My mom walked in and saw me ruminating and she said what are you doing I said I just have unwanted thoughts and she said everyone have unwanted thoughts and i said I know but when you can’t make it go it becomes exhausting she walks out and say just get rid of them you are wasting your time and your future.that really hit hard as I can’t get rid of them and the way she said make it like I want the thoughts,she loves me so much and so do I.sometimes I get headaches because how much I thought and like my head vibrate.sorry I’m writing here but i needed to say that to someone.as I don’t have anyone to speak with.what a pathetic person I’m.

You’re not pathetic I understand my family says just let the thoughts come and go but it’s so hard they don’t get it :/

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Sorry to hear about your situation. Other people just don't understand what OCD truly is and how hard it can be. But please know that you're not pathetic and that there's a community here who does understand and is here for you.

Sounds just like me! I sometimes spend hours ruminating about things I really wish I wasn’t. And it’s very exhausting and time consuming. I just started my therapy with nocd. I believe in it so far. I encourage you to get help if you haven’t already. It also helps to get out of that room you ruminate in. Go outside and get away from that place for a while. You are not pathetic. You have a problem that all of us on here struggle with. You are not alone. Don’t punish yourself of blame yourself for something that’s not your fault. I’m starting to learn that as weak as we feel during this controlling thoughts, we actually do have the strength to control it! But I know that therapy now is the only way.

It is so misunderstood. My mother apologized to me one day and said "Was there something I should have done? Or was there something I shouldn't have done?" I said "Mom, no. We just did not know about it. We did not know. But you helped me get to the right doctor and now we know and things are better! Maybe let a professional explain to your mom about OCD and how to help. It may give her a sense of being to help you and understanding. The best to you and your Mom!

You are not pathetic. OCD is not a choice, its an illness. Its not your fault anymore than it would be your fault if you got cancer or was a diabetic. People who don't have OCD don't know what its like. So called "normal" people CAN push intrusive thoughts away and move on. But for someone with OCD its much more complicated. And it can be so incredibly hard to explain to someone who doesn't have OCD. It can be so frustrating. But all of us on this platform DO understand. I'm 45. I started having intrusive thoughts at about age 8. I have had OCD for most of my life and never knew it until about 2 weeks ago. Got an official diagnosis last week.

,it is nice to see someone how know what is like to have intrusive thoughts,I didn’t go to therapy..thanks to share your experience with me.and one of the hardest thing is that no one else know what is like to have intrusive thoughts, so they start to judge you. And it’s make things harder.