't give up. Something that helps me is just letting it be known that these are just chemicals. They don't mean a thing, our minds are just trying to play this obsessive game with us, and it knows it bothers us. OCD feeds off of that. Sometimes OCD can flair up out of nowhere because of things going on in your life. Make OCD your bitch and always do what's right, and you'll be set. You're stronger than you think.

K-Dizzle

Date posted: 4y ago

Everyone is scared it's not OCD. 😂 OCD tries to convince us that it's not so we won't get rid of it. Like an ever-evolving virus that tries to escape its vaccine. Also, Harm OCD is definitely one of the worst themes to have, I'm constantly trying not to ruminate over whether or not I'm going to hurt people, become a murderer, if I'm going to live a normal life, if I'm going to just snap one day, etc. etc. etc.

We Will Prevail

Date posted: 4y ago

Girl those are my exact thoughts 😅, like I know they’re ridiculous but jeez they’re annoying as heck. But you’re absolutely correct, I don’t know why it likes to make us forget even the good times we’ve had. Its just so frustrating and I’m sorry you’re going through the same thing. It’s not a fun time.

Rachel Nerger

Date posted: 4y ago

I struggle with the exact same thing! It’s not even fear of what’s happening right now it’s fear of who I could be later. It’s absolutely awful. All of my thoughts started once I had my son a little over a year ago. It’s considered postpartum OCD because of that and it’s crazy! Hormones and chemicals in our brains are no joke. Keep hanging in there. I’m praying for all of you on this thread. ♥️ you’re not alone!

Danielle22

Date posted: 4y ago

I had hocd & got through it & now I have Pocd it still tries to convince me it’s not ocd i was so happy cut back on my meds n now I’m back in such distress I’m praying to god to pull through it feels hard to function again

niknicole

Date posted: 24w ago

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Everything feels so real. I think learning about non-offending pedophiles has really screwed with me. I feel like I’m not even doing compulsions anymore like I genuinely cannot remember if I do them or not and the groinal responses are messing with me. I keep having intrusive dreams and I’m in that half asleep state and I feel nothing after that or I feel weird like a good weird, I don’t know. It’s a really weird feeling when I get those thoughts but I don’t like them, I don’t think. All I know is, I keep seeking reassurance and I feel like I don’t have OCD because the way I feel, like the way I get worked up isn’t the same as others. Whenever I try to watch a show, like 9-1-1 or daily dose of sunshine, I feel like I’m watching something I shouldn’t be. Or if I’m just on my phone, I feel like something is going to happen. I feel red flags whenever I’m on my phone, like somehow cp will appear. I know that OCD is the doubting disorder but my god, this is just crazy. I feel like I’m going crazy. Everything is just nonstop, it’s so constant and I’m genuinely scared that I’ll do something when I get out of my room. I don’t know anymore, this whole OCD thing is just making me lose my mind.

carol.xxx

Date posted: 24w ago

Harm ocd Please reply.

Today I am working but a huge amount of panic has over taken me because of a violent intrusive thought I got last night. I am so anxious to the point where i am considering cancelling because the intrusive feeling feels so terrible. What if i actually do it. What if I did tht and snapped. I am scared i just need a bit of support, a bit of i sont know wnymore

Stupot

Date posted: 23w ago

My own worst enemy

Today I was officially diagnosed, and a lot of my thoughts all day have been “man, what if I actually don’t have it and I exaggerated my symptoms or something.” I had this thought especially because I hadn’t had a really bad episode in a while. But then sure enough, I had a little episode tonight. I feel like I might’ve brought it upon myself, at least in small part. Having difficulty separating OCD paranoia from real life problems to be considered with at the moment 👎🏻 Gonna sleep on it! 🙏🏻❤️

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