it’s okay, ive been where you are and now i’m feeling better, SOOCD is literally the worst. My recommendation is to stop gradually doing compulsion as much as you can, I was doing a lot of sexual checking compulsion that were backfiring so it made everything worse so stop checking, if you can get treatment, i’m doing ERP and i’m on antidepressants and it has helped a lot.
Hi there. I started recovery by deciding on maybe 3 "worry periods" a day. What I mean is, whenever the thoughts came into my mind I would tell myself to stop and leave it to that specific time. So I could get on with the rest of my day. Then in those worry periods I would do exposures until the anxiety started to subside a little through habituation. The key is to refuse to engage with the thoughts outside of those times, yes they will be there at times but dont try and resolve them. What I have found is that over time you will start to take the thoughts less seriously in a way, yes you will still hate them but you wont be in fear of them and they lose their power over you. When you stop fearing them they will start to recede and when they do happen you wont place any importance on them as they become separate to who you really are. I hope that makes sense.
How did it backfire what used to happen @anto007
with OCD everytime you check you are less certain of what you are checking, so I used to watch gay porn and that kinda stuff to be sure I was grossed out but everytime it was harder to get the response that I wanted
I'm right there with ya, one thing that helps bring me back to center and acknowledge I'm dealing with ocd is to watch some of nocd videos or q and a videos about ocd with professionals. It reminds me how many others are experiencing the same symptoms. Cause if we can bring back awareness and acknowledge our ocd, we Re more likely to face triggers and exposures and keep living on our values. Hang in there <3 sending love!