im new here! this is the first day ive really started understanding that i may have OCD. and now that i read about it im so off put by the fact that no one around me noticed this is what i have been struggling with. (my family members are in the mental health field of work) i struggle mostly with what i think is rOCD. it’s been debilitating this past week, but i feel okay right now. i think covid and moving out of my childhood home and in with my partner during lockdown combined really inflamed this problem for me. right now im just working on accepting that i may suffer from this and accepting what that might mean for my life in the future. im diagnosed bipolar currently which i have been able to manage un medicated for about a year now. but this feels different, and i hate hate being medicated, but i feel like i may need to be until i learn some coping mechanisms for this particular problem. just a lot to think about. any thoughts on medication and how to get past the thought that you’re changing yourself by taking it? anyway love to you all, we’re gonna be okay 💌🤝

I’ve been able to better accept taking medication once I saw how my relationship OCD was really destroying my relationships. Happily doubled my dose and am improving as are my relationships.

i come from a family who thinks that medication only gets you addicted and miserable as someone with debilitating relationship ocd, as well as sexual orientation ocd, i would definitely be down to take medicine. yes, i’m still scared of taking it, due to my family’s constant chanting of addiction, but if it would stop the dread, the horrifying intrusive thoughts, and the anxiety that i feel, i would take it in a heartbeat.

I’ve had that loop too. Happier with the meds tbh.

I’ve also been frustrated by past providers not bringing up OCD with me. I suffer from rOCD as well. In the past I’ve had therapists tell me it’s not a thing. When searching for OCD treatment today, NOCD was one of the only sites that explicitly mentions rOCD. As far as medication goes, I’m medicated for other things but not ocd yet. I too struggle with feeling like how do I know the real me (good or bad) if I’m medicated. Down to chat more bc I think rocd gets talked about the least.