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Thank you for this. Mine is slowly relapsing I think, and I’ve always hated how people react to this. I’m honestly scared to talk about my SOOCD with people I trust, because I’m afraid they’ll tell me I’m gay/bi/pan/etc. I don’t want to be gay- it’s something that just doesn’t seem to fit with me, and I’m scared that my life is a lie and that I’m a lie and that I’m gay- Sorry for the rant I totally agree with this 💛
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Felt that
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👏 This, this, this. I feel like SOOCD has less of a black and white morality standing in terms of right and wrong and therefore people LOVE to jump to conclusions and project their sexual orientation onto people. I connect so much to the fears you've stated like losing your partner or losing your identity. There's so much more to SOOCD than gay or not or straight or not and it needs to just as validated as the other themes.
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YES. this comment brought me peace thank you
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I dont even feel like Im losing a part of my identitt anymore, just feels like this is my real one
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ALSO I just wish we changed the way we talk about it in general. Like being more neutral and really emphasizing SOOCD instead of HOCD to be more inclusive of the LGBTQ+ that have this theme because anyone can have it about being any sexuality. I assume they feel kind of left out in the conversation because a lot of rhetoric and resources exclude them. I think being more inclusive about it would help change the idea that it only impacts heterosexual people who fear being exclusively homosexual (which carries a LOT of negative connotations with it that get generalized to this form of OCD) and hopefully showing people it impacts everyone and cannot be generalized to whatever people assume with HOCD. Also talking more about how it really has nothing to do with sexuality. I sometimes get caught up in the thoughts and how real/literal it seems that I forget that I don’t technically have sexuality problem. I have a core fear and an identity problem. We all do. It’s just that our OCD really chose to fixate on sexuality for whatever reason. I think breaking down this OCD into core fears and identity can help reduce some of the stigma that comes with people assuming it is about sexuality. Anyway that’s my continued vent I guess.
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Yes. 💚💚💚💚
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Ugh yes mine is slowly coming back
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I have similar thoughts regarding gender identity OCD.
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Agreed!!
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I've suffered with OCD for 50 years with many different themes. SOOCD is my primary theme, and no matter which theme I may be in the middle of it always comes back to SOOCD. I'm back in therapy because after a couple of really good years, I've been in the middle of a flare up. My new therapist with NOCD, recently asked me what my core fear about homosexuallity is. I can't seem to answer that. The only answer that I can come up with, is that it is just egotistic. I'm a heterosexual man who loves my wife and raised three great kids. My question is, have. any ofyou ever been able to answer that question. I would appreciate any thoughts on this question. Thank you and have a great day.
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So my ocd theme changed to sexual orientation ocd last December after I heard a popular video "hi, I'm Gibby" and I went like the Gibby sounds like "gay", then I started saying the phrase and over days, I started getting intrusive thoughts "I'm gay" .(I have had other ocd themes: (magical thinking ocd, symmetry ocd, health concern ocd, religious and spirituality ocd and harm ocd ever since I was 12, they just come and go)....I struggle with other conditions(ASD and bipolar disorder). I have never struggled with sexuality or questioned it because I have only liked males right from when I was in grade 1🥲...I still like them. SO-OCD is very frustrating because deep down I know I'm straight and there's no evidence I'm not but the intrusive thoughts and compulsions to get relief (the cycle) won't stop. I'm on fluoxetine(Prozac) and it did help my symptoms but lately I realised I'm more consumed with compulsions and idk but I think it's reducing the effects of the drugs?.. I see an attractive female and my mind goes like you found her attractive you must be gay or I want to go out and do sumn"what if you discover you like them or are gay" ...idk it's frustrating, very and I'm tired. I don't even get turned on by same sex or any😭that what even makes it more confusing.+ It's almost like I'm now hypervigilant when Watching videos or Instagram reels...it making me forget that finding someone physically attractive≠sexual attraction...idk if anyone gets me...(Rn my ocd themes are SO-OCD and religious and spirituality ocd) SO-OCD is frustrating, I'm tireddd...how can I never have struggled with sexuality for almost a decade and half but I'm having it now(it's started two months ago)...who has had/have this theme??
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I feel like evryone is saying yeah the worst part is not knowing what my actual sexuality is however for me its like not that but more about being another sexuality and not being able to be with my bf because "my body and my truth are stronger then my will to stay with my bf". I also have the fear of SOOCD ending up being true or for example and more specifically liking it and never going back to men... I dont know if anyone relates to that, let me know!
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