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You do not need to tell your partner about the content of your intrusive thoughts. You can disclose that you have ocd and explain a bit about how ocd works and how that effects your life in certain ways, but you do not know or ever have to go into the content. It’s not a matter of secrecy, it’s privacy. Your ocd isn’t a threat to anyone but yourself and it’s content isn’t relevant to anyone but you and your therapist.
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I've heard that and perhaps you're right. I think I would have difficulty feeling like I was keeping information that could significantly alter their opinion of me. Thinking they might change their mind based on that info would make me feel like I wasn't truly loved for who I am?
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@Ben84 It will feel difficult at first, especially because confessing is a huge compulsion for many people with ocd. But not confessing your throughts to your partner is actually good for both your ocd and your relationship. You want to keep your ocd and your recovery in your corner and not hold anyone else responsible or involve them. If they know you have ocd, then they know you have horrible thoughts you hate. There is no secret here to hide. They can truly love you and respect your privacy in this case.
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@pureolife Not a bad way to put it. Thanks ☺.
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I understand what you're saying. I think anyone with OCD should look at ways of explaining ocd to their new partner first. Just starting with "I have OCD about attraction to minors" to someone who doesnt even understand OCD would be alarming. OCD is really hard to understand for someone who doesnt have it so that in itself is a units worth of lesson planning on it's own lol. I think once the individual understands that, the topic of theme would be easier
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"Lesson planning" lol 😅! Another part that makes it difficult is I live in a fairly small community and work with kids for a living. I'm worried there won't be a point where they'd understand and I'd lose my job and have to move 😓. I suppose I'm projecting and catastrophizing 😞.
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@Ben84 I understand. That would concern me too. I think you also need to look at what you have to.offer and if what you find out there would be good enough for you too. Everyone has baggage. Not just you. Tru for now to just explore and even see what's out there. Might not even be worth worrying about if no one peaks your interest or what if you find someone super understanding? You know? Don't make yourself go through the concern twice if you can avoid it (although I know how difficult that is)
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@catattak Thanks ☺. How are you doing these days?
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You may be right. I guess because I have OCD I wouldn't care either way if they decided to disclose their thoughts. I just have this concern that I won't find someone who shares the same view. I keep thinking things like "What if they ask me what's the strangest thought or dream you've ever had" I would then have to lie...
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@Ben84 Instead of lying, you could say (to yourself) that YOUR weirdest thought was “xyz”; you just don’t have to mention that your OCD’s weirdest thought was “qrs”.
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@ARTnotOCD Interesting spin ☺. I don't know if I can accept it, but it's something to consider.
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@Ben84 You can also simply say “my ocd gives me too many weird thoughts to pick just one. And I don’t like to talk about them because they’re so difficult for me to handle.”
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I’ve often found when you really love someone it doesn’t matter what category of person you tend to be attracted to. I’ve had a number of friends who, for example, consider themselves gay, and wound up happily marrying a person of opposite gender. And in your case, it’s your OCD theme, not even who YOU are truly attracted to. Don’t even feel the need to share that you have OCD before you are ready to. Yes, if a relationship develops, that’s something you’re not going to want to hide if you’re even able to. But you absolutely don’t have to share your unwanted OCD thoughts. Maybe you’ll get to a point where you can and want to, but if not, that’s ok. I’ve been with my now husband for over 16 years. There were times I shared my unwanted images/thoughts and he freaked out, though didn’t love me any less. And there are times now, when I can share more without his freaking out because he understands a little bit more about OCD. Or at least he understands that there is so much of it that he’ll probably never quite understand. So only very recently, if I share that I’m seeing really violent images/thoughts, he knows he can ask if he needs to worry or if he just needs to comfort me because it’s just not a fun thought. Even then, I usually don’t describe the full details of the thought or image, partially because I don’t want to keep focusing on it either. Don’t let OCD tell you that you NEED to disclose anything. Confessional OCD can also be hard to fight. So can ruminating on all possibilities before you’re at that stage. Sending you strength! 💜💪🏼
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Thanks 😊!
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