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Well, since you just said an adjective to describe the thoughts, which is “horrible” means you don’t like these thoughts and the fact that you know you never would is in fact OCD. Right now your ahead of the game. Acknowledge it is just a thought and say “wow OCD what a crazy thought you just gave me and that’s cool maybe I would or maybe I wouldn’t hurt children, but right now I’m just gunna acknowledge that crazy thought you just gave me and focus on something else, however if you wanna stay you can or you can leave whenever you want. In the meantime I’m just gunna focus on TV or Reading.” And let it go. Don’t follow the thought down the rabbit hole. It’s just a thought, the more you panic and the more you attach emotion to the thought, the stronger it becomes. Just let it be.
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Thank you does OCD cause you stress ??
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Hey Andre…any advice on my post? I was wondering if there is anything that can help I still feel terrible
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Please don’t read it any further if it makes you super uncomfortable. I jusr feel absolutely defeated and disgusting and I just want to get rid of myself because I can’t stand being such a terrible fucking person. I wanted to be a good person but I can’t stop thinking about my younger self and how disgusting she was. I wish I knew better back then I really do. I’ve talked about this here before and I’ve always been told that it’s nothing but I realized I missed an important detail. So back when i was like 11 or 12 and my sister was 9 or 8 i remember us playing together and i used to just like trace my finger on her arm and it was just like a fun thing idk i never really thoought much of it but then i realized when i got older how messed up it was because she woul laugh and run and i would still like do it and we would like laugh about it and make manly sounds when I did it? Like I was trying to be seductive? I don’t know it’s terrible. And there was a time when i was like 9 and my cousin was 6 and we used to play pretend and stuff but for some reason id ask him to look sleepy idek why like its jsut so messed up. But the memory came back now when i was going out of my mind and convinced that its just who i am and that i cant escape myself I told my elder sister about this but she said it was nothing since you were child with zero knowledge about anything. Up till here everyone has told me this was nothing. But what I realized Is that I didn’t add a part in the story. When I asked my cousin to do that I did it because I had this weird thing of feeling a pit in my stomach when I saw someone like that on tv? It sounds disgusting And it always felt nice I guess I don’t know and I made him do it for me. And I undermined before but recently I’ve been seeing so many tiktoks about people who were SA’d by their cousins and I just feel like killing myself because I think I did this to him and I just feel absolutely disgusting. I don’t want to live with myself anymore I don’t want to be this person. Again if you don’t want to please don’t read it I don’t want to trigger anything. I can’t do this anymore.
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Hey, don’t give up. Don’t ever give up. I know it’s hard at times to belive in yourself, but I will ask everyone who reads this comment to give this a heart if you agree with this statement “when your at times you can’t believe in yourself, at the very least believe in me because I believe in you.” I don’t know you, but please know I love you and I know people love you as well. Please show this courageous women some support and let’s get this heart thing up if you agree with me.
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but I wanted to write this to you. Everything you said is not weird, why is it not weird? Because you were a child. I’ve learned in many of my psychology classes that when children are young, they see things on shows, they explore, they’re curious and they do things like you just said. I do feel that you need to give yourself a bit of lenency and remind yourself that you were 9 years old… I went through something similar where I did sexual things as a child and it bothered me. I felt disgusting and as soon as I mentioned it to my mom, she said “honey, that is normal, you were a child” and ever since then it stuck with me. You see, when we are younger we say things, do things, etc and we truly don’t understand why we do them. It’s the same thing with I stole a piece of candy at the grocery store when I was little. My mom easily would have bought it for me but I wanted to steal it because it was fun and I didn’t want to ask my mom. I look back and I realize how silly that was. And how this correlates to what you said is that you were a kid. Kids do random things all the time because they are growing. They are developing and learning…
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You are so loved and valued. Please know that.
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@Animallover065 Thank you so much for this. Do think what I did would count as SA what doesn’t let me sleep at night is the tiktoks I watch of people if happend to when they were young by other children but their stories are always more intense in the sense that PLEASE don’t read further if it triggers you. But in the sense that they were touched touched inappropriately and everything like that and that they have trauma from it. Does mine count as SA when the idea of liking it was in my head and my cousin didn’t even know? And doesn’t even remember because it was in my head and not really an act idk if you get what I mean. This just doesn’t let me move on I just don’t know what to do I don’t want to be the reason why someone has trauma I don’t want to be that person I just hate myself for this
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@Andrewmz I’m really really struggling and I cannot tell you how much your comment just helped me. Thank you for this. You don’t know how much this means
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@riiii Your very welcome, just remember your okay. OCD cannot physically harm you, it’s just makes you feel like your not in control. It makes you doubt literally everything. But again it cannot hurt you. I have faith in you, you got this! 💗
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@Andrewmz Thank you. I have faith in you too!! I hope you’re well and I hope you keep going . Thank you for being there for me!
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@riiii Of course, we will get through this together! ❤️
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@Anonymous Thank you so much 💗 so are you!
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right here!
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Hey! Thanks for being here I just really want to talk about a real event that I’ve been struggling with for a long time and it’s gotten worse. I would have to go into detail but i don’t want to trigger anyone so if you can’t that’s ok:)
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@riiii Go for, maybe just turn the post to a trigger warning
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@Anonymous Any idea how I can do that? The option isn’t there anymore since I’ve already made the post
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@riiii Here to listen!
