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- 6y ago
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I was diagnosed with OCD when I was a kid and its has had its ups and downs since then.( Im 18) When I was your age I remeber I had some pretty bad compulsions but now it's gotten better with work♡. I think its important you get a chance to go to theraphy, not just for diagnosis ( I think its pretty clear you do have intrusive thoughts) but to speak up about whats worrying you and find solutions alongside your therapist to fight them. If you can't go, there are plenty of tools online you can check one by one calmly. Just remember the thoughts and you as a person are different things, think of it as an unwanted bug in your head or cold water getting in your mind, whatever works best. Take things slowly, don't try to make sense of everything that happens and remember you are a good person ♡ The sole fact you react contrarily means your true self thinks otherwise from those thoughts.
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- 6y ago
Totally agree hearing the diagnosis from a doctor and realizing you have a illness and are not in fact “crazy” is very beneficial. From there you can start medication and/or therapy to start working out these problems. There’s nothing to be ashamed of everyone on this app is dealing with the very same problems. Always remember you are not alone and there is help !
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- 6y ago
I always knew there was something wrong with me but i didn't know what it was. Then on November or December of 2017 i watched this YouTube video from a youtuber who does really good videos of mental illness and she posted this video of how it is to have OCD and she legit did everything i do! She checked if her door was locked a lot, she checked if the stove was off to many times, she had to touch things a lot to make sure it felt right and many more things. So thanks to her i found out i had OCD.
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- 6y ago
I don’t understand why we weren’t educated more about mental illness in school!! I also had no clue what I was suffering with until 4 years ago and I have been suffering since I was 10 !! It’s sad everyone needs to be more educated about mental health then maybe people wouldn’t feel so scared and alone !
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- 6y ago
Looking back, Im fairly certain I had ocd tendencies as a kid, but it really truly started this past June. I had an awful intrusive thought the day before my high school graduation that gave me my first panic attack and left me obsessing about it for weeks—I was basically unable to mentally function, but because my anxiety disorders tend to be pretty high functioning, no one could really tell what was going on in my head. Just remembering the amount of fear and isolation I felt is still enough to bring me to tears. That was supposed to be a wonderful exciting time in my life—graduating and starting a new chapter—and OCD took that away from me. I researched my symptoms after a little while, and a page about OCD came up. I knew as soon as I read the info that I had ocd, and felt SO relieved that I wasn’t crazy. It took a while longer, but I eventually got a doctors appt and was diagnosed with OCD, generalized anxiety disorder, and I was recently diagnosed with panic disorder (although my panic attacks are thankfully infrequent). Now I am in counseling and am passionate about destroying mental health stigma, and am slowly improving the way that I cope with mental illness
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- 6y ago
You go girl !! ?????? we all are stronger then our minds!!
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- 6y ago
It does sound a bit like my story. Ever since I was a kid I've had symptoms, but when I was about 12 it got really bad. I started getting sexual and violent intrusive thoughts all the time and I would stay up real late at night because I was afraid I wouldn't wake up if I went to sleep. The thoughts got so bad I googled "having thoughts of things you don't wanna do" and that was how I started finding information about ocd. After that I suspected I might have it, but I didn't know what to do about it and when I tried to bring it up with my mom she didn't believe me. Then when I got older I started doing more research and the more stuff I found out, the more it sounded exactly like me, so somewhere later in high school I started realizing I actually do have it. I brought it up with a school therapist in college and that was the first time I really was able to hear from a professional that I have it, but that just barely happened, so I've went a long time without an actual diagnosis. I haven't even had therapy for it yet. I've just been doing as much research as I can and learning ways I can cope with it. When I was your age I didn't get the best responses when I told people I thought I might have ocd, so you'll want to stand your ground with it. And until you get therapy, remember to do your research!
