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I felt the same way in my last two relationships. Do I really want to be with this person, blah blah , when we did break up it was very difficult for me to deal with because then I found out how much I really cared. Ocd ruined both of those relationships. I know it. Hope you’re getting the help you need.
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Right now I am feeling off after he kissed my cheek... 😞 I ask myself do I really wanna be with him forever? I can’t tell if this off feeling is anxiety or not... but I do know I don’t wanna be with someone else. I am so scared bc righ now I feel like I am saying the polar opposite than that.... 😞 I just wanted to know if anyone on here convinced themselves they weren’t I. Love with their partners?... I cried to my mom and sister saying I don’t wanna break up 😭😭
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Hi Amanda, I think it’s unhelpful to rely on your feelings as a sign that everything is okay and that you love your partner. Feeling “off” or bored with your partner and making a judgement about your relationship from that, seems to be the practice of one ocd cognitive distortion called “emotional reasoning”. You’re not always going to have that “in love” feeling but yet you can still love and want to be with your partner just like as the fact that you may love a particular book but not always feel engrossed by it when you pick it up, yet it’s still your favorite book.
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I feel like I know I’m lying...
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@Mandy7710 I’m sorry about that.. I can understand the feeling. Even when you feel that way, try your best to stay present with your partner. Don’t look to your feelings to determine if you’re doing erp correctly. Erp is a practice that you consistently do despite how you feel.
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....I even told them I don’t want someone else and I could tell I was being truthful. But why is it now I am near him I feel so off...
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I truly hope you can receive help from an ocd specialist ❣️ I think it’s fair to say that seeking reassurance and engaging in compulsions is keeping you in this painful cycle. It’s hard for everyone to practice erp, but it truly is what helped me and many others as well as therapy!
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I feel so off and numb... I love him, I don’t wanna break up with him... I am just worried I don’t wanna make love with him anymore but I still touch his butt.
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I’ve had so many moments of clarity with my OCD that I love my boyfriend and I’m beyond willing to go through this to be better and be with him. in the back of mind I’ve in a way known I was at least somewhat sexually attracted to women (I’m a woman) since the start of the ocd it was always like “okay. Fine, but I don’t want to date a girl” I only just realized this after the ocd started, I never really argued with this. my ocd has always revolved around if I’m romantically interested in women and not men. I’ve done so many compulsions through this year and a half and 9 times out of 10 have come to the conclusion that I don’t want to be with a woman romantically. I always end up feeling like I know I love my boyfriend. But the doubts don’t stop about whether I want to spend my life with a woman instead, my heart literally breaks to think of not being with my bf and imagining him with someone else. I don’t want to be with a woman I know deep down somewhere underneath the anxiety that that’s not what I want. It doesn’t feel natural for me, unfulfilling. I want to tell my boyfriend about the possible sexual attraction to women (ik it’s still ocd related) but I’m scared that once I tell him, I’ll realize that I actually do want to be with women and not with him. Ugh I’ve spent hours today ruminating about this after being solid in my commitment with him for a little while, I’m stuck in this loop and idk how to get out right now
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- 23w
For the past 3 months ish I’ve been struggling on and off with this anxiety and fixation over my relationship. To wondering if i still have feelings for an old friend, wondering if i actually love him, wondering if the thoughts are all real and im just trying to cover it up with ocd. It sucks, when im talking to my boyfriend i feel fine. The words i love you and talks about the future come naturally. I can’t imagine myself with anyone but him. But this constant rumination on my relationship is KILLING me and I’m scared it’s going to ruin what i have. It makes me numb and disconnected which therefore makes me believe the thoughts even more. They just feel so real sometimes and it’s so scary like why can i not just enjoy it. We’ve been together for a while so i know there’s periods of like feelings ebb and flowing but this is so much more. It’s just constantly sitting on my chest with anxiety. My compulsions are coming on this app, looking at photos of us and confessing it to him. He’s very understanding and helpful. I love him so much. I just need help / I’m also just starting new meds as well ..
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- 19w
i’ve been dealing with this “thing” since i was 15. (i’m 23 now) if i have a bad memory that i have done when i was really young or just an intrusive thought i feel like i need to tell my mom or boyfriend. it’s been on and off ever since but since January hit it’s been an everyday thing about the littlest things. mostly about my relationship. an example is i was talking to someone random at my job and we were talking about taxes and when im in deep thought or just thinking i do a thing where i bite my lip (not in the sexual way) and i had a thought when it happened “was that sexual?” and i felt like i did something wrong and i went for a while thinking that until i told my boyfriend about it. or like my ex’s face has popped up in my head in the most inappropriate times and i feel the need that i have to tell him. (my ex was not a good person) i feel like im a prisoner in my head everyday, trying to justify thoughts or remind myself that its just a thought. i didnt know that this was or could be a form of ocd. it runs in my family but i’ve just never considered it being this. i always called it anxiety or depression but i always felt like it is more than that.
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