- Username
- emma18
- Date posted
- 4y ago
I think if youre in a position financially then go for it, I understand your anxiety. Its tough for anyone to do that, but you're right you can't live there forever, and the only way to get over your fears is by pushing through it. You can handle those feelings, thats all they are. Of course if the anxiety is very intense, you could benefit from talking to a professional or a close person to explain it is difficult and you may need help easing into your new home. All the best
Thanks for that. I’m going to go for it but I have so many drawbacks. But I know that i can do it
@erma12 You absolutely can do it, lifes tough you know, but what's the alternative? what's holding back gonna do apart from "keeping you safe" and having regrets later in life because you didnt allow yourself to live. Embrace the risk, you'll become more independent and strong from doing it. I wish you all the best
@J ☀️ Thank you. You as well :)
I know I can’t live here forever*
Are you seeking treatment for your anxiety? Currently I’m in crisis and greatly struggling during covid times and have temporarily moved back to my parents house because the isolation of living alone was too much. My anxiety would overwhelm me without outside stimulus. Now I’m in a similar position - of being petrified to be alone with myself. To help, I’m not frantically seeking treatment and therapies of all kinds to get a better handle on my own mind so I can take control of my life again and stop being so codependent.
Yes I am and it’s helping a lot and I’m getting better but I worry that there’s some things I’ll never be able to do again. COVID definitely hurt me. I had a pretty much independent life and now I have so much trouble doing anything. The constant exposures is sooo necessary and it’s been hard with everything going on but I’m trying my best to slowly get back out there. I’m going to just go for it and deal with my anxiety in the moment. I know I’m able to do it it’s just a huge step for me. And I know you’ll be able to be independent again too. We’re both getting treatment and are on the way to the life we deserve
@erma12 thank you very much for the encouragement <3 you’re very brave for going ahead and doing it despite the anxiety. we were alright once and we will be again!
@livstaudz So true! You are brave too. These are not easy times. We will be okay again :)
i AM* seeking treatment, terrible typo ^
do you ever feel paralyzed or scared to just get out of bed because what if the thoughts get worse because you're interrupting your mind being distracted i dread having to get up to even use the bathroom. being with my boyfriend helps but then it just gets bad again even while im with him. I just can't function im starting a new job soon too and I'm in online college. I can't bring myself to do any of it. the guilt, shame, anxiety, and fears just take over.
I’m so scared. I don’t even know who to talk to at this point. I started having sexual OCD thoughts recently about people that I don’t want to and I’m terrified. I recently had a psych ward stay (voluntary) for a very stressful life event and now I have this. I’m currently staying with my parents while I go through an outpatient program and they have no idea about the OCD. I live in Ohio. I’m afraid I’ll have to go inpatient again. I’m unemployed and currently am on Medicaid but have a lot of savings from lucky investments. I can’t get a NOCD therapist because I’m on Medicaid and also because I’m in an outpatient program. I’m afraid I’m too far gone and crazy now. I’m just laying in my bedroom at my parents’ house and crying. I don’t know what to do.
Kind of a vent, thank you if you read all the way through. It feels like every time a new chapter of my life opens up or is on the horizon, my OCD flares up so bad. I get imposter syndrome, I get the urge to confess, self-sabotage, ruminate, etc. I’m moving in with my boyfriend’s family soon. Me and him are long-distance (14 hours away from each other), and this move means we will be able to get married sooner. I am SO excited! … but I also have ROCD soooo bad. My OCD tries to convince me I’m a liar, I’m an imposter, I don’t deserve him, “what if I cheated on him and can’t remember?”, etc. and it’s miserable it eats me up. It feels like lately I’m having 1 good day and then 3 bad days, over and over again. Me and him just met in person for the first time this year (in June actually) after knowing each other 4 years and being together for 2. I have also had some other life changes, family drama, and now moving on top of all of that, I can’t help but wonder if change *itself* is triggering my OCD. I stayed with my boyfriend and his family for a month, and I loved it! My OCD was bad maybe the first week I was there, and it flared here and there, but I was able to cope and I felt so hopeful. It was really nice being around his family a lot, his siblings and parents are really fun to be around and my OCD is much better when I’m around people. Now, I’ve been home for almost a month, and throughout the past month I’ve been so anxious on and off with OCD flares. I got home, and then the next day my mom went out of state for about 2 weeks and I was home completely alone. Going from always being around people and talking to them, to being home completely alone and sleeping alone, it drove me crazy. I am also thinking of my future and I’m simultaneously excited and terrified. I’m so scared for when me and my boyfriend get married and eventually have children, I want kids so bad, but I’m scared because I have to be off my meds (Clomipramine) during pregnancy. I’m afraid that if I can barely cope *now* while I’m medicated, how the heck will I cope when I’m pregnant and unmedicated for 9 months? It’s just so many thoughts roll in and my OCD and anxiety takes over and I’m so sick of being so overwhelmed all the time. I’m so sick of feeling knots in my stomach for not confessing or ruminating. Please, does anybody relate?
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