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- 6y
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- 6y
I've been having the exact same fears, it's horrible. Having to check under my bed and the closet like a child, bringing a flashlight with me when I get up at night while feeling terrified there's someone watching me, or ready to hurt me... And the repressed memories are a pain too. I keep obsessing over if I was sexually abused as a child and don't remember it now. It terrifies me and I can't get it off my mind that all these thoughts could be true. No triggers, just fear, all the time over the smallest things.
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- 6y
i get it man im always thinking like this too and i always have a huge fear that someone is constantly listening to my thoughts. i wish we could understand why this stuff happens
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- 6y
@bananakiosk I'm asking that same question :( maybe having a pet go with you can help? Or leaving some lights in the hall on?
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- 6y
@worryqueen i usually leave little lights on around the house but i find that when there’s no curtains or blinds on the windows in the room is when i feel the most worried.. i have 2 cats but they probably couldn’t do much to defend me haha worst case. i have never tried ERP have you? i wish that i could ignore the thoughts as irrational as i’m aware that they are, i wish i could just stay calm and not feel so paranoid :/
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- 6y
@bananakiosk me too i’m not sure what to do anymore. i hear one noise and i think someone’s coming in to hurt me or i hear plane and think someone is spying on me or it’s gonna crash on my house. i’m just paranoid about everything lately and i just get frozen. i’m glad there’s some people i can relate to but i wish this wouldn’t happen.
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- 6y
@bananakiosk maybe developing an escape plan, having an emergency kit etc or any backup needed if there was an attack or situation would help. There's nothing you can do but prepare, right? Maybe bringing a weapon (a fork or pen would do) with you when you get up will make you feel safer. I think you just need to slowly lose each worry-- that's what I'm trying to do. And no I haven't tried erp yet but I want to. It's hard to find a therapist that does it near me haha. Yes paranoia is horrible and hard to talk about with people who don't understand. Wish there were more coping mechanisms for it :/
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- 6y
god yes thank u it is so nice to hear this stuff coming from other people @worryqueen what can we do :/
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- 21w
Paranoia… I need to know because I’m feeling very alone in this. I’ve never met someone with the level of paranoia that I have. I can logically explain things to myself and somehow my paranoia convinces me of another story. I’m constantly thinking exaggerated thoughts that there are so many scary possibilities. Am I alone in this or what? If so any suggestions on how to calm these thoughts
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- 17w
i haven’t been diagnosed with ocd but I have anxiety about harming other people/family members and it’s like urges and im scared I actually want to do it? I don’t think I’ve ever been violent as a kid (im 21 now) and the intrusive thoughts don’t go away so im just stuck all day everyday for the past few weeks just thinking and being scared about it and im having all these weird emotions like being irritated and angry I don’t want to hurt people I don’t think idk why my mind is making me think I do I’ve had intrusive thoughts before that I could brush away sure it took like a day or two but this one is different it doesn’t go away and leaves me with the worst fear imaginable and nothing I look up that should be giving me relief is giving me relief + I feel like im not in control of my body and that im just gonna lose it and act on these thoughts it’s just all on a loop and im not sure how im supposed to live the rest of my life when im in constant fear of my self
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- 15w
i’ve unfortunately fallen into the cycle of trying to figure out my thoughts and find answers as to why i feel so distressed. this still pertains to the situation regarding changing my room for those reading who have seen my multiple posts over the last few days. i’ve been so distressed and in so much panic about it. i’m also panicking over my other room looking so different from when i left it. it’s been making me feel crazy because to me there’s no reason for my anxiety to latch so hard onto something that seems so minuscule. i was thinking i was having anxiety over change, but it’s like symptoms of ocd too that’s making it really hard for me to let go. SO i started thinking maybe it was perfectionism ocd? i’ve realized over time that i do compulsions to where things have to feel “just right”, but i also do that with any environment i’m in. like it HAS to feel cozy to me and provide me comfort in order for me to feel at ease. and this change is causing me to panic because there’s something wrong that i can’t find an answer to. maybe the different colored carpet? but it’s also more than that it feels like. however, now it’s spreading into other areas of my house where i’ve always been fine in and possibly to just any area i’m in at all. hence why it’s making me feel crazy because there’s no reason for me to be THIS distressed over that as i’ve never really had this problem before. and when i did it would last maybe an hour to a couple of days at most, but this has been going for over 2 weeks with my really bad anxiety being this week. i’m doing a little better, but it’s still hard when i can feel that panic waiting for me to acknowledge and just engulf me in the ocd cycle. i’m also analyzing basically any feeling i have so i just feel off in general and like i’m going insane. i’ve been so hyper focused on how i feel and that will send me spiraling too. multiple themes then start coming in like existential ocd and fear of solipsism. not to mention my harm and contamination ocd that just adds on when i’m this vulnerable. then i worry if no one is real, then no one feels the way i do. or just in general that what if no one feels the way i do. honestly, i think being out of college and in my house with nothing to do is causing me too much time with my thoughts. which is why i’m so distressed about everything that pops into my brain.
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