I’m having intrusive thoughts of something horrible happening to a loved one and the ocd says that I’m “attracting it to happen” and that no matter what I say or do I’ll “attract” this to become reality when I know logically that it was just a thought but the what if and the “if you do this then____ will happen” I just feel so intensely afraid and I never want these things to be real obviously but idk it’s just a scary what if and it’s hard to believe that something that feels so real is just a thought—- then I proceed after recognizing it’s just a thought to fear that saying that somehow the universe will cause that horrible thing to happen as “proof” so I just sit and wait and beg everyone to be careful and keep in contact with me so I know they are ok The thing is is that nothing ever happens but the fear just feels like it’s actually occurring Goshh I’m a friggin mess

I suffer from this too guys just wanted to let you know you are not alone

Same... except that I shut people out. My dad passed many years ago, but because I shut down so often & didn't see him, I can convince myself that he's not gone...it's just been a while since I've seen him. And now my daughter & her husband and my 3 grandsons are moving 1100 miles away & I'm scared that I'll shut them out. The pain of being apart is too real. I think I'll have to force myself to get past my disdain for the phone.

Yes I’ve had this for quite a while, the “signs” amplify the feeling of reality and almost as if it’s a confirmation of your feeling. But it’s just your brain looking for these signs think about if you got a new car, you’d begin to see your car everywhere it’s not bc you somehow caused everyone to get that car it’s bc you have it so you notice it more. Trust me I understand your struggle I’ve suffered from this so incredibly intensely for about 2 years now. It’s hard to see past the real feeling alongside with the “signs” but I’ve found nothing comes from it just mind games and headaches