I decided to finally get help! I'm going to book an appointment tomorrow with a CBT professional. I'm so nervous about it though. I keep thinking that I won't be able to communicate the mess that my mind is properly. My symptoms really align with those of a hocd sufferer, but I'm so scared she will just say that I'm in denial, and will twist my thoughts even more. I'm so so scared that this is all true.

Just keep in mind the counselor is a person too, she’s seen ALL kinds of OCD and I’m sure it’ll be fine! My counselor taught me how to handle my anxiety so well! He said “think of the worst that could happen then come up with a plan for if it does” it CHANGED MY LIFE. Your plan can be something like “worst case she twists my words and we miscommunicate, I can either try to get her to understand or find a different counselor.” No matter what it’ll be fine!

I agree this community is so lovely and so accepting. We can get through this! It's like a video game and we all have to defeat our own bosses.. or like in harry potter there was a part where students had to face their fears.. we will do it! If you feel you aren't in denial, you aren't. If when you stop thinking about it then it goes away, you are not in denial! You are who you want to be, it is you. Don't let OCD tell you who you are!

Thank you for the support!

Yes, counseling can be SUPER scary. It’s hard to open up to people who don’t know exactly what you’re thinking because sometimes you can’t explain what you’re thinking even, right?! It’s rough but, like I said before, I’m sure she’s had 100s of patients and has plenty of experience. Most counselors are super nice and supportive and you should be excited to have someone to vent to! She will help you and if she doesn’t don’t stop until you find someone who does.

Thank you all!! I started using this app yesterday and I have never seen in my entire life a community so strong, nice and supportive! We're all going to get through this, stronger and wiser!

Ask your therapist if she knows anything about ERP for OCD. If not, then you should find another therapist. This is coming from someone who went to five before getting diagnosed. It’s the most important you can ask tomorrow

Well done, it’s super brave of you to get help! And I’m also in the same situation, I’m really nervous to talk about all the stuff in my head haha Just take it slow, these professionals are there to listen and not judge. If you feel like you aren’t communicating yourself properly, just tell them this! I’m sure they would understand why you may be so nervous. They only want to help with the issues that you’re having.

Thanks for the advice, I'll do that