I feel so guilty I never asked for this. A certain intrusive thought that I’ve been having that won’t go away came up at the wrong time last night if you know what I’m talking about and now I feel like I’ve acted on the thoughts and I never would never want that. I feel so ashamed

Thank you so much. I’ve tried praying and listening to music and it just makes it worse. I feel so guilty

@Just Breathe ❤️ Do not worry ok? I’ve been there, you are not a monster. We are just humans with a sinful nature. As St. Paul said ““I do not understand what I do. For what I want to do I do not do, but what I hate I do. And if I do what I do not want to do, I agree that the law is good. As it is, it is no longer I myself who do it, but it is sin living in me.” ‭‭Romans‬ ‭7:15-17‬ and that’s St. Paul the man who visited the 3rd Heaven! Love you man, God bless :) ‭

@ttheafterprty Thank you but are the thoughts really sin though or are they of the enemy? I’ve always been confused about that. If it’s something that’s out of our control does God forgive us for something we can’t control?

@Just Breathe ❤️ Both are out of our control. To be honest, we can never really know if one is from us (OCD brain that is) or the enemy but God will forgive no less. God is merciful to the OCD sufferer. He knows how much love and compassion we need. OCD is not unforgivable, you did not ask for it! Do not worry. ❤️

@ttheafterprty Thank you friend God bless

I totally get how you feel and I’m so sorry you are going through this too. I’m tortured by it too. Mine come up during masturbation and scare me so much. I absolutely hate this theme it truly scares me. But yes I’m just like you too. I know what you are going through. Please know you are not alone and we can get through this.

Thank you. I just feel so much guilt. How do I deal with the guilt from feeling like I’ve done something terribly wrong?

@Just Breathe ❤️ I know :( The guilt feels absolutely consuming, I know. When I went through a really bad time this guilt ate at me for months, and I genuinely didn’t know what to do. I ended up taking up running. Not only did it feel good to get exercise but it was also an exposure exercise for me because the places I would run to typically had a lot of families and kids out on walks. At first it caused more anxiety, like exposure therapy does, but it ended up helping me so much. The more I forced myself to perform exposures, the more I felt comfortable in myself and the guilt decreased bit by bit. Stop trying to ruminate on memories trying to figure out if you did something or not. They will only make the ocd worse. The more you look back on past memories the more they will change and your ocd will convince you they are real. Refuse to indulge in this mental checking and focus on reminding yourself it is just some chemical imbalances in your brain! The guilt will subside with this practice.

@blueoceanpearl Thank you so much. Maybe I could try exercising too and maybe doing things to keep my mind of it. The guilt just consumes me sometimes and it’s so frustrating because I know my morals but my thoughts go against that and it scares me so much. Thank you for your help I truly appreciate it

@Just Breathe ❤️ Yes, of course. I am always here if you need to talk! I have been through the exact same thing and I remember how horrible it is. Just remember that your ocd is not you...it is just a chemical imbalance in your brain. It will do anything to try and latch on to things that you enjoy doing or things that make you happy. And, people who suffer from this specific subtype of ocd love being around kids—playing with them, teaching them, helping them, raising their children, etc. and these people who suffer from these themes are some of the kindest and most gentle people out there. Don’t let this ocd convince you that you are something you are not. I am so proud of you. Just take it one day at a time, I promise it will get better.

@blueoceanpearl Thank you so much!