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- 22w ago
I haven't been officially diagnosed with OCD but when I learned more about it, I never related to anything more. A little back story: when I was younger, there were a couple of youth suicides in my area and the schools felt the need to have someone come in and talk about suicide. Well the person they had come in did a horrible job teaching it and basically made it seem like the smallest negative emotion or feeling or change in behavior made you suicidal. This ended up scaring me so much that I got horrid anxiety. Fast forward to now, Everytime I feel anxiety and panic, I fear I'm going to kill myself. Everytime I feel down and depressed, I fear I'll end it all. I'm scared to be around anything sharp because the "What if" I hurt myself comes into my mind. There are always intrusive thoughts at almost every point of the day. And it's not only for me. Everytime I hear someone being negative, I fear they will be suicidal. I know in my heart that none of this is true but it's terrifying me that it's stuck around so much that it makes me scared that maybe it is true. I've had a lot of death in my family in the past year and a half and a lot of other family drama that I'd never had before that is now also bringing up existential intrusive thoughts. And I'd never questioned anything about life before but now I get the "why is life like this?" and "does anything we do matter?" and I hate it. I don't want to think like that. I just want to go through life being able to handle things normally again. It terrifies me even right now going "what if you give up?"
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- 21w ago
So I've had OCD since I was a child. Like really young. The first intrusive thought I can remember was when I was 5. It just keeps getting worse and lately they've been making me physically ill or throwing me into extreme panic attacks again ( ones where I can't move my body ) the other night I thought God was trying to kill me because I was thinking about ending myself from OCD+ life issues but in reality I was just having a panic attack😭😭it affects me daily. It gets a little better with therapy but I don't see therapy coming into my life any time soon and I'm not even sure if I would want to go (for multiple reasons). To wrap this up if you have severe ocd can you tell me what it's like?? I don't want to label anything without proper research and hearing others perspectives. Thank you!! <3 (My profile says all of my subtypes if that helps any)
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- 14w ago
Hi, I’m new here!! I’m praying I don’t get judged for this. But, back in late May of 2022 ( literally right before I graduated high school), I added this one random girl from my school on Snapchat. She posted something about a graduation party , so I swiped up on her story basically saying how I can’t believe we’re almost graduated. She replied and we had a really short and simple conversation. The next day ( i believe) , we started talking a lot , and I just so happened to see her at the highschool when we were grabbing our graduation outfits and doing the rehearsal. When I saw her irl, I kinda got turned off ( I heard she was kinda crazy) , and on top of that , she was a little ugly irl. I remember seeing her Snapchat bio , and she was close friends with my female cousin ( a year younger than me) , who I happened to experiment sexually with when I was 10-11 years old. I remember going to work later that day and having sort of a lightbulb flick thought ( it wasn’t a good thought though) , what if my cousin told her about what happened when we were younger? So I started to kind of panic and immediately distanced myself from that girl. I also experimented sexually with one of my female friends when I was 10-11 , and from that day onwards, I’ve been pretty much living in paranoia and a little bit of guilt about someone finding out and my life being ruined . On top of that, It’s gotten worse to now sometimes I wonder if a girl I added off of quick add ( Snapchat) is underage even if they told me they were 18+ or had 18 and above in their bio, and I get so much guilt and anxiety about that. I even had a quick thought last February on what if I did something inappropriate with my younger cousin when I was 15-16 but I just can’t exactly remember when it happened , and it still eats me alive when I think about it, because I don’t know if it happened or not. I’m sorry for the long vent, I just wish I felt normal again. No matter how much I try to do things that old me used to do, life always feels “ off”. I always kept the top part about when I was younger a secret up until early (ish ) 2024, then I vented to one of my best friends and he told me that that’s a normal thing to do at a young age. Since then, I have told multiple friends and they all say they did similar stuff, but my brain just can’t accept that. Please help me, I quite literally overthink everything nowadays. 2021 was the last full year that I felt normal ( coincidentally, the best year of my life so far) . It’s not just about sexual related things either, sometimes I’ll wonder if I messed up something at work or hit a car while driving/hit someone and drove off. I just wanna live my life how I was supposed to live it after highschool ( carefree and happy) before whatever it is ( I think it’s ocd) hit me unexpectedly. Thanks to anyone who read this , I just needed to pour it out regardless of how negative I felt typing this, I hope someone can relate , because I feel so alone in my head at times.
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