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Eden, I worry about the same thing all the time. I don’t have an easy answer except that only a person with OCD would worry about not having OCD.
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I think this is pretty normal. Although the conscious act of faking other mental illnesses for attention is, ironically, a sort of mental illness in itself - almost like Munchausen Syndrome, just with mental health - it sounds like you have legitimate OCD. And many people without the above desire for mental illness may experience temporary or long-term desires to be diagnosed with mental illnesses for their own reasons (this can be unconscious within the mind as well). My point is, of course, that yes, it sounds like you have OCD, and a professional diagnosis will most likely help to prove it. And not only that, but wanting a mental illness can be pretty normal, particularly within the OCD community. It’s great that you’re wanting to raise awareness for this community, and I wish you the best of luck in your diagnosis and treatment plan!
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Thanks guys! My my issue is that, even though I think about it a lot and it pisses me off, the idea that I’m faking it doesn’t cause me much anxiety at the moment. I guess that’s because my obsessions have been pretty minimal lately and I’m doing okay (because this time a month ago, it definitely did cause me stress). Djdhhsjsh idk I just feel like it has to get bad again for me to get properly diagnosed!
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For example, the other day I got diagnosed with TMJ (it’s a weird bone thing -physical not mental) and I wasn’t even upset about it. In fact I was pretty happy because it made me feel unique and I wanted to tell people. My TMJ isn’t all that bad, and if it was worse or if it was a different, more dangerous condition, maybe I wouldn’t feel this way. But it’s so attention seeking to be HAPPY about a disorder and I hate that I am. So what if this is what I’m doing with OCD?
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- 25w
I've never been diagnosed with OCD, but have thought for a long time that I do have it. I've tried to bring it up in therapy but have been shot down as "OCD tendencies". Luckily I'm with a new therapist and am planning to bring it up again. Especially after reading a lot of your posts, I'm really resonating with them. Especially my anxieties and obsessions with my health. God forbid I feel any weird pain or ache, I instantly think I'm dying. Sometimes I get a weird pain in my head and think it's a stroke or aneurysm. Ill go as far as the perform the stroke FAST test. This happens multiple times a day. I also have HUGE anxieties about death and my mortality. If I think about it too much, I get this deep cold pit in my stomach and spiral. Even talking about it causes me sooo much distress. I'm just worried I'll be dismissed or told I'm just self diagnosing because I related to a post online. But if any of this sounds accurate, please let me know. I'd love to be reassured of my obsessions rather than just dismissed as being anxious.
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Last year during April I started to experience groinal responses when I looked at kids. I was terrified of what it could mean and decided to attempt two weeks later. The very next day I had those responses I decided to attempt. I didn’t really have the courage to do so at that time but I started experiencing images about disturbing things done to kids and as days went by it got worse. April 16 was the last straw and I couldn’t take it anymore. I ended up in a mental hospital but before I ended up there I had searched up what I was experiencing. That’s when I started to understand that it was OCD. I felt relieved for a few moments until I felt the urge to get more information. I saw lots and lots of things and many comments saying that it wasn’t normal and that people who went through this were disgusting people who shouldn’t be allowed to roam free. That’s when my anxiety and fear became worse and I tried to get rid of it but nothing worked. I shook the entire time I was awake, I didn’t have motivation for anything anymore, I just felt so disgusting. In the end, I’m so glad I ended up in that mental hospital or else I wouldn’t be here with my friends and family. Thank you for reading my story, I’m so glad that I’m not alone
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My mom will sit and listen to me for quite a while, but she interrupts a lot and gets angry/upset. While I appreciate her passion, it's often stressful. Every time I come to her, if I even *mention* OCD, she gets frustrated and says, "Everyone deals with these issues, you know. It doesn't mean it's OCD." And I repeat, "I'm not saying my issues are unique — I'm saying the way I respond to them is a problem." But she just shakes her head and says, "Okay, I need to get back to my day." Full context, I'm an adult, and I live with my boyfriend, but I'm staying at my mom's for the next month. After living away from home for years, I went back to living with her during the pandemic, and I only recently left to live with him. Honestly, I think living with her for so long in my adulthood really messed with me and made me feel like a teenager all over again. I feel like my mental growth is stunted, and that's part of why my OCD is so bad lately. Not blaming, just noticing. She doesn't seem to understand how relieving the OCD diagnosis has been for me, because it explains so so so many things I've struggled with for years, and it's exciting to have more resources that can help me. But I think she sees it as me finding an excuse to *not* work on myself, which is just untrue. I'm not going to let OCD hold me back or use it as an excuse, but I'm also not going to pretend it's not a problem when I know it is — I was even diagnosed through NOCD. The whole point being to fix it, not use it as a crutch. When I have an issue, it's unbearable. Any issue, big or small, feels just the same. I feel a sinking feeling, my mind races, my heart beats out of my chest. I end up running to my support systems, crying, ruminating for days on end. Then, months later, the same exact issue can feel like nothing anymore, because it's no longer an obsession. I'm sure everyone deals with issues in a similar way, but I *know* there is something specific and debilitating going on with me. This is reassurance seeking, but in the face of being told I'm making a big deal out of nothing, can someone diagnosed with OCD tell me if they relate to the specific intensity of these feelings??
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