- Username
- jelpk
- Date posted
- 5y ago
Hey there! It’s really reassuring to hear brave people like you sharing your thoughts. It means a lot to me, as I have struggled with OCD all my life and also have encountered your similar experience. Getting my parents to agree to therapy was difficult in the beginning. I would recommend asking one of your parents at a time put aside for you both, perhaps in the car or while you are running an errand together. What really helps me cope with OCD is remembering that so many other people have it, and that this is a mental health condition that will be able to pass by me. Thank you for sharing your thoughts.
“I hate waking up each day to these thoughts.” Yes yes yes, this was me in my younger years. I’d always hope to take a nap and wake up for it all to be gone. But it was always right there waiting for me, and often even in my dreams. I finally decided that sleep would not make it go away but that it WAS self-care to help me be stronger to cope with it. Peace to you, you’re not alone, so many of us have been there. <3
Hi ? That sounds really frustrating and I have been there before. I would get horrible images flashing in my head, so I can only share your pain. Your therapist was very good at giving you advice about uncertainty. Do you think you could try that again? And are you still taking medication? Those two might really help you out again this time. I understand what you mean by wondering if you actually want to have them. I was frustrated and lost too. And meditation is difficult for me even to this day. Do you tend to analyze these feelings and responses and google advice on this? Sometimes those can be compulsions, and can be very helpful to cut them. ? No matter what the theme is, it doesn’t matter what the content is, treat it as - mental illness OCD. When thinking of recovering, don’t pay too much detail into what the obsession is about, realize that even if you obsess about grapes or oranges or contamination, you should always do your best to respond with ERP and CBT techniques. Things will get better. You might always have uncertainty, but that’s okay. Accept that - life continues ? move along with that uncertainty ?
I would nap a lot too and waking up was so dreadful everytime! I got better after tsking care of myself and no longer avoided thoughts by napping!
I could try uncertainty but I’ve never taken medication for it. How should I tell my parents in order to get help? I’m only 16.
Oops! I misread, I read medication instead of meditation! I think that you should explain in a way that you’re experiencing anxiety and it’s limiting your performance and potential. Telling people your intrusive thoughts is a really scary thing and its natural to feel ashamed. Here’s something similar I wrote to my parents: “mom, dad, I’m going through some really difficult things right now, and I am struggling to balance it with my everyday life. It really limits my potential to be the best I can be and I think getting professional help would really help me get back on my feet. You two being there for me and understanding makes me feel not alone in this.” I hopefully am getting one this month! ps. If they seem strict, its easier to go to the doctor and explain, so they can refer you to a therapist in your area
good luck! ?
Yeah, I wouldn’t tell them the content of the intrusive thoughts. They’re likely to misunderstand. But the umbrella term “experiencing anxiety” is 100% true since OCD is an anxiety disorder. So if they push for details you can just tell them it’s anxiety (but in the therapist’s office I think it’s super important to tell them it’s OCD and to make sure they have training to treat OCD so that they don’t misunderstand your symptoms).
Don’t nap too much it’s going to screw up your sleep cycle. You should only nap 10-40 mins and before 2
Let your parents know that you have a mental health condition- ocd. There is really nothing to be ashamed about. Taking medication to manage this disorder is very helpful too. It's fortunate that there are treatments for ocd now. I had it more than 30 years ago and I didnt even know what I was suffering from then.
Thank you sharing your thoughts!
I get suicidal intrusions all the time and it used to get to me a lot. My intrusions are so random I never know what it is going to be sadly
Hello everyone. I have been having horrible thoughts ever since I turned 13, and now I’m almost 16, and still having them. When I turned 13, the thoughts were constant and nearly drove me to kill myself. I thought about killing my family and pets constantly, but, worst of all, especially my mother. Now, I sleep with my door closed to try to stop the thoughts and to keep from hearing or seeing my mom or dad. I love my parents and pets, especially my mother— she’s an amazing woman, and has done so much for me, but yet I’m still having these damn thoughts. I was at a bad school when I was 13, and then moved to another when I was 14. After a switched schools, the thoughts gradually began to lessen, but every few months, they get really bad again for a few weeks (I still have them daily out of those bad few weeks, but when they get bad, they get bad.) I’m currently going through one of those spurts. I have tried to talk to my dad about getting help, and even though he said that he’ll look for a therapist, it’s been nearly a year, and I still haven’t gotten help. I desperately want these thoughts to stop because I feel like a horrible person and I love my parents, family, and pets so much, but I’m terrified of opening up to my dad and telling him everything that I think about (I also have thoughts about sexually abusing children, but I don’t want to do it! I’m not attracted to children whatsoever, but I’m still thinking about it.) My self-esteem is absolutely horrible, and I feel like a monster for thinking about these things. I’m very much a daddy’s girl, and if he is disgusted or angry at me, then I honestly don’t know how I’d handle it. I really, really need help, but just don’t know how to go about doing it (I’ve thought about going to the school councilor, but they’ve made it known that, if they’re concerned about a student, that they’ll either contact their parents or the police.) My dad has said to just calm down and relax, but I literally can’t. We have mental illnesses on my mom’s side, and many of those people take pills, and when I’ve talked to my dad about my anxiety and depression, he’s said that pills aren’t the answer. Honestly, at this point I don’t care what treatment I get— all I care about is these thoughts stopping. I’m sorry if this is rambling and a little confusing, but my mind is all over the place right now. Any suggestions would be very much appreciated.
