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- 6y ago
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I've been having the exact same fears, it's horrible. Having to check under my bed and the closet like a child, bringing a flashlight with me when I get up at night while feeling terrified there's someone watching me, or ready to hurt me... And the repressed memories are a pain too. I keep obsessing over if I was sexually abused as a child and don't remember it now. It terrifies me and I can't get it off my mind that all these thoughts could be true. No triggers, just fear, all the time over the smallest things.
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- 6y ago
i get it man im always thinking like this too and i always have a huge fear that someone is constantly listening to my thoughts. i wish we could understand why this stuff happens
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- 6y ago
@bananakiosk I'm asking that same question :( maybe having a pet go with you can help? Or leaving some lights in the hall on?
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- 6y ago
@worryqueen i usually leave little lights on around the house but i find that when there’s no curtains or blinds on the windows in the room is when i feel the most worried.. i have 2 cats but they probably couldn’t do much to defend me haha worst case. i have never tried ERP have you? i wish that i could ignore the thoughts as irrational as i’m aware that they are, i wish i could just stay calm and not feel so paranoid :/
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- 6y ago
@bananakiosk me too i’m not sure what to do anymore. i hear one noise and i think someone’s coming in to hurt me or i hear plane and think someone is spying on me or it’s gonna crash on my house. i’m just paranoid about everything lately and i just get frozen. i’m glad there’s some people i can relate to but i wish this wouldn’t happen.
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- 6y ago
@bananakiosk maybe developing an escape plan, having an emergency kit etc or any backup needed if there was an attack or situation would help. There's nothing you can do but prepare, right? Maybe bringing a weapon (a fork or pen would do) with you when you get up will make you feel safer. I think you just need to slowly lose each worry-- that's what I'm trying to do. And no I haven't tried erp yet but I want to. It's hard to find a therapist that does it near me haha. Yes paranoia is horrible and hard to talk about with people who don't understand. Wish there were more coping mechanisms for it :/
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- 6y ago
god yes thank u it is so nice to hear this stuff coming from other people @worryqueen what can we do :/
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Does anyone else experience this lingering fear and anxiety because they think they’re capable of hurting someone? It’s killing me. I feel like I’m such a danger. I feel like I’m a predator. I feel like this awful person and I can’t shake it. I want to carry on with my day but I can’t. I don’t feel like I deserve it. I feel like I’ve done awful things. I can’t stop crying.
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I just feel petrified and I don’t understand why. There aren’t even any thoughts right now. I just feel so scared.
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- 9w ago
i’ve been dealing with this “thing” since i was 15. (i’m 23 now) if i have a bad memory that i have done when i was really young or just an intrusive thought i feel like i need to tell my mom or boyfriend. it’s been on and off ever since but since January hit it’s been an everyday thing about the littlest things. mostly about my relationship. an example is i was talking to someone random at my job and we were talking about taxes and when im in deep thought or just thinking i do a thing where i bite my lip (not in the sexual way) and i had a thought when it happened “was that sexual?” and i felt like i did something wrong and i went for a while thinking that until i told my boyfriend about it. or like my ex’s face has popped up in my head in the most inappropriate times and i feel the need that i have to tell him. (my ex was not a good person) i feel like im a prisoner in my head everyday, trying to justify thoughts or remind myself that its just a thought. i didnt know that this was or could be a form of ocd. it runs in my family but i’ve just never considered it being this. i always called it anxiety or depression but i always felt like it is more than that.
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