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Rule number 1 dont look things up online it will not help you unless you are looking for professional help
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Google has been my worst enemy. I have religious ocd and would google stuff and it qlways ended bad with the thought of me going to hell.
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@Anonymous Actually i worry about that too. Because im a afraid of being this bad guy so then i think if i die well im going down. Its not pleasant
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I don't think a narcissist would freak our from the thought that they might be like that. The probably wouldn't notice, maybe just regret, but not be afraid and suffer. Do you know like at least 1 person who would really be a narcissist and suffer from it so much?
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it’s just hard because covert narcissists are more ‘lowkey’ i guess. i actually read an article where one was so determined to change... which went against everything i’d previously thought of narcissism :( but thank you for your reply. i guess all my anxiety is reassuring in a way, but it doesn’t help that i relate to some symptoms
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Hi there, I went through the exact same theme months ago, so I know how you feel and how though it is. I don‘t want to give you to much reassurance, because it will only help you temporarily and make you worse. It seems like you’re struggling a lot right now. Are you doing some therapy? I know you might feel like you don‘t deserve it at the moment (which is a big fat ocd lie!) but try to give yourself some compassion. You‘re battling you own brain every single day and are stuck in this horrible cycle of fear. You deserve some rest and you definitely deserve proper help! Sending you a hug. You‘re not alone with this, there is a whole community of people who go through the same stuff <3
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i’m not in therapy. once covid goes and it can be done in real life again (not online) i really hope to start. i’m happy i’m not alone. this theme is so horrible and i hate it. it feels like there’s so much proof, and i’m like 100% convinced at this point. i’m not sure i’ve ever felt so stuck. thanks for the hug. sending one back💜. i’ll try to be compassionate with myself, though i’m not too sure where to start hahah
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Hey no reassurance what's so ever here, but I had this for a little bit fearing I was, it's kind of cool that ocd has so many themes, makes us all feel connected in a way. Also robert greene the author of mastery/ 48 laws of power says everyone is a narcissistic in some ways you have to put that into you're" work"
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thanks so much. it’s true, we all have narcissism in us. that helps me sometimes but i guess i overthink it and say i have more than everyone! hahah just can’t win
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Hey, I’m not necessarily an introvert, but I can definitely exhibit these symptoms at times - I think all humans can! You’re labelling such common things and when you haven’t got the qualifications to interpret psychological literature, you could convince yourself that you have nearly all of the disorders in the DSM. I can imagine this is so scary, I’ve had themes where I’ve been convinced I have various different mental disorders and it gave me so much panic, so know that all of us in this comment section know what you’re going through. You are gonna be okay ❤️
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thank you💜 that means a lot. it’s true about reading about disorders and then believing you have them. i can see parts of myself in so many of them hahah. i guess it’s just hard when it reallllly feels relatable (but this only tends to happen when i fear that disorder - like npd). and then it gets all specific and harder to differentiate and then i feel even more lost. all the research seems to ‘prove’ it more and i spiral more. sorry i’m ranting here a bit. thank you though
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@garden Yeah absolutely! Let me tell you about this, so you hopefully feel less alone. So, my family haven’t spoken to my grandfather for about 5 years. He had been emotionally abusive to my mum (I’m british), aunt and uncle throughout their entire childhood. They still had a lot of compassion for him, but he preferred to be solitary, and they granted him that. My mum had been in therapy for a while, and her therapist was absolutely adamant that my grandfather had aspergers from what my mum had told her. Turns out years after her therapy, a series of events led us to believe that he undoubtedly. Had aspergers, this triggered my OCD so much - it scared me because I was like, what if I’ve got the gene? I’m not lying when I say I have no traits of autism, I’ve always been extraverted etc. I’d find myself searching for hours on end proving to myself that I wasn’t autistic, and then I’d find one thing I could identify with somewhat and I would PANIC. Long story short, I told my parents reluctantly, and they booked me in with an OCD therapist, my therapist politely told me that there was no way I was autistic - yet I was so terrified Your mind can convince you of crazy shit
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@Bella i’m british too! that’s so funny because i’m in the exact same situation, just with a different disorder. my grandfather was also really horrible to my mum and her siblings. she thinks he’s a narcissist, and she thinks her sister is too. so obviously i went on to spiral that i caught the gene! i find so much proof though... like maybe my ocd isn’t lying. you have no autistic traits, like you said. but i worry i have npd traits. i have an inferiority complex and i’m super insecure. i’m introverted and jealous and i’ve said really mean things before. i guess what helps is the fact that i’m also sensitive. sensitive to other people’s needs too. i help a lot to feel better about myself, though i often feel overwhelmed by other people’s problems which makes me feel bad. i feel sympathy and empathy a lot though (i believe). i would love to see a therapist so much but idk if it would be better to see a normal one or an ocd one! plus i’d rather do it once lockdown restrictions are gone so it’s in person not online.
