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Please know you’re not the only one going through this. I’m going through pretty much the exact same thing right now. I’m beginning my journey to get to the root of all of this and re-discover who I really am. In my experience, being very quiet spirited (calm on the inside) and not taking your OCD thoughts to help a lot. What I’ve learned is that, good or bad, it doesn’t matter what others believe you are, but what you believe you are. Hope this helped and I’ll be praying for you! We don’t have any other choice but to believe there’s light at the end of the tunnel. You’re not in this alone.
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Thank you! You too! I’ll revisit this thread every now and then! Lemme know how y’all are doing 👍🏼
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I have yet to be formally diagnosed as well, it was about a year straight of awful intrusive thoughts and then I got a lot better by being as mindful as I could be and that turned everything around! I reccomend a movie called “About time”. That’s what encouraged me to be mindful and find the joy in life, moment by moment.
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Thank you!! I will check out the movie. It is comforting knowing I’m not the only person experiencing this
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Thank you, I appreciate it. I had never thought of it until now but it’s almost like my obsession has now turned towards how I am feeling? And with the anhedonia, it’s very rarely anything so the more distressing obsessions come back? Idk just spit balling. I don’t have a formal diagnosis of ocd yet, so I guess I am just trying to figure out what is going on
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Same here! It’s just the weirdest thing isn’t it? But we’ve gotta have some hope that things will get better!
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I often worry if I don’t have a negative response to the thought that I’m entertaining it. It’s super scary.
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I’m the exact same way!
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Same!
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Today’s been one of the worst days I’ve had in awhile. It’s hard to know what’s a compulsion and what’s not for me. It’s awful but it helps to know I’m not the only one.
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Hang in there! 💜 *hugs*
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I have a had a few “good days” without limited intrusive thoughts. However, I seem to sabotage them by engaging in reassurance seeking out compulsions. I also currently feel like I have irreparably damaged the relationships with the people my hocd is focused on. While I have been transparent with them about what I’m going through and they have been accepting, I feel like I am never going to get back to the place we were before. This all just fuels my intrusive thoughts and it comes back viciously. It’s like even if I take 1 step forward, I find ways to take 800 backwards. It’s exhausting.
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Again, had another few good days, and today was the most intense reaction to my thoughts that I think I have ever had. I haven’t cried in years, and today I broke down and couldn’t stop. Idk if this is ocd, depression or what. I start ERP tomorrow; I’m praying that I can get better control of this.
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I’m sharing this bc I need advice or even support from anyone who can relate. If you can’t relate and don’t think you’ll say anything helpful or kind pls don’t comment anything… I’ve been struggling with somethings that’s making me question myself. There has been moments while self pleasuring when I get intrusive thoughts, in those moments it feels like I’m enjoying or even self pleasuring myself bc of the thought. Right after I immediately have an anxiety attack and my HEART drops bc it feels terrible I feel like a disgusting monster :( ppl have told me I haven’t done a bad bc of how intense my guilt and panic are but I keep thinking that MAYBE I made a horrible decision in the moment and the guilt is just realising that it’s just wrong this doesn’t make sense to me because I’ve always told myself that I would never act on this in 1 million years and I’ve been known that these things are wrong so I’m just like constantly questioning myself these feelings and exact same situation has happened two times already I even promised myself that I wouldn’t act on anything beforehand and yeah, I still felt like I did act on my thought during my alone time I’m genuinely convinced that I’m a horrible and it’s even got into the point where I don’t wanna be here anymore and I don’t even think this is my OCD :( tbh
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I struggle so bad with intrusive thoughts. They can be so bad that I'll cry because I KNOW that's not how I feel or want to do. (Too embarrassed to say what they're about) I'll constantly try to figure out why I have them, and constantly figure out what they mean, causing me to constantly circle around and around. I had to get on anxeity meds, which helped a little but the thoughts still happen. How do you help yourself with this? How do you know that you're just not some physcopath? 😅
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Does anyone else experience a moment of clarity where you feel strong relief that the intrusive thought isn’t true, only to then immediately start questioning if you’ve only convinced yourself that because you don’t want the thought to be true? I’m pretty confident it would take some crazy mental gymnastics to actually successfully convince myself I didn’t do something that I deep down knew I did, but every time I resist the compulsions and try to sit with the uncertainty or tell myself to think about what is logical, I usually briefly know that this probably didn’t happen but am unable to move on out of fear I’m just in denial and have convinced myself of that.
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