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@riiii I'm not sure, go for it anyway though 💙
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@Anonymous Hi I made a comment under this post. Let me know if you can see it
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@Anonymous Comment under this post. Thank you so much for listening
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Also remember, seeking reassurance won't make this better. We are always here though 💙
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Yes you’re right. Reassurance doesn’t help but I just really need to talk about it it’s making me completely miserable
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@riiii I am here to talk! Although you should not seek reassurance, sometimes many people just want to get things off their chest and that’s okay❤️
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@Animallover065 Hi I commented under this post. Thanks for listening I really really needed this
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Hey I think I saw your comment but it seems like it was deleted ?
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FIRST OFF PLEASE DO BOT DO ANYTHING HARMFUL TO YOURSELF
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Can I talk to someone please
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What’s going on?
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I'm having horrible thoughts about hurting children 😭😭 which I never would but I'm not sure how to tell if it's OCD
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It’s like that annoying song Baby Shark that gets stuck in your head and you just keep singing it over and over again in your head, until you don’t even realize that like an hour later you didn’t even think about it anymore. Think of intrusive thoughts as annoying sings. They go away the less you pay attention to them. Your good Shelley ❤️
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Hey! I struggle with this a lot. Honestly the way I try to control is to remember it’s just a thought and an intrusive one. It’s not real and it’s not who you are. Sometimes it’s hard to remember that but just try your best block out the thought after you have had it. I usually just focus on something else. Like tv or walking etc. You got this!
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A ton of it! Again tho my best advice is to literally sit there and continue doing what you were doing before the thought came in. Just sit with the uncomfortable feeling, the more you try to push it away or the more you try to rationalize with a thought the worse it gets. Literally acknowledge the thought as OCD and call it for what it is an intrusive thought that was conjured by OCD. Don’t panic, don’t cry, don’t get angry, literally either do nothing and sit with the uncomfortable feeling until it passes which it will or do what you were doing before you got distracted by the thought. Don’t give it any power. You got this!
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Thank you I think I've have gave them some thought already as this is new to me I'm struggling ... My thoughts have no really triggers can that happen like they hit me mostly when I'm at home
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Yea
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Are you the same person? Confused 😅
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Idk lol
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???😂
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😂
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I’m sharing this bc I need advice or even support from anyone who can relate. If you can’t relate and don’t think you’ll say anything helpful or kind pls don’t comment anything… I’ve been struggling with somethings that’s making me question myself. There has been moments while self pleasuring when I get intrusive thoughts, in those moments it feels like I’m enjoying or even self pleasuring myself bc of the thought. Right after I immediately have an anxiety attack and my HEART drops bc it feels terrible I feel like a disgusting monster :( ppl have told me I haven’t done a bad bc of how intense my guilt and panic are but I keep thinking that MAYBE I made a horrible decision in the moment and the guilt is just realising that it’s just wrong this doesn’t make sense to me because I’ve always told myself that I would never act on this in 1 million years and I’ve been known that these things are wrong so I’m just like constantly questioning myself these feelings and exact same situation has happened two times already I even promised myself that I wouldn’t act on anything beforehand and yeah, I still felt like I did act on my thought during my alone time I’m genuinely convinced that I’m a horrible and it’s even got into the point where I don’t wanna be here anymore and I don’t even think this is my OCD :( tbh
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Hi, I’m new here!! I’m praying I don’t get judged for this. But, back in late May of 2022 ( literally right before I graduated high school), I added this one random girl from my school on Snapchat. She posted something about a graduation party , so I swiped up on her story basically saying how I can’t believe we’re almost graduated. She replied and we had a really short and simple conversation. The next day ( i believe) , we started talking a lot , and I just so happened to see her at the highschool when we were grabbing our graduation outfits and doing the rehearsal. When I saw her irl, I kinda got turned off ( I heard she was kinda crazy) , and on top of that , she was a little ugly irl. I remember seeing her Snapchat bio , and she was close friends with my female cousin ( a year younger than me) , who I happened to experiment sexually with when I was 10-11 years old. I remember going to work later that day and having sort of a lightbulb flick thought ( it wasn’t a good thought though) , what if my cousin told her about what happened when we were younger? So I started to kind of panic and immediately distanced myself from that girl. I also experimented sexually with one of my female friends when I was 10-11 , and from that day onwards, I’ve been pretty much living in paranoia and a little bit of guilt about someone finding out and my life being ruined . On top of that, It’s gotten worse to now sometimes I wonder if a girl I added off of quick add ( Snapchat) is underage even if they told me they were 18+ or had 18 and above in their bio, and I get so much guilt and anxiety about that. I even had a quick thought last February on what if I did something inappropriate with my younger cousin when I was 15-16 but I just can’t exactly remember when it happened , and it still eats me alive when I think about it, because I don’t know if it happened or not. I’m sorry for the long vent, I just wish I felt normal again. No matter how much I try to do things that old me used to do, life always feels “ off”. I always kept the top part about when I was younger a secret up until early (ish ) 2024, then I vented to one of my best friends and he told me that that’s a normal thing to do at a young age. Since then, I have told multiple friends and they all say they did similar stuff, but my brain just can’t accept that. Please help me, I quite literally overthink everything nowadays. 2021 was the last full year that I felt normal ( coincidentally, the best year of my life so far) . It’s not just about sexual related things either, sometimes I’ll wonder if I messed up something at work or hit a car while driving/hit someone and drove off. I just wanna live my life how I was supposed to live it after highschool ( carefree and happy) before whatever it is ( I think it’s ocd) hit me unexpectedly. Thanks to anyone who read this , I just needed to pour it out regardless of how negative I felt typing this, I hope someone can relate , because I feel so alone in my head at times.
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I understand trying to find comfort in your thoughts but what can i do if i can’t keep these thoughts to myself sometimes?
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