- Username
- Amanda J
- Date posted
- 3y ago
You all are amazing!
Thank you all for you kind words and support.
Hi Amanda. I can totally relate to this! I have the contamination aspect as well. I worked in a hospital during the height of Covid-19 and spiraled out of control. I ended up quitting my job and haven't been outside much. I'm just starting ERP and hoping that will help.
Hello Anonymous, thank you for responding. I'm sorry that you ended up having to quit, but I get it, I worked in a hospital prior to covid and there's no way I could have worked in a hospital during covid. I hope ERP helps you.
Hey I struggle with contamination ocd ever since covid hit. At least on the bright sight your able to go to work. I'm stuck isolating in my house. I get panic attacks going to the store and I have to come home and shower after Clorox wiping every down. Then the next day I still full like everything is dirty and I spend 8+ hours scrubbing my house and food again. Then I'm still afraid to touch stuff without constantly washing my hands after I touch anything in my house. I'm stuck living in fear and keep hitting rock bottom. I know you can get through it. Keep your head up.
Hi Galaxy89, thank you for responding. I was doing the same thing and had to take 5 months off of work because I was having panic attacks daily. Luckily I found a doctor who helped me find the right medication, so that I can go back to work again. I've been at work for a month now, I still constantly feel dirty and like everyone and everything has covid but I'm doing better at handling it. Don't get me wrong I still have sanitizing rituals and still panic but not as bad. It's been a long road for sure and I still have a ways to go but I'm not going back to where I was, now that I can see the light. Hang in there, I know it's hard but keep fighting.
I'm in the process of relearning and reintegration into the outside world, and am finding it difficult. Hopefully ERP will help.
It is difficult. When I went back to work I would make myself sick thinking about it, but every day it got a little easier. I started out at 2hrs for a week and went up from there. Just keep reminding yourself of all the progress you have made and that you are proud of yourself for doing such, that helped me, since I have a bad habit of emotionally beating myself up... definitely my own worst critic. Thank you for responding Anonymous. Hang in there! You can do it.
Well at least you found help. No one except my insurance. I don't work at the moment because of covid. I can't pay for anything. I'm barley getting by. Good luck to you hope you get better soon than later.
I'm so sorry to hear that. There really should be more resources than what there is. I had the same issue with my insurance and have to pay for help myself. I hope you can figure something out soon
I'm struggling on a dad to day living. Idk how anymore and I have no support. On my hard days I just want.to let ocd win.
I'm sorry you are going through this. Don't let ocd win, you are worth much more than that. I know you are going through a really tough time but it will get better. The universe always provides and it's always light after the dark. Keep your head up and don't let this invisible bully win.
@Amanda J I'm such a mess anymore. Fear has taken over and idk how to stop it. Yes there is light at the end of the tunnel but every time I get close to the light the tunnel closes on me.
@Galaxy89 I went through that for 5 months before I actually saw any progress. Don't give up
Yes, 100%. My partner got covid last year and I had to care for him and that just SET ME OFF. Then I was diagnosed with cancer and obsessing with not getting sick so I wouldnt be denied access to my treatment appointments or surgeries. It was hell. I wenot through the scabbed, red hands, and the intense showers (still do them, honestly) and the extreme sanitization. It's been over a year and I'm interested as much better place now with medication and therapy and committing to ERP. I'm not all the way better (like I said, I still do intense showers and wear an n95 when I go for treatment etc) but there is light at the end of the tunnel!
Wow catattak, I can't even imagine that. I definitely would have been a wreck! I hope your partner is better. I'm sorry about your cancer diagnosis, that must be scary on it's own without all of the added stress about contamination, getting sick, missing appointments, etc. You are so strong for getting through it. I was worried about getting sick and missing appointments with my doctor for my anxiety and panic while we were trying to figure out the right medication and worried I'd miss appointments with my counselor too. I was so worried that I was wearing two masks everyday, luckily I have gotten better about that and only wear one now. I hope you kick cancers butt!
@Amanda J Everyone's struggle is a struggle regardless of the situation. You are doing amazing with a single mask! I can only do that outdoors. I'm so proud of you for that and its inspiring to think I could try that with some bravery too! Medication, therapy, support systems... they all make a difference and we've made it so far! I'm excited for the growth we will both make on this journey :)
@catattak Thank you for the positive words. I know you can do a single mask too. Maybe try it just going outside or running a quick errand and just start small at first. I know you can do it! I'm excited to keep moving forward, one step at a time. Keep pushing forward. You are stronger than you know đȘđ» If you ever need to talk I'm here
Hi everyone. First time here. I suffer from Contamination OCD. I have a good support group in friends, family, and my boyfriend, but I have not met anyone else with OCD and I needed to reach out to others to find help. I first got OCD when I was 17 (I am now 33) and was able to go into remission, but COVID brought it back. I was struggling at work (which was outside with the public). I found a therapist and she wrote me a doctorâs note suggesting I be allowed to work from home. My work was not accommodating at all and only offered me FMLA leave, so I took it as my only option and eventually got on Short Term Disability. The whole process took forever and was incredibly stressful. My leave was supposed to be a time of healing and it just made my OCD symptoms worse. My employer basically treated me as though I was trying to get out of work and proved to me that though they talk about the importance of mental health, they donât take mental health seriously. I ended up having to leave my job âinvoluntarily due to health reasonsâ as they would not grant an extension nor let me return with any restrictions/accommodations. My therapist seemed good at first, but it became clear that she wasnât really helping me. She would often use our sessions to vent about the insurance company and in one session, she basically called me a hopeless case and kept saying âI donât know. I am concerned. I donât know how you are going to be able to functionâ and threw out the word hospitalization, though she did backtrack on that one. I struggle everyday. I am worried that something from outside of the home touched something clean and is now contaminated. I need help working through this. I am constantly looking for reassurance, question if things are clean, wash my hands, use too many disinfectant wipes, and take showers upwards of 50-60 mins. I feel like my mind is being taken over by my OCD, Iâm losing time, and itâs straining my relationship. For anyone who is struggling with contamination OCD brought on by COVID - any tips? My therapist never gave me anything specific to work on with this - to help me focus on something else. I am in the process of finding another therapist, but until then - any help would be greatly appreciated. Thank you!
My contamination OCD just won't give me any piece. All I think about all day everyday is being contaminated with covid. I'm scared to be around people. I'm scared to touch anything even in my own home, because I share it with my parents and I think they may have touched something when they're out and then bought covid back into the house. I'm hardly sleeping because I can't switch my mind off. I'm spending ages in the shower because I can't seem to feel clean and my hands are sore and red from constantly washing them. It's driving me crazy I feel anxious constantly my heart pounds I feel sick, shaky and have hardly any appetite. Please give me any advice that can help.
Does any one else really struggle with contamination ocd? For me I struggle with laundry and feeling like itâs not clean enough, and taking a shower. My showers go on for close to an hour because I feel like I didnât wash enough or it needs to be a certain amount of times. I also struggle when it comes to the bathroom and compulsively wiping. The hand washing and the anxiety just take up so much of the day and it really drains me. I have been struggling with ocd for years and have been working with a therapist with it but it still feels so consuming. I started taking medication, but everything still feels so overwhelming, and dreadful. I was wondering if anyone could relate, because Iâve been feeling really alone with the severe contamination ocd.
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