- Username
- Anonymous
- Date posted
- 3y ago
There were times where I was in a similar spot. A core fear of mine is losing my mom- so my harm ocd stuck to her a ton. And at times I’d get disgusting thoughts like oh just get it over with. I would never ever hurt anyone so it freaked me out and I was scared to even sit by her. I learned that it is part of ocd that creates the I’m not going to be fine till it happens. It’s because with having ocd it makes us feel like we need to be in control of everything and have absolute certainty, so that is what is currently happening to you. At least I think. I think your mind is so overwhelmed that it’s trying to grab onto anything that would seem to give you control
Hey i’m so sorry, and I relate to that so much. Unluckily my urges and thoughts target basically everyone, which makes me feel even more miserable. And I hope you’re right on what you said, makes a lot of sense because OCD wants us to have certainty all the time. Thank you so much :)
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I’m dealing with this currently at my moms house . The anxiety surrounding the weird and AWFUL urge is unexplainable to anyone other than someone who knows how insane it Makes you feel. Listen, you helped me so much by sharing this..,I really needed to read something that related to me rn and this is exact. I’m so sorry you’re in the same boat but I’m here to say I’m right there with you . I was driving in the car with mom and I kept having this ocd just get it over with feeling and yank the wheel! The anxiety was so bad I wanted to open my door and jump out then when we got home I couldn’t escape the guilty feelings of what if I had done that, what if I do in the future. My mother is my best friend in the world and the Shame I feel that I cannot just love my time with her is so crippling. I am practicing erp and that’s helping with words but urges are much more stressful. Someone else here mentioned sitting with the anxiety and letting it pass , which I do but wowwwww is that some really uncomfortable anxiety. I read somewhere we really need determination with ocd, and so I remind myself this isn’t easy takes extra work. I hope this helps. And again super thanks for your honesty, this is my safe experience!! And many of Us here I’m Sure .🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻
Thank you so much too, your experience made me feel that I’m not alone. I am so sorry you’re going through this as well, but we’re together in this <3 yes urges are definitely such a difficult thing to experience. I literally feel so disturbed and overwhelmed every time it happens. Definitely the most terrifying thing I’ve ever experienced.. and thank you so much, it helps me so much to share things with others, so I would love if we could talk, if you want to. Much love :)
@Anonymous Thank you so much!!! Hope you’re doing ok today. All I know is these things are normal for OCD (even though feels so abnormal) the fact we have the same upsetting experiences sometimes makes easier to handle, because we aren’t alone. I like to think we are all working together:) Such an important reminder always. Again, hope you’re ok today, I’ve been sitting through the discomfort and Trying not to freak out and start thinking. It’s helping but hard to do!!🙏🏻🙏🏻🌷🌷🌷🌷
@Anonymous Thank you!! I hope you’re doing well today too!! Yes thank you so much for sharing your experience, it helps me a lot to know I’m not alone :) I’m glad you’re working through that! I wish you the best! Sadly is not something I can do, I feel like I can not just leave my thoughts be there because they are something important that needs to be figured out. It sucks, but I hope I can get professional help too. Much love for you:) and if you ever need someone to talk to, reply in here and I’ll be glad to help you!
Also really helps and makes me feel better to say exact feelings I have! If you ever need to share about stuff always here!! I am in AA and I feel the same way alcoholics need each other to talk to people with OCD do as well .🌷🙏🏻
I am really struggling. I feel like I have a constant harm related intrusive thought in my head, causing a horrible intrusive feeling in my head. Even if I’m just simply scrolling and see someone sometimes this feeling of an intrusive thought becomes present, leading it to become horrid intrusive thoughts and feelings. I would never want to hurt anyone. Let alone do it and I’m struggling so much. I feel like I have a constant harm related intrusive thought in my head and feeling. Which is reinforced when I look at people. It goes when im distracted and then i remember the horrid feeling. I feel like bursting into tears, ive had enough. Can anyone relate? I feel like a constant intrusive thought and feeling IN my head im so sad :( I feel horrid. Scared ill go crazy.
I can't do this anymore I feel fucking insane my mind keeps telling me I want to k word people and if feels like my mind is making fucking plans. I'm diagnosed with ocd but I don't even know if it's ocd what if I'm just a terrible fucking person that actually wants to do this. My mind is literally telling me to go buy a weapon and hurt people like I get fucking urges. I can't keep food down and have not for the last few days I feel like I need to go to a mental hospital but I don't want to burden anyone in my family. Like my mind tells me specifically I want to do this but I don't want to but recently ive been having the thought of what if I did do it but I don't want to. I just want it to stop I'm a good person I don't want to hurt anyone at all. But what if one day I actually do want to do something. I can't do this anymore.
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