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- 7710 ❤️
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- 3y ago
I felt the same way in my last two relationships. Do I really want to be with this person, blah blah , when we did break up it was very difficult for me to deal with because then I found out how much I really cared. Ocd ruined both of those relationships. I know it. Hope you’re getting the help you need.
Right now I am feeling off after he kissed my cheek... 😞 I ask myself do I really wanna be with him forever? I can’t tell if this off feeling is anxiety or not... but I do know I don’t wanna be with someone else. I am so scared bc righ now I feel like I am saying the polar opposite than that.... 😞 I just wanted to know if anyone on here convinced themselves they weren’t I. Love with their partners?... I cried to my mom and sister saying I don’t wanna break up 😭😭
Hi Amanda, I think it’s unhelpful to rely on your feelings as a sign that everything is okay and that you love your partner. Feeling “off” or bored with your partner and making a judgement about your relationship from that, seems to be the practice of one ocd cognitive distortion called “emotional reasoning”. You’re not always going to have that “in love” feeling but yet you can still love and want to be with your partner just like as the fact that you may love a particular book but not always feel engrossed by it when you pick it up, yet it’s still your favorite book.
I feel like I know I’m lying...
@Mandy7710 I’m sorry about that.. I can understand the feeling. Even when you feel that way, try your best to stay present with your partner. Don’t look to your feelings to determine if you’re doing erp correctly. Erp is a practice that you consistently do despite how you feel.
....I even told them I don’t want someone else and I could tell I was being truthful. But why is it now I am near him I feel so off...
I truly hope you can receive help from an ocd specialist ❣️ I think it’s fair to say that seeking reassurance and engaging in compulsions is keeping you in this painful cycle. It’s hard for everyone to practice erp, but it truly is what helped me and many others as well as therapy!
I feel so off and numb... I love him, I don’t wanna break up with him... I am just worried I don’t wanna make love with him anymore but I still touch his butt.
Starting out this morning with rushing thoughts at 8am, went to see my therapist at 11, everything was okay, and that I can label these things as OCD, but it’s still difficult, especially right now at work. And then, before work, my girlfriend and I were having lunch, and I could just see that I’m a complete mess. She has to deal with my shit, and yes we do want a future together, but now I realize since I suppose I was diagnosed with OCD today, she seemed disappointed and she said she was scared about if I do get over this theme, what would be my next one. I just felt miserable because she was irritated that I don’t say much anymore, because my thoughts are just constantly there and I’m just tired of all this.
I’m so confused right now. I feel really calm about my intrusive thoughts and I feel calm overall. I can still get moments of feeling uneasy but overall I’m calmer. Yesterday was really difficult. Does that mean I don’t have OCD? I just don’t get this. Even today I was scared with the thought of what If I’m lying about my intrusive thoughts and my experience with OCD and I’m really just a crazy person.....and then later today when I felt calmer I was like omg what if I really don’t have OCD and I really I’m just making it up. I feel so calm right now. I’m kind of guessing maybe because I talked to my mom about my some intrusive thoughts have and have had in the past and I was worried about telling her but she understood and so I feel a weight lifted off my shoulders. Is it possible to suddenly feel ok?
i have thoughts about incest, specifically from trauma, and i love my boyfriend and we are intimate. 99 percent of the time when i have intrusive thoughts during sex im able to move past them, but yesterday, my mother ended up texting me during it (TMI i know lol), which stressed me out, which caused more intrusive thoughts PLUS groinal responses, then she decided to go into the kitchen that’s RIGHT outside my room, causing more thoughts and feelings, while this was happening me and my bf were intimate in the moment and it felt as if the thoughts and feelings helped me finish, i was trying so hard NOT to think about them that i sortve thought about them on purpose???? it’s weird to explain… i told my bf about it since he knows about my ocd and he suggested we could take a break if it ever got that bad again, but it’s making me question myself and my morals i guess like now i feel like i really enjoy those thoughts and im just making excuses for myself. i feel so horrible and this is so haunting to me my ocd therapist doesn’t even know how to do erp for this according to her and i just feel so stuck
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