FUCK i really REALLYneed help. Been overthinking. My fucking cousins have lice and they’re contagious right? Well I contracted and I’ve been doing everything to get them out but my cousins are lazy and won’t exert the same effort. I thought I was free from if, turns out I still have it bc I found a big one. I’m FREAKING out. My friends and I are close and I just worry I might have given it to them too and I’m gonna cause an outbreak. I feel so guilty and like i have to confess to them incase they do have it so they can take precautionary measures so we wont be passing lice to each othef but at the same time i kind of dont want to because im so scared they’ll avoid me or not be as close much I’m 19, lices are for kids. I feel so ashamed and embarrassed i dont know what to do

Yesterday I was watching a show and I thought the boy was cute and just randomly texted my cousins cuz we were watching the same show. I’m 23, & at first glance I barely paid attention but I thought he was at least 21, but my cousins replied with “he looks 18 you pervert” or “it’s looking bad for you”. I started freaking out immediately checked to his face properly again and he did look younger, & I felt so disgusted with myself. I felt terrible, instantly regretted everything & didn’t know what to do. I’ve been anxious since last night barely been able to sleep cuz I just complimented someone who is younger than me. My mind is now like ruminating that I’m a pedophile or pervert for thinking that. I hate this because I honestly wasn’t thinking of it in that type of sense like I would date him or something, I was not aware. I would’ve forgot about that moment after. I needed to get it off my chest cuz I have been feeling exhausted & terrible.

I’m having a horrible time today with my OCD. I worked a 7 hour shift in which the checkout line was consistent. There was many children in the line as well as all type of people, ranging from clean to smelly to outright dirty. All day I’ve been feeling as if there are piojos (lice) in my hair and even imagined the feeling of them falling onto my neck. I know I do not have them, but I have been picking at my scalp until it bleeds for the past hour because I feel as if there are piojos in my hair or bugs under my scalp. I keep having thoughts to take a knife and dig into my scalp to create an opening to pull the bugs out even tho I know there isn’t any and that I would only be harming myself. How do I combat my bug-related OCD??? And what is a healthy alternative for skin picking when I feel as if I have bugs under my skin??

My pocd has been so so awful this year i absolutely hate it. it gives me so many intrusive thoughts that plays into real events / false memories. An incident happened today and i cannot stop panicking. I was laying on the sofa as my head was sort of hurting and i was sleeping. My younger cousin came to get the remote from me and before she did i moved my head away from her and then closed my eyes and waited for her to move bc close contact makes me anxious. But here’s the thing. i’m freaking out because what if i moved my head back so it brushes past her private area? did it brush past her? were my intentions bad?? 😭 and the thing that makes this feel more real is the fact before she came over to pick the remote up, she called my name to change the channel but i didn’t reply and i think i knew she’d come over to get it. i think maybe that’s why i opened my eyes to move the control but by that time she had already come over. am i a bad person? literally an hour before this i was holding my breath when she was next to me because i didn’t want to breathe too much as it may make the sofa move underneath me which she was sitting on too. i feel like the worst person ever & i deserve to die 😭💔