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Sexual orientation is a really complex subject. When I realized I was gay, I was filled with happiness and relief because I really was not attracted to men. Even as a kid, I never really pictured myself doing the same things as other girls. Even if you were gay, or bi, that would be okay. You are very very young and you have plenty of time to figure out relationships and sexuality. You don’t have to do anything you don’t want to do, and there is nothing wrong with running through scenarios in your head. Thoughts are just thoughts and they don’t mean anything unless you want them to. You can think about whatever you want.
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does this sound like hocd though. and thank you so much for the response x
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@anonymous040107 definitely sounds like hocd. Obsessing over whether or not you actually have OCD is a symptom of OCD. You’re gonna be okay bb
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You can search up on YouTube HOCD
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i have done that and it honestly makes me feel so much better but minutes after the video stops my intrusive thoughts and scary thoughts come back! thanks for the response though!
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@anonymous040107 Yeah hold on
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@Peridottttt wdym?
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@anonymous040107 Hold on to ocd don’t give it reassurance
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@anonymous040107 The reason it’s not getting better is because you’re searching on YouTube which is seeking reassurance and it’s a compulsion
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i totally relate omg i have been struggling SO much for like the past 2 months and it has been so hard for me. i feel a lot of relief that i’m not the only one. i am straight but i kept freaking out that i was possibly gay or bi or had a crush on a girl. i still struggle a lot but i switched it to whether or not i have a crush on a family member or teacher or friends parent etc. (which i don’t) but i’m here if u need to vent and maybe we can help each other somehow 💗
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i am so so so sorry your going through this. i wouldn’t wish this on my worst enemy it’s awful! you’ll get through this!🤍
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@anonymous040107 thank you so much 💜💜 it means a lot
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i have also had boyfriends( well when i was 11/12 so they don’t really count) but i remember thinking when my best friend got with the guy i like i got reallly mad and jealous. i would give anything to feel like that again. a few months back when i was at the stage where i could simply ignore the intrusive thoughts the guy i liked was paying more attention to my bestfriend then he was to me and again i remember feeling mad and jealous. now if i think like that it’s telling me the opposite and tricking my mind into thinking i’m gay or bi
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