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That use to be my main intrusive thought, and it’s one of the worst thoughts because it’s such a mind game and OCD will play tricks on your brain. Just know if a thought brings mental discomfort then it 99.9% of the time is not true, also if you are worrying about it and trying to over analyze it you won’t feel attraction because your brain is in a fight or flight mode so it will shut down the part of your brain that gives you the ability to actually feel real attraction. In my experience when I’m in fight or flight mode my I truly don’t have the mental clarity to actually know if I find someone attractive so my OCD will jump to conclusions and make me think that I’m not the sexuality I know I am. It’s a primal instinct looking for someone attractive and when you don’t have it, it will play so many tricks on your brain and the thoughts that come with it are just simply annoying. Try not putting emotion to your intrusive thoughts and analyzing them like a scientist and understand it’s just your brain playing tricks on you. In the end whatever feels right for you sexuality wise is what your sexuality is don’t second guess it. I hope this calms your brain a little bit. Good luck.
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Thank u !
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I get that too I'm so happy to be straight but my ocd wants me to think I should be lesbian instead and that scared me so bad cause I already have a boyfriend and I don't wanna be lesbian either 😭 seeing girls anywhere scares me and I always have to check my feelings for boys....
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The same for me ! but im a lesbian and my brain tells im i like men when i 100% know i dont lmao
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i can relate to this!! i just recently discovered what SO-OCD is. On my way! thing i noticed in my experience with these kind of intrusive thoughts is once i’m settled down and calm i am able to think about having relationships with men and feel certain about that. whereas when i am worrying and experiencing intrusive thoughts, feeling certain that i am straight is something that’s incredibly hard to grasp.
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good luck, ur never alone !
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