How do your “thoughts” come to you? Mine are so random and just pop out of nowhere. I think the feeling I get is the most disturbing part to me. I get chills, my stomach aches and I feel like I’m going to vomit. I get shaky. The fear is so intense and just instantly out of nowhere. What I struggle with the most is the guilt and fear “feeling” and because I’m feeling this I most be guilty or the thoughts are true because no innocent person would feel this. Does this happen to you guys as well?

rootytooty

Date posted: 5y

YEAH I find that my thoughts either come at random, or if I’m already stressed. Even though i love to travel, for example, it is one big trigger for me. Because doing one cultural faux pas for me turns into “Oh I’m terrible “ to “but why are you judging another culture” and then, finally, to intrusive thoughts that don’t make sense in anyway except for being expressions of fear. I use writing to deal with it lol. Sometimes I legit turn intrusive thoughts into horror stories, though I’m not 100% that’s productive

feethebee

Date posted: 5y

that part about turning intrusive thoughts into horror stories is hella interesting😳 is it helpful?

rootytooty

Date posted: 5y

@feethebee Sometimes! Though I do tread carefully because it’s kind of like exposure therapy in itself. The plus side though is that it gets it out of your system quicker like journalling does. And if you like what you wrote, you can twist it into a story. I think cabin in the woods is a good movie for someone who wants to expose themself to existentialism for example. I won’t spoil it but I think it has an interesting attitude to cosmic horror

feethebee

Date posted: 5y

@rootytooty that's nice, i might try it out. thanks!

feethebee

Date posted: 5y

completely at random to be honest. i could just be scrolling through my phone, see something as simple as a rock and get an intrusive thought about it like what if that rock crushed me and i died. i feel a very tight chest pain and my heart starts racing and i lose my appetite if im eating something at that moment. these physical symptoms usually don't last long but the mere fact that i even got these thoughts tortures me. it makes me question my sanity and my values. it's really hard

Anxiousaddie

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 5y

Mine kind of feel constant 😞

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