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Try some guided imagiry it will help you process the memory
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Guided imagery? Sorry I haven’t started therapy yet
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Hope you are feeling better hales, I'm so sorry you are going through this. I'm having a bit of a rough day/night too, my problem is I'm worried I am or I might start enjoying my thoughts. I don't know if you're familiar with thinking errors/cognitive distortions such as black and white thinking, magnification, etc but when I went over these with my therapist she added "What if" questions to the list. The goal is to recognize when you are making a thinking error, like "Oh I'm using black and white thinking" or "I'm magnifying this situation when it really wasn't that important," so you could also add "Oh that was a what if question, which isn't helpful and often doesn't have an answer." Wishing you the best. Hope your day or night gets better
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Thanks T. Sorry you have a rough day too!!! I hate that other people suffer with this awful disease. I use a ocd checklist sometimes and it includes that, if you say what if it’s the ocd speaking I got scared because the thought I had was less of what if and more like “nobody would find out” and it felt so real But I’ve also thought that thought in the past so maybe I was ruminating and thinking back on past thoughts and that is why the thought seemed real not suddenly imagined. The whole thought was fuzzy but it felt real so I guess I thought I was remembering something Sorry for the rambling. I need therapy ? I’m a bit better now. Hope you have a good night as well
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That definitely happens to me as well, where it's less of a what if. I pray to God it's because ours brains have thought about these things so often that the what ifs are just already in our minds but don't need to be acknowledged and the thoughts manifest in some other way
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Thanks T. Helps to know I’m not alone
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It’s tough. I’m still not out of the woods even if my posts may sound like I am. I still struggle with the idea that part of me could harm my family like I was ( as it’s very specific). I don’t really have POCD in the typical sense it’s very much trauma recreation that intrudes during intimacy. Weird as I have no doubt that the sexual side is the trigger from which everything else cascades. I may be looking in the wrong place. Truth is if these thoughts didn’t create nervousness then none of this other shit would have happened. None of it started with these themes. It all started with more mundane, male pride driven stuff. Still trying to uncouple. I wish you guys the best though. I need to spend less time here as the drive to help others is morphing into a drive to get reassurance myself.
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Soniclen so sorry that past trauma has caused you so much pain and contributed to your current fear. I think everyone’s pocd presents differently, mine is more false memories but still the fear of doing something wrong in present. We just have to keep on the road to recovery.
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It grows and changes and morphs. But none of it started with this. It started with anxiousness. Can’t help but feel I dug myself a huge fucking hole and I so wish I’d been taught at a young age to manage over thinking. Some of this feels too over learned to ever get right?
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- 22w
I feel like a really terrible person right now, I keep replaying this, and no matter what I can’t remember what happened, it’s like my brain is purposely not letting me think about it. Without wasting any more time, I’ll get into it. Basically, I was at Walmart, and looking at cards with My Dad, I saw anime ones, took pictures of them for my sister, even ones that were anime kids, because I did my best to ignore it, so I looked at a Hunter x Hunter card, I stared at the black haired kid, being all like “ I’m glad I’m not having any thoughts about this, I’m glad I’m having normal thoughts and not thinking anything” I felt happy, then as soon as I looked at killua (white haired kid), everything collapsed. I don’t know what happened, my brain won’t let me remember. But I’ll give bits and pieces. I think that I had false attraction, and something in my head, said “oh, I wouldn’t mind being attracted.” “He is attractive, and I’m attracted to him.” “I remember a girl thinking he is attractive and he is” “ It’s not wrong to be attracted” “ I don’t care about his age” .. something along the lines of that, and now I’m panicking super hard, because I’m worried if I said those things, I feel like I ruined my life that I’m a pe//do and deserve nothing, idk what to do, I feel terrible… I remember when I was having the intrusive thoughts, I was panicking and was worrying, but it kept playing out, and I kept hearing things talk, it was drawn out too long, that now I feel convinced that I was saying those things, I tested it too, and I can confirm that I didn’t say that, but why am I still not convinced? I know I wouldn’t say those things, I was hoping the complete opposite would happen. My brain kept making me feel like it wasn’t wrong and it was okay. Maybe that’s why I’m so convinced I did that. I’m just spiraling super bad right now, I don’t know what to do or what to think, I don’t know if I said that or not… even if I did test it, I genuinely just feel like I said it, and I wanted it, because I still feel uncertain, I still feel like I said it, part of me just wants to be like oh I did and so I can move on, not because I agree with it, I just don’t know what else to do… I’m really scared.
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Hi all, I’m really grateful for all the support I’ve gotten from people in the last few days. My mental health is at an all time low and I really appreciate the relief people have brought. I had a question about whether an intrusive image of a potentially imagined event can feel just as real as a real memory. I’m doing my best to stop ruminating over an image I have in my head, and have gone so far as requested security footage of myself and have been told both through that and by my friends that nothing bad happened, but the image in my head feels just as real as other memories. I was also drinking the night in question, which makes it harder for me to dismiss the image and makes me feel like I shouldn’t. I was just wondering if imagined images can feel just as real? I’m trying to use tools to ignore the image, and have therapy scheduled for tomorrow, but I feel like I can’t responsibly dismiss the image even with the evidence I’ve gathered if there’s something about a real memory that looks different in the brain and that if so, that suggests my memory is real and I should confess it. I’m really working on stopping reassurance seeking as well, especially now that even after being told that nothing bad happened when the establishment I was at reviewed security footage, my brain is telling me “they’re probably just lying and never reviewed it.” I know I need to just stop ruminating, reassurance seeking, and mentally checking the memory, but I just don’t know if I can/should in case the image is what I should trust more, if that makes sense.
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- 16w
Mentions pocd Tw Tw Tw Tw Tw Tw Tw Tw My brain told me I looked up cp and I know I definitely did not but my brain played a memory of me looking it up and being on a website … I know it’s from a TikTok video about Africa and saving kids from slavery that the thought appeared from but still it’s terrifying I didn’t look it up
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