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OCD attacks the things you love the most, thats the terror of it all. Doing compulsions to lower anxiety is OCD. CBT therapy and ERP therapy do help, yes! Thats the #1 treatment for OCD. You sound young and aware of what youre dealing with which is great! The sooner you face this OCD monster the better. Youre a strong person keep reminding yourself of that. I dont see you asking for reassurance, more so wanting to know if others are in the same OCD theme as you and thats okay to ask!
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I rarely ever see anyone with my same obsessions on here. So you’re not alone with that. I even ask sometimes and the only replies I get are people saying they dont deal with what I deal with.
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Thanks! It feels good to just open up sometimes! Anything you want to talk about? Feel free! I’m listening :)
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I also haven’t been on this app for a month because I was trying not to get reassurance and then I had a massive breakdown the other day and I just came on here.
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The thing is I haven’t done any compulsions since September and I still get bombarded with thoughts and I just can’t see a way out!
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What do you think is feeding the thoughts? Are you possibly doing any mental compulsions just not physical?
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I’m not really sure what’s feeding them, there’s something feeding them but it’s not jumping out at me which is frustrating because I’ve tried to stop everything that was feeding them and because I still keep getting bombarded with thoughts, it feels like it isn’t OCD and it feels like it’s just me and it makes me feel like I am evil and want to do these things
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Hey just a tip :) do you think this post is a compulsion? It can be very easy to get sucked into compulsive research and get reassurance from posts
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I think hes looking for someone to relate to. Seems like hes alone with all of this and no one gets what hes dealing with. Thats what I got from what I read. Its hard when you have multiple themes and cant relate to a lot of what you read on here.
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I did go through a stage where I would sit in bed all day and read up about OCD but I sort of realised it and managed to stop that as well
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So I really don’t know what is keeping the thoughts going
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I’m starting to face all of my fears that OCD has gave me but the thoughts just won’t go and it makes it worse that I’ve never seen anyone else with the same obsession with me and it makes it harder and makes me feel alone
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@OCDBoy55 When youre having a thought, try to “throw” it away. Imagine youre taking the thought and throwing it in the trash. If youre unable to, pay attention to what youre doing thats feeding the thought to keep manifesting. I use to have “magical thinking”. That if i didnt do something the right way that something would happen. That went on for YEARS. Once I started to tell myself that I couldn’t control reality and focused on what I was doing and didnt reinforce my behaviors it slowly went away. It took time but Its possible.
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I’ve had that as well, I used to have it where I needed to put socks in the right order every night before bed and if not I would get anxious because it didn’t feel right and it felt like something bad would happen.
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I’ve had OCD for about 4 years but I didn’t suffer with intrusive thoughts for the the first 4 years! It’s only since September they have started. It may be something to do with I had a lot of stress with my Dad nearly dying and my Grandad also in hospital, the thoughts started after those two things in my life occurred.
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Yeah I have my main obsession and then I read about other people’s obsessions and get triggered by them and they are like side obsessions if you get me, when I feel like I get my main one under control for a bit, it sort of throws the side obsessions at me and it’s just a never ending cycle!
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OCD picks up when a stressful event happens in your life. Youre on the right path though, youre aware of what’s going on. Now its about finding the right therapy and ways to manage the OCD to get back to a normal life. Youre strong, youll get there! ?
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Have you tried talking to a specialist?
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@uglyjd Yeah I have but they diagnosed me with anxiety and OCD traits and then he said I didn’t have to come back after 1 session when I was and still am clearly struggling with this. So I am trying with another service and I have been offered 1to1 CBT therapy
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Are you in the US? If so the OCD foundation website is a great way to find therapists who are trained in CBT/ERP. https://iocdf.org
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That therapist seems he doesnt know what hes doing. Im glad youre trying out another service, just be sure they use erp!
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I’m not, I’m in England!
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So I’m new to this app and I knew there was something wrong w/ my brain for a few years now. I’m a professional volleyball player and was playing in France last year while in a long distance relationship. I would ruminate and think that one small thing was going to ruin my career every. Single. Day. And I have the fear that I NEEDED to end warm ups with a good hit or else I would play terribly. I had constant fears that my teammates don’t trust me and think I’m bad - when in reality and looking at the statistics I was one of the best players on the team - the fearful ruminating keeps me awake at night and it would get so bad that I would break into a rash on my neck. Lots of rashes from anxiety and over thinking :( My relationship was new but it was long distance. I never experienced this in my life: my mind became OBSESSED with the idea he might be ugly. I couldn’t stop thinking that he was ugly and feared that that meant I needed to break up with him and I felt like a terrible person constantly and the thought ate me alive - I was constantly googling about it to try and get some relief which I am now learning is seeking reassurance. I also have struggled with some forms of disordered eating for many years but it got so bad in France. I was binge eating a lot. I gained ten pounds in a month. I knew it and I felt it and I became OBSESSED with the idea that I’m so fat and a weak terrible person for not being able to control my binges. My therapist gave me some screener exams. I scored very highly on the anxiety test and the OCD test which blew my mind cuz I’ve never considered OCD in my whole life. I started taking Prozac which honestly I feel like saved my life. It’s been over 6 months since that point now and everything is so much more manageable. I’ve also recently learned that I may have autism as well. My brother has it and dad is convinced he has it but I was never diagnosed. I also learned I may have a bit of ADD as well recently. I’ve known I think differently for some time but this is just overwhelming and validating and confusing and a bit scary. My current obsession is worrying about my future career - I’m obsessed. I can’t stop thinking about it. I’m so afraid of my making a lot of money in the future. I take aptitude tests all the time when I get anxiety or go on Reddit to hear about other people which makes me feel okay for a little but it always comes back. My head is spinning. I just want to enjoy being 24 and having an interesting career and trust that my life will be okay but I’m so convinced that I’m going to suffer immensely if I don’t start pursuing a high paying job immediately. Im a smart girl - graduated from UC Berkeley - have done tons of networking in different industries - I have a financial plan for the future for when I start a normal job - but I cant stop this cyclical torturous thinking that I’m going to be poor and suffer immensely I also learned a few years ago I have an anxious attachment style which I thought I worked through but in my new relationship I have strong feelings for him and I feel the intense fear abandonment coming up and I’m so scared I’m gonna ruin the relationship - I thought maybe I’m just someone who needs a lot of reassurance but if I have OCD maybe that will make it worse? Feeling like I need reassurance to regulate? I just would like some help - have you experienced this? Is this even OCD? Am I making things up for attention? I’m going to bring it up with my therapist.
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