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That’s because the digging would be endless. OCD doesn’t respond to reasoning or logic or trying to figure it out. It would be my guess that there’s many things in life that you might be able to change. For example, do you exercise regularly? Are you eating well? Do you spend time in nature or meditate? Are you of service to others in some way? Are you doing exposures regularly? Are you still engaging in many compulsions? Not that these things are easy to do, nor are they necessarily cures.
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- 4y ago
Thank you for your post bunny. It’s important to not get discouraged though when these releases happen. I know I tend to beat myself up a lot when I do compulsions but I’m more conscious now when I’m doing it so I stop quicker. I am happy you are getting better and I wish to do the same
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Yes, I am exposed every day every second since it is the thoughts and feelings that I’m running away from. As for resisting doing compulsions I try my best but I relapse a lot. But if that original wound isn’t healed in me how would doing erp help? Doing compulsions is like medicine to me. It’s equivalent to an addiction. If you focus on the symptoms of the addiction (stopping the compulsions) it will never heal the root. I’m not trying to figure out anything, I’m doing it to run away from something I don’t understand yet
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- 4y ago
There might be some other comorbid condition you’re dealing with. But as far as ERP itself, the design isn’t to examine the cause or root of your OCD, it’s to be with the distress caused by the OCD without engaging in compulsions. Which in turn breaks the obsessive and compulsive cycle.
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- 4y ago
@NOCD Advocate - Carl Cornett There probably is. I struggle with low self esteem too but I’m working on it. But you can’t deny the fact the reason ocd starts is because of fear. Usually that fear is much deeper than perceived at first. Like if I’m scared of the dark, it’s not the dark that I’m afraid of. That’s just a symptom. It’s the fear of what happens in the dark, perhaps some sort of trauma spurred it as a child.
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@qk Sure. Some people may have had it triggered by some event. Let’s take my case, was it genetic since my dad has many tendencies and my siblings both have anxiety disorders? Is it because my environment, because it was obsessively orderly? Was it my personal trauma of abuse? It could be all of those things or just one, it might be none of them and instead just random luck and brain chemistry. I don’t think it matters, what matters is what I do with it now.
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@NOCD Advocate - Carl Cornett Ok
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One of your tags says somatic ocd...do you mind me asking what your themes are?
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- 4y ago
Yes. It primarily revolves around the breath and me trying to get it “just right.” It switches to a variety of others such as focusing on a stinging sensation in my arms or legs, tensing my left shoulder, tensing my head causing a tension headache and a few more that I get latched onto. It usually starts with the thought, “ uh oh, I remembered the struggle, I must start controlling this sensation or else something bad will happen.” I just get so much anxiety when I don’t do a compulsion. I’m trying to figure out what caused this in the first place
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- 4y ago
@qk I resonate with this sooo much. My somatic OCD is centered around breathing, swallowing and blinking. Especially breathing lately. I always feel like it has to be just right...recently I've been hyperventilating when I wake up because I wake up feeling like I'm breathing too slow and have to monitor my breaths. It's really time consuming and I've been doing a lot better with accepting the automatic responses of all these functions, but sometimes I do get moments where it comes back a little and I have to control it until it feels right. It also happens with swallowing like I have to do it right or else. (Though this one has been significantly better overall) I also sometimes monitor my body for pain, sickness or body twitches. We're here for you though, and if you need to vent I'd be more than happy to continue being supportive :)
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- 24w ago
i don’t think i can, i can’t stomach the possibility of these things, or maybe i can (because they might be true and deep down i know that) and just don’t want to and want to pretend it isn’t there. i can’t do ERP, i just want to pretend it isnt there and won’t happen to clarify, i know i have to do ERP, i know it’s necessary; i don’t need to be told this, this is just how i am feeling currently
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- 14w ago
I know a few of you saw my posts about my ERP and the googling urges. That didn’t end up going well. My therapist actually decided we needed to halt it for now. The thing is it’s almost like I learned googling is harmless from those few exercises and my brain keeps generating more things to google. Normally I would just spiral and be done but now I can barely hold back from searching for long. I eventually give in. I’m horrified because it feels like I want to find illegal content. I swear on everything I am, I don’t want to find anything even close to it. I’m freaking out because I don’t understand what’s happening. I keep compulsively searching/testing/checking or idk. I keep remembering details and I feel like I need to google again to be sure of something. I feel absolutely insane can someone please help me??? I’m petrified I’m going to get in trouble.
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- 9w ago
Can someone please tell me at what point did you finally accept that it’s OCD? When did the ERP click for you? When did you just stop buying into the lies of OCD and finally let go? Like what does it take. It’s been 2 years of this for me and I’m in ERP currently and it’s just not clicking 😣 is it just me???
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