pavlov
- Date posted
- 6y
GfauxGfaux
- Date posted
- 6y
As an lgbt person with sexual orientation ocd its not based in fear of that thing. Its a lot deeper than that. The thoughts are ego dystonic, which means they go against who you are naturally. Theyre aggressive and painful and they hit you endlessly. Its not an organic transition into finding yourself but rather getting dragged into a constant debate you can never win. Its about your brain basically telling you the sky is green when you can clearly see its blue, and even distorting your memories. Everything becomes painful because youre SO wrapped up in analyzing and doubting that you dont even know what you like anymore and it just makes you feel numb. It feels very against your will, like youre being dragged. Its horrible and torturous, and its not like having a pre disposed prejudice. Some people with hocd could be homophobic, but i think on the whole most people who experience it are not, its just frightening when your identity is threatened so suddenly and seemingly with no reasoning behind it
KalinaKalina
- Date posted
- 6y
For example I know I would never ever want to be with a woman, I love my boyfriend so much. However, because I know how much I love my boyfriend and don't want to be with a woman.. I get scared that what if I am in denial and actually like women..
KalinaKalina
- Date posted
- 6y
That's okay, please understand that people struggling with this OCD are not homophobic. It is a serious mental illness and these people are victims! I am sure you understand if you suffer from OCD
KalinaKalina
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- 6y
No. You aren't scared of other gay people unless it is a trigger for your fear of being gay. It is that you know so much that you aren't gay.. that you are scared you are if that makes sense.. and you don't want to be because of how much you aren't therefore the fear arises.
pavlovpavlov
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- 6y
But homophobia is not being afraid of gay people and being gay is not a bad thing
pavlovpavlov
- Date posted
- 6y
Yeah but that would be an obsession about cheating, not being gay.
KalinaKalina
- Date posted
- 6y
It isn't a bad thing but it doesn't mean everyone wants to be gay. We all want to be.. us. I am straight and I want to be, I love my boyfriend I want to be with him till death do us apart.. so I fear that what if I am in denial. It's not about thinking it is wrong.. it is about being scared that you aren't you.. that you are living a lie.. that you don't know yourself.. I luckily recovered from this.. by ignoring those thoughts.. now I luckily have no doubts.. I wish you luck if you are struggling with this please seek therapy!
pavlovpavlov
- Date posted
- 6y
Nah I'm happily bi but thanks
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- 21w
Is this a symptom of soocd
I’m 25 and never ever thought this before my soocd relapse. I have a bf of 5 years. Never been a high libido kinda girl. Don’t get me wrong I do get turned on by my bf but not like every day you know? - That had always been in the back of my head, is this normal and ok? But my ocd has latched onto the most scariest what if EVER. My brain is now saying How do you know you won’t prefer to sleep and kiss girls if you haven’t tried it: and it’s that unknown that is scaring the shit out of me. I DONT AND NEVER HAVE wanted to sleep / kiss a girl. But now my intrusive thoughts is all I think about!!! I don’t want I don’t want I don’t want??? So why does my brain think BUT WHAT IF??? I know ocd thrives off uncertainty which is why I think this is happening? But I don’t wanna find out or work it out because all I want is to be with my bf and marry him!! Is this just the epitome of OCD?
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Anonymous
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- 19w
Sexual orientation ocd
Can sexual orientation ocd make you act on your fears and make you have same sex experiences ever and then after the experience realize that’s not what you are or want?
vaiiolyn
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- 13w
Lesbian with Sexual Orientation OCD
I need too know that I'm not insane, really. I am 16 and for the past two weeks, this has been completely ruining my health and happiness. I only recently came out as a lesbian like 3 months ago after a lot of confusion about my attraction since I used to think I liked men. At first, I felt so sure that I liked women, but lately, I've been having these unwanted thoughts about the possibility of liking men. I never used to feel this way, but now, every time I look at a man, my brain obsessively fixates on it. It forces me to imagine kissing him, loving him, things I don’t want, and then tries to convince me that I do. It’s painful. The thought of this fills me with fear and anxiety, leading to panic attacks and breakdowns. I don’t want these thoughts. I hate them with every fiber of my being, but I’m terrified that one day I’ll act on them and somehow like it. I used to think I liked men, but back then, I was in a very unhealthy space in a time of escapism and something deeply parasocial. I’ve only ever liked the attention and validation a man could give me, but these experiences are somehow treated as further proof that I’m "bisexual." I’ve never been in a real relationship with anyone, which makes my brain constantly challenge me—telling me, “You don’t even know what love feels like.” It won’t shut up. It keeps obsessively trying to make me prove that I’m a lesbian, testing my reactions and questioning my certainty. Is this normal?
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