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I am really scared of being a narcissist.. I’ve been in therapy and I feel like my therapist isn’t taking it seriously:( like if I am a narcissist I want to work on it I’m just really scared of harming people.. including my partner:( I don’t want be the reason he needs therapy and I don’t want to ruin his life. I’m scared I’m manipulating him somehow to want to be with me and I just don’t know what to do. I NEED to get this fixed before our relationship progresses but I just feel like I’m not being heard by therapists/psychiatrists We want to get married and have children but I don’t even know if I will be a good partner or mom. If I do have narcissism I just think it would be best if I left him alone :( I don’t know what to do I know that people will say that narcissists don’t care about hurting other people or things like that but I just don’t know how true that is. I also have really mean judgmental, cruel, and hateful thoughts about people and I feel like that means I’m a narcissist
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tw / this theme is literally ruining my life. I can’t get a moments peace, all the symptoms I have feel so real and googling the symptoms caused more to show up and it’s so scary now. I don’t know what to do. I feel like I might actually have it and I’m so scared. nothing is helping. I’m going to be stuck in this theme forever or actually become psychotic or schizophrenic. I don’t know what to do anymore. I’m over analyzing every little symptom as possible schizophrenia, and no matter how many times people tell me “crazy people don’t know they’re crazy”, my ocd still has me convinced I have it or I’m developing it. I’m so, so sick of my anxiety and ocd. I don’t know what to do anymore. I feel trapped. these are just some of my symptoms: - Almost constantly seeing something out of the corner of my eye, shadows/figures/moving, etc. - Difficulty concentrating. - Newer symptom - difficulty talking (more frequent pauses in talking, forgetting what I was saying, struggling to find words, struggling to form sentences for a minute before I figure it out) - Extremely stressed and anxious almost at all times. - Extreme fear of losing my mind - Occasional feeling of impending doom - Forgetfulness (easily forgetting what I was saying/doing or what I was going to say/do) - Constantly pausing or rewinding videos/TV to make sure I wasn’t hallucinating the sound. - Occasional thoughts of “is this real?” “What if I’m actually just dreaming?” “Am I hallucinating all of this?” type of thing. - Difficulty getting to sleep, every night I don’t sleep until like 1-2 a.m. when I inevitably can’t keep my eyes open anymore and pass out, frequently wake up throughout the night Side note on this one: I’m afraid to sleep due to my OCD convincing me that something will happen in my sleep or I’ll sleepwalk or something like that. - Dissociation/zoning out - Almost always tired/yawning/exhausted/heavy eye feeling - Lack of interest in hobbies/shows/etc I’m so, so tired. I feel so hopeless and like my worst fears are actually coming true. Googling schizophrenia and psychosis just caused more symptoms and now I feel miserable. I wish I didn’t have to worry about this. I wish I could live happily and carefree. all of this venting and still nothing seems to help. Nothings helping. I’m just going to be stuck like this forever. I want to cry, I want to break down. I’m sick of living in fear. I’m sick of questioning my sanity. Now I’m spiraling that maybe I am schizophrenic or psychotic and this is just the beginning and it’s just going to get worse from here and I’ll end up losing myself and my mind/sanity. What if I lose the ones I love around me because they can’t stand me anymore. Im worried im not going to be myself anymore and im never going to recover and its just going to get worse.
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