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I've got harm ocd as well! Oh yeah it's the worst! I hate it. Something that helps me is, that your thoughts are not real, they are meaningless chemicals. Our brains are just thought process functions, and it doesn't know the context of what the thoughts are. It doesn't understand. We just tend to terrify ourselves so much with how far out those thoughts are, that we put meaning behind it, and then scare ourselves even more down the rabbit hole of OCD. Things won't always be like this, I know it seems very difficult right now, but we were all at a time in our lives where we enjoyed every bit of it and didn't have anything like this going on. Things will get better! You just gotta keep holding on. Don't give up. Something that helps me is just letting it be known that these are just chemicals. They don't mean a thing, our minds are just trying to play this obsessive game with us, and it knows it bothers us. OCD feeds off of that. Sometimes OCD can flair up out of nowhere because of things going on in your life. Make OCD your bitch and always do what's right, and you'll be set. You're stronger than you think.
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Everyone is scared it's not OCD. 😂 OCD tries to convince us that it's not so we won't get rid of it. Like an ever-evolving virus that tries to escape its vaccine. Also, Harm OCD is definitely one of the worst themes to have, I'm constantly trying not to ruminate over whether or not I'm going to hurt people, become a murderer, if I'm going to live a normal life, if I'm going to just snap one day, etc. etc. etc.
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Girl those are my exact thoughts 😅, like I know they’re ridiculous but jeez they’re annoying as heck. But you’re absolutely correct, I don’t know why it likes to make us forget even the good times we’ve had. Its just so frustrating and I’m sorry you’re going through the same thing. It’s not a fun time.
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I struggle with the exact same thing! It’s not even fear of what’s happening right now it’s fear of who I could be later. It’s absolutely awful. All of my thoughts started once I had my son a little over a year ago. It’s considered postpartum OCD because of that and it’s crazy! Hormones and chemicals in our brains are no joke. Keep hanging in there. I’m praying for all of you on this thread. ♥️ you’re not alone!
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I had hocd & got through it & now I have Pocd it still tries to convince me it’s not ocd i was so happy cut back on my meds n now I’m back in such distress I’m praying to god to pull through it feels hard to function again
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I’ve tried living in the uncertainty today & kept myself busy but I can’t shake this feeling that I’m about to lose control & act on my thoughts. I keep feeling like I need to check in to see how I feel & keep my self safe & when I’m near my trigger it feels like I’m being pulled into doing it & feels like I want to but I’m not using compulsions. My thoughts feel like my own & feeling like I’ll be like this forever. Can someone relate or give advice 😩
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So my OCD has been bad lately. I’ve been ruminating and obsessing over my sexuality again. And it just keeps getting worse. I hate it so much. I try to sit with the discomfort but then my ocd does the backdoor spike. And the groinal response is what keeps me looped. It SUCKS. I am not attracted to men, but my OCD is trying SO hard to convince me that I am. There have been days where I’m just so mentally exhausted that I “accept” what my ocd tells me and I just walk around a hollow, lethargic shell. But then I rethink it and I feel better. It feels like I can only find my TRUE self when I tire my nervous system out enough that it literally breaks down and has me suicidal and hopeless. And then accepting my OCD’s “truth” (that I’m attracted to men) feels like a burden and a chore. I woke up today from an OCD dream, tried to go back to sleep, and my stomach kept cramping bc I was so anxious and ruminating over my intrusive thoughts. I’m starting to doubt it being OCD anymore. My brain is too tired to fight and cry about it anymore.
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i’ve just been feeling so off lately. i’m okay right now, but a couple hours ago i was in this mood where i felt anxiety creeping up. like i will feel like there’s danger when there isn’t. i just get this really uncomfortable feeling that something feels wrong even when it isn’t. and i’ve been feeling derealization/depersonalization. just really disconnected from myself and the world. i’ve also been unmotivated to where there are times when the thought of doing things upsets me. and i’ve been having existential thoughts that do not mesh well with harm ocd. i get the thought “if people aren’t real then it’s okay to hurt them”. it sucks because there are times where i just don’t even care to ruminate and find reassurance that that’s not the case. furthermore, i’ve just been really aware of my existence. i will get moments where i’m so aware of my existence and it freaks me out. like the fact that i’m a living human being is crazy to me. then there are times when i’m not even anxious about anything which then has me questioning and ruminating on that because i ALWAYS have something i’m worrying about. i’ve also been feeling really nostalgic and bittersweet of the good memories from the past. i keep thinking about good times i’ve had and really wishing i could relive it. for example, last summer was a pretty good summer even with my ocd. and i just wish i could relive some of those moments, but i obviously can’t. and it’s been upsetting me because this month has been shitty with my anxiety. as for an update with my room change to those of you curious, i still have anxiety over it and my mom is taking it as me being ungrateful with what i have when it’s my ocd making a huge deal of it. that upsets me especially since i’ve told her what’s been going on and she was really understanding of it. anyways, life has just been a bit much and i’ve been dealing with more to my anxiety that i don’t appreciate. while worrying about constantly throwing up with my contamination ocd is incredibly exhausting, it’s so normal to me that i’m used to it. but when my harm ocd kicks in along with other themes that aren’t usually common for me, i freak out and feel like i’m going insane. i genuinely wonder how people have dealt with taboo topics of ocd without treatment for years on end. i’ve had harm intrusive thoughts since i was little, but it didn’t get to any extreme until 2023. i feel like i’m drowning in it when it decides to hit me and the thought of having to deal with it for the rest of my life?? i’m scared something in me will flip and i’ll become what my thoughts are telling me i am. i apologize for the mixed thoughts that are all over the place but i feel safe posting on here about it and want to hear how y’all are doing
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