Anonymous
- Date posted
- 6y
atkyffatkyff
- Date posted
- 6y
I used to, but I don’t have this theme anymore. I was so bad at one point that I had to always ask people whether or not they ‘saw that person too’ or ‘heard that sound too’ because I was constantly convinced/worried I was hallucinating. It was awful, and went on for years. My therapist at the time said to me ‘it’s a good thing you can’t think yourself schizophrenic!’. After time, like other themes I’ve had, it ended up resolving itself. How? Because I stopped caring about/fearing schizophrenia, and accepted that that *could* be my fate. Classic OCD - accept what you’re scared of, and suddenly it holds no power. I haven’t figured out how to harness that for other themes just yet (as they all still feel so scary to me) but at least I know that it can be done. ?
Swiftie123Swiftie123
- Date posted
- 6y
yes same with me! mine is just about being crazy in general. it’s so hard to say you’re not scared of it when it’s so scary
rachel89rachel89
- Date posted
- 6y
Yes really intense and constant fear of having hallucinations
cwgrlup1990cwgrlup1990
- Date posted
- 6y
??? yes, that's one of my newest obsessions.. since I now know that the bi polar diagnosis with psychosis diagnosis that I recieved at 13 was bullshit, now I think that maybe it's not OCD either it's actually schizophrenia and the whole world had it wrong and I'm wrong.. and the cycle continues
atkyffatkyff
- Date posted
- 6y
cwgrlup1990 remember that all we have is ‘right now’. the fact is, any number of things can be in anyone’s future, whether that’s a diagnosis, an accident, even a lottery win! we have to learn to feel comfortable with that uncertainty, and that will be the key to alleviating a lot of this anxiety. It may help to think of some uncertainties that you deal with every day - things that you don’t put much thought to, such as ‘i might break my arm today’, ‘i might not like my dinner choice’ or ‘I might run into my ex’ hehe. these are all examples of things we go about our day not thinking about, and the only difference between those thoughts and the ‘i might be schizophrenic’ thought is your emotional reaction to them. Think about that, and try to use your ‘meh’ feelings about those thoughts to counter your fear thoughts about schizophrenia. a thought is just a thought! it only holds power if you assign it power. Another thing that helps is taking a breath and acknowledging that ‘this is right now, and right now i’m not schizophrenic or any number of things. i can deal with any of those things if I ever have to.’ Not sure if that made sense haha but hopefully it helps! ?
AnonymousAnonymous
- Date posted
- 6y
yes :(
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cait1299
- User type
- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 24w
Really struggling!
Hi guys! I had really bad harm ocd about 2 years ago and I went through therapy and eventually got really good at handling it when it would pop up. The other day, I was scrolling on TikTok and came across a girl talking about a guy who was presenting a lot of schizophrenic symptoms but no one paid attention and got him help, he was having a lot of delusions, hallucinating, thinking everyone was out to get him, thought he was Jesus and his dad was the president and ended up doing horrific things. The day after that, I was dealing with some work drama and had the thought of “what if all my coworkers are against me and trying to get me fired”. That really stressed me out, cause I don’t normally think about them like that and I went down a rabbit hole of thinking that was the beginning of me developing schizophrenia, ended up googling stuff all night, taking tests, crying and seeking reassurance. I had a thought the other day “your dad is the president”, this one didn’t stress me out as bad as I knew it was just the video I had seen and it was an intrusive thought about it, and I also didn’t believe it. Today I was with some friends and I got a prize at a place we went and it said “lonely” on it. I do have my moments of feeling lonely and this week has been specifically trying so I had a thought like “oh someone’s out to get me cause I got this”. I know this isn’t logical and it wouldn’t make sense to just randomly get it if someone was truly after me and it was just a stupid prize at a random place, anyone could’ve gotten it. Im just struggling a lot with schizophrenic OCD and thinking I’m in the pre stages of it. In my good moments, I don’t think I am at all and it was all just sparked from the video I watched but in my bad moments, these thoughts feel real!! They really stress me out and make me feel like I’m going to lose my mind causing me to lose my job/ end up in a psych hospital/ never live a normal life/ end up alone, never see me my loved ones/ hurt my loved ones. I just want to feel normal and not like I’m about to lose my mind and everything I care about. Please help!!! Anyone else going through something similar and can help me get through this!
DiegoIsLit808
- Date posted
- 22w
Advice?
Ive been struggling with the fear that if i am suicidal or something and ive been having like fears or intrusive thoughts of jumping off or losing control and acting on these thoughts and i dont know if this is just some very bad case of anxiety? Im always thinking about it trying to prove it wrong in my head and its gotten to a point where its effecting my sleep, i use chat gpt. I know deep down i dont wanna do any of it, i mean the very thought makes me panic quick so idk i just want to forget all these thoughts and i was wondering if anyone goes through this as well?
God’s Love
- Date posted
- 21w
Question
Please how can an intrusive thought be distinguished from our own thoughts ?
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