i'm sorry in advance for how long this post is and if it's to much information. i'm undiagnosed but have been struggling with compulsions and intrusive thoughts since i was 7 or 8. My worst intrusive thoughts theme has been about p*d*phil*s. I've been dealing with it since my freshman and sophomore year but these thoughts didn't become debilitating until June of last year. I had a panic attack and confessed to my parents about these intrusive thoughts. They were obviously shocked and share. I felt so ashamed and like a monster. After talking with my dad he said we would see a therapist about it. Sadly we never did the first appointment we were late and missed are spot and the second appointment i sprained my ankle the night before so instead i was in the hospital. After that i closed myself off i tried dealing with them on my own using sources like NOCD and stuff. I did try to bring up going to therapy to my parents. Every time they would ask me if the intrusive thoughts were back and I would lie saying "no i just would like to go to therapy" I was so scared they'd be afraid of me and stop loving me, especially my mom. Eventually after awhile my parents forgot about it and I tried ignoring these intrusive thoughts because I was so focused and stressed from school. I decided I could just wait till I turn 18 and schedule myself into therapy. recently though my intrusive thoughts have gotten worse. I recently had a convo with one of my friends who has intrusive thoughts as well and she's encouraging me to talk to my parents. I'm asking y'all what should I do. As much as I'm scared I want to get help because I'm sick of living and feeling like i'm day away from acting on my intrusive thoughts.
i have been getting really gross intrusive thoughts. They have caused me to feel such intense guilt. It’s gone to the point I harmed myself and believe I deserve this harm. My parents had to hide all sharp objects from me so I don’t harm myself. I also have wanted to end my life due to the intensity and discomfort and disgust and repulsion these thoughts give me. I feel since I have these intrusive thoughts I do not deserve to live. I have been to a mental health emergency room and I felt better afterwards but it was temporary relief. I have been given medication for this (sleep since the intrusive thoughts and the fact that I have these intrusive thoughts keeps me awake unable to sleep, and pills for my OCD to potentially stop the intrusive thoughts and anxiety. But I was only given them last night so they will not work for a week or so). I don’t even feel comfortable saying the theme of them because I’m terrified of people thinking I am that and am so repulsed by the fact that still exists, I would never think anything like this out of my own will. If I heard anybody say the thoughts I have out loud , I would stay away from them, and be disgusted by them for saying it. I wouldn’t even vocalize these intrusive thoughts to a therapist because they would hate me which would be completely valid and understandable. I hate me too for thinking this. I don’t deserve to live. I live in constant guilt. I never got thought like this until these theme decided to ruin my fucking whole ass life. How do I remove these thoughts and guilt. I’m only a kid and I know I have a whole life ahead of me but I don’t deserve it for having these intrusive thoughts. I’ll get intrusive thoughts like wanting to harm somebody in a graphic way (WHICH I DO NOT WANT. I wouldn’t even get in a fight with somebody. I hate harming others.) these thoughts are 100% UNWANTED. They also developed at random. I was just scrolling on tiktok as one does then I got a super random intrusive thought. I fixated on it and obsessed over it and it caused worse and worse intrusive thoughts to come because of me fixating on it. I remember I had it once before (earleir I says I’ve never had thoughts like this untill the theme, the intrusive thought i had then was still bad and something I don’t think at all, but it was an extreme one) but I was able to acknowledge it was an intrusive thought and had nothing to do with me after freaking out for about a few hours. I don’t want to live with these thoughts. I don’t deserve the gift of life. I can’t stand up from guilt. I can’t eat on my own. I’ve tried everything. They’re constantly in my head. I DONT WANT THEM THERE. I DONT THINK LIKE THAT AT ALL. I am seeing a therapist on Thursday. They get so specific and disgusting. My compulsion is hitting myself in the head and screaming “no that’s gross ew”. As you can tell it harms me . But I think I deserve it. I can’t take any thing anyone says to me seriously because if they heard these intrusive thoughts all the pity would disappear.
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