- Username
- Spiritsinmyhead
- Date posted
- 3y ago
You’re not pathetic I understand my family says just let the thoughts come and go but it’s so hard they don’t get it :/
yea):
Sounds just like me! I sometimes spend hours ruminating about things I really wish I wasn’t. And it’s very exhausting and time consuming. I just started my therapy with nocd. I believe in it so far. I encourage you to get help if you haven’t already. It also helps to get out of that room you ruminate in. Go outside and get away from that place for a while. You are not pathetic. You have a problem that all of us on here struggle with. You are not alone. Don’t punish yourself of blame yourself for something that’s not your fault. I’m starting to learn that as weak as we feel during this controlling thoughts, we actually do have the strength to control it! But I know that therapy now is the only way.
It is so misunderstood. My mother apologized to me one day and said "Was there something I should have done? Or was there something I shouldn't have done?" I said "Mom, no. We just did not know about it. We did not know. But you helped me get to the right doctor and now we know and things are better! Maybe let a professional explain to your mom about OCD and how to help. It may give her a sense of being to help you and understanding. The best to you and your Mom!
You are not pathetic. OCD is not a choice, its an illness. Its not your fault anymore than it would be your fault if you got cancer or was a diabetic. People who don't have OCD don't know what its like. So called "normal" people CAN push intrusive thoughts away and move on. But for someone with OCD its much more complicated. And it can be so incredibly hard to explain to someone who doesn't have OCD. It can be so frustrating. But all of us on this platform DO understand. I'm 45. I started having intrusive thoughts at about age 8. I have had OCD for most of my life and never knew it until about 2 weeks ago. Got an official diagnosis last week.
,it is nice to see someone how know what is like to have intrusive thoughts,I didn’t go to therapy..thanks to share your experience with me.and one of the hardest thing is that no one else know what is like to have intrusive thoughts, so they start to judge you. And it’s make things harder.
Sorry to hear about your situation. Other people just don't understand what OCD truly is and how hard it can be. But please know that you're not pathetic and that there's a community here who does understand and is here for you.
Yea most family members react this way because they don’t understand. Can they maybe attend a session with you so they can learn how to support you? Or can you tel them what helps?
I don’t know why my brain keeps targeting you but it is and it’s pissing me off, I hate how my head goes like oh did they bleed or enjoyed it or why didn’t they and I know full well why they didn’t and it just pisses me off because I don’t want these fucking thoughts anyone!- Or ask these questions. Oh did you cry?- Or the fact that more stuff pop into my head and me just imagining what happened is stuck in my mind and one of my thoughts- I don’t want to say sexualised- More like it popped up- About a baby!- I DONT LIKE THIS AT ALL!- I know it’s wrong!- I can’t even look at any other porn and my head keeps saying that I like my mom romantically and not platonically!- LIKE WHY ME?!— IT JUST PISSES ME OFF AND I DONT WANT TO TALK ABOUT THIS ANYMORE I JUST WANT TO SEE THE DOCTERS SO I CAN STOP SUFFERING WITH THESE THOUGHTS AND IMAGES, I FEEL LIKE I VICTEM BLAME THEM AS WELL, MY THOUGHTS ARE LIKE THAT WHEN I KNOW IT WASNT THEIR FUCKING FAULT!— AND IM SO SORRY.
TRIGGER WARNING TALKS OF CANCER AND INTRUSIVE THOUGHTS ARE TALKED ABOUT. Hey everyone just kinda wanted something to vent to. Unfortunately my mom got diagnosed with cancer again and my intrusive thoughts centered around her when my harm ocd was bad. I feel so guilty and ashamed for these thoughts I almost feel like it’s triggering to be around her since the recent relapse in the ocd cycle. I just want to hug her and be there for her and tell her everything is gonna be ok. I start therapy again tomorrow which is good but I just feel really bad. Thanks to anyone that reads.
I love my son more than anything. Just writing that's making me tear up from guilt of these violent thoughts. Everyday for the last 2 weeks I cry. I don't want to move from my couch. He's 6 and he looks up to me and is always around me and I feel so guilty from these thoughts I want to avoid him but I can't. I feel guilty whenever a happy thought comes up or when I do anything I like. The ocd tells me why r u doing anything you enjoy remember what you were thinking earlier. My brain is constantly ruminating this specific scenario it's conjured up that makes me frozen. As soon as I wake up the thoughts start and never end. its a struggle to get ready for work and even go home or go to the gym all things I love. I haven't hidden knives around my house because I think I'm giving in if I do. I know coming on here is a compulsion but I can't help it today. I'm ready to just runaway but something in me keeps me from leaving the family I love so much. I'll get through this but had to write it out
Share your thoughts so the Community can respond