J Tizzle
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- 6y
johndoejohndoe
- Date posted
- 6y
Right here, I cant stand the thought of being around kids.
J TizzleJ Tizzle
- Date posted
- 6y
Thank you for commenting! I've never had an issue with this until fairly recently. I became obsessed with the idea that I could do something horrible to a child (not obsessing about doing something, but that I COULD do something). Now I have gronial responses, which are extra confusing because I've alway identified as asexual. I used to volunteer with kids and never had this, but now I feel like a monster.
johndoejohndoe
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- 6y
I wish I was asexual, I'm at a point where I dont trust myself with having sexuality anymore. Its chemical castration or bust for me. I feel like a monster too, I've read so many articles on sexual abuses of all kinds from every imaginable background. I'm pretty much convinced theres a sexual demon present in all of humanity. The least I can do is just never let myself fall into dangerous territory
wewillgetthroughthiswewillgetthr...
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- 6y
I identify as asexual too, and now that I have this fear, I keep thinking “what if I’m not actually asexual, what if I’m really just attracted to kids??” It’s really messing with me.
J TizzleJ Tizzle
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- 6y
wewillgett..... I feel the EXACT same way. That's almost, word for the word, the same thought process I have. It drives me nuts.
johndoejohndoe
- Date posted
- 6y
I've had intrusive sexual thoughts since I was 14, it's not really that out of nowhere. I dont consider it extreme and unnecessary, as all I lose is the ability to get it up, something I can live without
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