Serious question: Are obsessions about being gay driven by homophobia?

As an lgbt person with sexual orientation ocd its not based in fear of that thing. Its a lot deeper than that. The thoughts are ego dystonic, which means they go against who you are naturally. Theyre aggressive and painful and they hit you endlessly. Its not an organic transition into finding yourself but rather getting dragged into a constant debate you can never win. Its about your brain basically telling you the sky is green when you can clearly see its blue, and even distorting your memories. Everything becomes painful because youre SO wrapped up in analyzing and doubting that you dont even know what you like anymore and it just makes you feel numb. It feels very against your will, like youre being dragged. Its horrible and torturous, and its not like having a pre disposed prejudice. Some people with hocd could be homophobic, but i think on the whole most people who experience it are not, its just frightening when your identity is threatened so suddenly and seemingly with no reasoning behind it

For example I know I would never ever want to be with a woman, I love my boyfriend so much. However, because I know how much I love my boyfriend and don't want to be with a woman.. I get scared that what if I am in denial and actually like women..

That's okay, please understand that people struggling with this OCD are not homophobic. It is a serious mental illness and these people are victims! I am sure you understand if you suffer from OCD

No. You aren't scared of other gay people unless it is a trigger for your fear of being gay. It is that you know so much that you aren't gay.. that you are scared you are if that makes sense.. and you don't want to be because of how much you aren't therefore the fear arises.

But homophobia is not being afraid of gay people and being gay is not a bad thing

Yeah but that would be an obsession about cheating, not being gay.

It isn't a bad thing but it doesn't mean everyone wants to be gay. We all want to be.. us. I am straight and I want to be, I love my boyfriend I want to be with him till death do us apart.. so I fear that what if I am in denial. It's not about thinking it is wrong.. it is about being scared that you aren't you.. that you are living a lie.. that you don't know yourself.. I luckily recovered from this.. by ignoring those thoughts.. now I luckily have no doubts.. I wish you luck if you are struggling with this please seek therapy!

Nah I'm happily bi but thanks