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This is not something that happens to women. It happens to men as well. I'm straight and have always been straight as far back as I can remember. However, wen I went to middle school I was bullied brutally. One of the things other kids bothered me about was that I was gay. I was not. It bothered me so much that my OCD started giving me intrusive thoughts about this. After fighting these thoughts for such a long time I decided to test myself and went through a period similar to yours. Or as any psychiatrist would say: I was a curious teenager. It was something that didn't feel right for me - it felt alien - and eventually I stopped. However, it's important to know that teenagers do this type of stuff and they are naturally curious about sex. As a therapist once told me: You could rub yourself against a chair or a sofa. It would feel good, but it doesn't mean you are sexually attracted to sofas or chairs. Gay people don't worry about being gay, but about how they will be accepted by others while embracing their sex sexuality at the same time. You, and me, we fight these thought because they feel alien and not our true sexuality. That's why we're getting OCD about it. You say: "I never had a thought I was gay [...] but it's been coming back to haunt me."
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Have a look at the most watched porn by females: https://www.google.co.uk/amp/s/www.vice.com/amp/en_uk/article/j5zzyp/heres-the-porn-that-women-watched-in-2018-according-to-pornhub
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People of all sexualities watch different types of porn! I think this is “normal”!! All my straight friends who watch porn have talked about watching lesbian porn here and there.
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Girl, I wouldn’t worry about it. :) I’m straight and used to do the same thing. It doesn’t mean you’re lesbian. Like myok said above, people of all sexualities watch different kinds of porn!
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You described my situation pretty accurately. I had always liked girls. In fact, I remember fantasizing about kissing girls and being naked with them from a very early age. I remember getting my first crush and the plenty of times I wanted to sleep with a girl I liked. But that time in middle school is always brought back by my OCD and tells me I've been living a lie. The fact that I haven't had a relationship in years also doesn't help. Stay strong and remember there are people going through the same agonizing time as you. I'm always here to talk it out with you if you'd like and so is the rest of the people here. :)
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I'm pretty sure just the sexual content of porn is enough to arouse anyone, regardless of the sexuality portrayed
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@Va that’s crazy! Just read the article!!!
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Has anyone experienced where you love woman everything about them, even to the point where you still can get erections watching normal porn, lesbian porn etc. but you find your self still admiring a good looking man. I’ve went through the groinal responses when seeing a man but honestly after watching porn and realizing it’s not about sex it went away. On the other hand even when there’s a male and a female in a picture I can’t stop looking at the male and judging, but the minute they’re naked I’m fine and looking at the woman. I started watching porn at a very young age so I’m wondering do I only sexualize woman and admire the man so in everyday life I don’t see her as beautiful because she’s not naked ? I understand as a straight male I can still think guys are attractive but why do I constantly notice them more than women? I also can admire and see when a girl is beautiful in the face but then if a dude that’s more attractive than me pops up in staring at him. Has anyone experience this?
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Have any other experienced mentally going through your past, and finding proof that you once looked at that masculine woman and thought she looked good or something, and now that is a total trigger for you. I mean, i have always been romantacally and saxual into men, and never have i ever wanted to be in a sexual relationship with a girl, that thought is really distressing to me, and actually makes me so sad. But these mentally reviewings has me finding episodes where i have looked at a masculine woman, and found her pretty, attractive or something. But they all looked like men .. and again, i could never see myself being sexual or haven a romantically relationsship with a woman, even thought she look like a man .. Have any other in here find themself in this endless tourturing loop, where you find proof of things … I mean, i have one thousands proofs that im into men, i have been in a relationship for 8 years new, but still these other pictures make me doubt everything about myself, and i am really sad .. Please tell me, that anyone else in here have experienced this, and know that it is normal for HOCD ..
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I really need help understanding what I’m going through. For a long time now, I’ve been struggling with thoughts and feelings about women that confuse and scare me. Sometimes I feel this strange emotional or mental ‘pull’ toward certain women — it’s not exactly sexual, and not clearly romantic either, but it feels like something, and it triggers deep anxiety. When I see a beautiful woman or a WLW (woman-loving-woman) couple, I feel something that I can’t explain — sometimes I think it’s just admiration or aesthetic appreciation, but OCD keeps telling me: “You felt something, so you must be gay,” or “You’re hiding something.” I get stuck in endless loops, trying to analyze these moments and label them. Even when I feel physical or emotional reactions, they don’t feel natural or aligned with who I am. They feel like a reaction to the idea of women, not real attraction. I try to be honest with myself — I even told a friend I might be bisexual at some point, just to test if that felt more comfortable. But it didn’t. It made things worse, and I felt like I lost touch with who I am. I don’t want to lie to myself or live in denial, but I’m exhausted. It feels like I’m being mentally forced to feel something that isn’t mine. I’m 14, and I understand that things might still be developing, but I can’t help feeling like I’ve always been drawn to men, and never naturally wanted women that way. Still, I keep doubting everything. Is this real attraction or OCD feeding false feelings and thoughts? Can OCD create emotional or mental sensations that feel like desire? I’m so scared that I’ll lose myself, or find out something I never wanted. I just want peace and to feel like myself again.
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