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I don't know if i need anything specifically, just some random tips would do. But basically I'm struggling because i see no point in school since i don't really learn anything there and end up teaching myself anyway. I am considering homeschooling because i most likely have social anxiety and am literally terrified of being at school and sitting through lessons. I barely sleep because of the amount of work, plus i have low blood pressure which is why I'm prone to frequent headaches. Actually doing school work feels stupid because there is nothing I'll personally get out of it most of the time. My school unfortunately prioritizes completed work instead of knowledge. The teachers seem to not know anything about how to work with children and just yell/make us feel worthless in a different way. This is my last year of school and i have exams at the end of it, i am overwhelmed by them because idk how to prepare for them since the online classes i take to get ready for them make me happy (the teachers are great and provide adequate knowledge) but it hurts doing them because i dont want things that make me happy to twist up with the concept of school, plus it's hard to complete them because school gets in the way. I can't tell whether or not i have executive disfunction too. My school is considered to be the best in town but it is useless and is the main reason of my mental suffering. It's 6:11 am right now and i haven't slept because i have a lot on my mind. I didn't expect this to be such a rant lmao, but it feels nice to get it all out.
@IXBellaXI I didn't go to school yesterday because i didn't feel great the day before that, therefore didn't do my homework. It is literally safer to skip school if you don't have you homework done instead of going there, even though my class supervisor called my mom and told her a bunch of nonsense, including for me to pick up my documents from the school and leave if there is a problem. They are all insane.
@IXBellaXI You've already figured out that traditional school is sort of a scam... since you've just got this last year to go, maybe think about what a successful year might look like at the end? Everyone fixates on short-term scores and grades, but you've already got your eye on what you value beyond that (through enjoying your online studies and not wanting school to drag that down).