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- 6y ago
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- 6y ago
I was diagnosed with OCD when I was a kid and its has had its ups and downs since then.( Im 18) When I was your age I remeber I had some pretty bad compulsions but now it's gotten better with work♡. I think its important you get a chance to go to theraphy, not just for diagnosis ( I think its pretty clear you do have intrusive thoughts) but to speak up about whats worrying you and find solutions alongside your therapist to fight them. If you can't go, there are plenty of tools online you can check one by one calmly. Just remember the thoughts and you as a person are different things, think of it as an unwanted bug in your head or cold water getting in your mind, whatever works best. Take things slowly, don't try to make sense of everything that happens and remember you are a good person ♡ The sole fact you react contrarily means your true self thinks otherwise from those thoughts.
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- 6y ago
Totally agree hearing the diagnosis from a doctor and realizing you have a illness and are not in fact “crazy” is very beneficial. From there you can start medication and/or therapy to start working out these problems. There’s nothing to be ashamed of everyone on this app is dealing with the very same problems. Always remember you are not alone and there is help !
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- 6y ago
I always knew there was something wrong with me but i didn't know what it was. Then on November or December of 2017 i watched this YouTube video from a youtuber who does really good videos of mental illness and she posted this video of how it is to have OCD and she legit did everything i do! She checked if her door was locked a lot, she checked if the stove was off to many times, she had to touch things a lot to make sure it felt right and many more things. So thanks to her i found out i had OCD.
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- 6y ago
I don’t understand why we weren’t educated more about mental illness in school!! I also had no clue what I was suffering with until 4 years ago and I have been suffering since I was 10 !! It’s sad everyone needs to be more educated about mental health then maybe people wouldn’t feel so scared and alone !
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- 6y ago
Looking back, Im fairly certain I had ocd tendencies as a kid, but it really truly started this past June. I had an awful intrusive thought the day before my high school graduation that gave me my first panic attack and left me obsessing about it for weeks—I was basically unable to mentally function, but because my anxiety disorders tend to be pretty high functioning, no one could really tell what was going on in my head. Just remembering the amount of fear and isolation I felt is still enough to bring me to tears. That was supposed to be a wonderful exciting time in my life—graduating and starting a new chapter—and OCD took that away from me. I researched my symptoms after a little while, and a page about OCD came up. I knew as soon as I read the info that I had ocd, and felt SO relieved that I wasn’t crazy. It took a while longer, but I eventually got a doctors appt and was diagnosed with OCD, generalized anxiety disorder, and I was recently diagnosed with panic disorder (although my panic attacks are thankfully infrequent). Now I am in counseling and am passionate about destroying mental health stigma, and am slowly improving the way that I cope with mental illness
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- 6y ago
You go girl !! ?????? we all are stronger then our minds!!
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- 6y ago
It does sound a bit like my story. Ever since I was a kid I've had symptoms, but when I was about 12 it got really bad. I started getting sexual and violent intrusive thoughts all the time and I would stay up real late at night because I was afraid I wouldn't wake up if I went to sleep. The thoughts got so bad I googled "having thoughts of things you don't wanna do" and that was how I started finding information about ocd. After that I suspected I might have it, but I didn't know what to do about it and when I tried to bring it up with my mom she didn't believe me. Then when I got older I started doing more research and the more stuff I found out, the more it sounded exactly like me, so somewhere later in high school I started realizing I actually do have it. I brought it up with a school therapist in college and that was the first time I really was able to hear from a professional that I have it, but that just barely happened, so I've went a long time without an actual diagnosis. I haven't even had therapy for it yet. I've just been doing as much research as I can and learning ways I can cope with it. When I was your age I didn't get the best responses when I told people I thought I might have ocd, so you'll want to stand your ground with it. And until you get therapy, remember to do your research!
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- 20w ago
I haven't been officially diagnosed with OCD but when I learned more about it, I never related to anything more. A little back story: when I was younger, there were a couple of youth suicides in my area and the schools felt the need to have someone come in and talk about suicide. Well the person they had come in did a horrible job teaching it and basically made it seem like the smallest negative emotion or feeling or change in behavior made you suicidal. This ended up scaring me so much that I got horrid anxiety. Fast forward to now, Everytime I feel anxiety and panic, I fear I'm going to kill myself. Everytime I feel down and depressed, I fear I'll end it all. I'm scared to be around anything sharp because the "What if" I hurt myself comes into my mind. There are always intrusive thoughts at almost every point of the day. And it's not only for me. Everytime I hear someone being negative, I fear they will be suicidal. I know in my heart that none of this is true but it's terrifying me that it's stuck around so much that it makes me scared that maybe it is true. I've had a lot of death in my family in the past year and a half and a lot of other family drama that I'd never had before that is now also bringing up existential intrusive thoughts. And I'd never questioned anything about life before but now I get the "why is life like this?" and "does anything we do matter?" and I hate it. I don't want to think like that. I just want to go through life being able to handle things normally again. It terrifies me even right now going "what if you give up?"
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- 13w ago
Anyone else develop it in their 30s? I’m 33 and just started showing symptoms in October 2024. So far have only been diagnosed with GAD , PD and depression.I started having intrusive thoughts after a series of panic attacks . My compulsions would be googling. I have made an effort to stop though because it only makes me feel worse. My intrusive thoughts have been around fear of going crazy
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- Date posted
- 12w ago
Looking back, I realize I’ve had OCD since I was 7. though I wasn’t diagnosed until I was 30. As a kid, I was consumed by fears I couldn’t explain: "What if God isn’t real? What happens when we die? How do I know I’m real?" These existential thoughts terrified me, and while everyone has them from time to time, I felt like they were consuming my life. By 12, I was having daily panic attacks about death and war, feeling untethered from reality as depersonalization and derealization set in. At 15, I turned to drinking, spending the next 15 years drunk, trying to escape my mind. I hated myself, struggled with my body, and my intrusive thoughts. Sobriety forced me to face it all head-on. In May 2022, I finally learned I had OCD. I remember the exact date: May 10th. Reading about it, I thought, "Oh my God, this is it. This explains everything." My main themes were existential OCD and self-harm intrusive thoughts. The self-harm fears were the hardest: "What if I kill myself? What if I lose control?" These thoughts terrified me because I didn’t want to die. ERP changed everything. At first, I thought, "You want me to confront my worst fears? Are you kidding me?" But ERP is gradual and done at your pace. My therapist taught me to lean into uncertainty instead of fighting it. She’d say, "Maybe you’ll kill yourself—who knows?" At first, it felt scary, but for OCD, it was freeing. Slowly, I realized my thoughts were just thoughts. ERP gave me my life back. I’m working again, I’m sober, and for the first time, I can imagine a future. If you’re scared to try ERP, I get it. But if you’re already living in fear, why not try a set of tools that can give you hope?
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