- Username
- riiii
- Date posted
- 3y ago
Well, since you just said an adjective to describe the thoughts, which is “horrible” means you don’t like these thoughts and the fact that you know you never would is in fact OCD. Right now your ahead of the game. Acknowledge it is just a thought and say “wow OCD what a crazy thought you just gave me and that’s cool maybe I would or maybe I wouldn’t hurt children, but right now I’m just gunna acknowledge that crazy thought you just gave me and focus on something else, however if you wanna stay you can or you can leave whenever you want. In the meantime I’m just gunna focus on TV or Reading.” And let it go. Don’t follow the thought down the rabbit hole. It’s just a thought, the more you panic and the more you attach emotion to the thought, the stronger it becomes. Just let it be.
Thank you does OCD cause you stress ??
Hey Andre…any advice on my post? I was wondering if there is anything that can help I still feel terrible
Please don’t read it any further if it makes you super uncomfortable. I jusr feel absolutely defeated and disgusting and I just want to get rid of myself because I can’t stand being such a terrible fucking person. I wanted to be a good person but I can’t stop thinking about my younger self and how disgusting she was. I wish I knew better back then I really do. I’ve talked about this here before and I’ve always been told that it’s nothing but I realized I missed an important detail. So back when i was like 11 or 12 and my sister was 9 or 8 i remember us playing together and i used to just like trace my finger on her arm and it was just like a fun thing idk i never really thoought much of it but then i realized when i got older how messed up it was because she woul laugh and run and i would still like do it and we would like laugh about it and make manly sounds when I did it? Like I was trying to be seductive? I don’t know it’s terrible. And there was a time when i was like 9 and my cousin was 6 and we used to play pretend and stuff but for some reason id ask him to look sleepy idek why like its jsut so messed up. But the memory came back now when i was going out of my mind and convinced that its just who i am and that i cant escape myself I told my elder sister about this but she said it was nothing since you were child with zero knowledge about anything. Up till here everyone has told me this was nothing. But what I realized Is that I didn’t add a part in the story. When I asked my cousin to do that I did it because I had this weird thing of feeling a pit in my stomach when I saw someone like that on tv? It sounds disgusting And it always felt nice I guess I don’t know and I made him do it for me. And I undermined before but recently I’ve been seeing so many tiktoks about people who were SA’d by their cousins and I just feel like killing myself because I think I did this to him and I just feel absolutely disgusting. I don’t want to live with myself anymore I don’t want to be this person. Again if you don’t want to please don’t read it I don’t want to trigger anything. I can’t do this anymore.
Hey, don’t give up. Don’t ever give up. I know it’s hard at times to belive in yourself, but I will ask everyone who reads this comment to give this a heart if you agree with this statement “when your at times you can’t believe in yourself, at the very least believe in me because I believe in you.” I don’t know you, but please know I love you and I know people love you as well. Please show this courageous women some support and let’s get this heart thing up if you agree with me.
but I wanted to write this to you. Everything you said is not weird, why is it not weird? Because you were a child. I’ve learned in many of my psychology classes that when children are young, they see things on shows, they explore, they’re curious and they do things like you just said. I do feel that you need to give yourself a bit of lenency and remind yourself that you were 9 years old… I went through something similar where I did sexual things as a child and it bothered me. I felt disgusting and as soon as I mentioned it to my mom, she said “honey, that is normal, you were a child” and ever since then it stuck with me. You see, when we are younger we say things, do things, etc and we truly don’t understand why we do them. It’s the same thing with I stole a piece of candy at the grocery store when I was little. My mom easily would have bought it for me but I wanted to steal it because it was fun and I didn’t want to ask my mom. I look back and I realize how silly that was. And how this correlates to what you said is that you were a kid. Kids do random things all the time because they are growing. They are developing and learning…
You are so loved and valued. Please know that.
@Animallover065 Thank you so much for this. Do think what I did would count as SA what doesn’t let me sleep at night is the tiktoks I watch of people if happend to when they were young by other children but their stories are always more intense in the sense that PLEASE don’t read further if it triggers you. But in the sense that they were touched touched inappropriately and everything like that and that they have trauma from it. Does mine count as SA when the idea of liking it was in my head and my cousin didn’t even know? And doesn’t even remember because it was in my head and not really an act idk if you get what I mean. This just doesn’t let me move on I just don’t know what to do I don’t want to be the reason why someone has trauma I don’t want to be that person I just hate myself for this
@Andrewmz I’m really really struggling and I cannot tell you how much your comment just helped me. Thank you for this. You don’t know how much this means
@riiii Your very welcome, just remember your okay. OCD cannot physically harm you, it’s just makes you feel like your not in control. It makes you doubt literally everything. But again it cannot hurt you. I have faith in you, you got this! 💗
@Andrewmz Thank you. I have faith in you too!! I hope you’re well and I hope you keep going . Thank you for being there for me!
@riiii Of course, we will get through this together! ❤️
@Anonymous Thank you so much 💗 so are you!
right here!
Hey! Thanks for being here I just really want to talk about a real event that I’ve been struggling with for a long time and it’s gotten worse. I would have to go into detail but i don’t want to trigger anyone so if you can’t that’s ok:)
@riiii Go for, maybe just turn the post to a trigger warning
@Anonymous Any idea how I can do that? The option isn’t there anymore since I’ve already made the post
@riiii Here to listen!
@riiii I'm not sure, go for it anyway though 💙
@Anonymous Hi I made a comment under this post. Let me know if you can see it
@Anonymous Comment under this post. Thank you so much for listening
Also remember, seeking reassurance won't make this better. We are always here though 💙
Yes you’re right. Reassurance doesn’t help but I just really need to talk about it it’s making me completely miserable
@riiii I am here to talk! Although you should not seek reassurance, sometimes many people just want to get things off their chest and that’s okay❤️
@Animallover065 Hi I commented under this post. Thanks for listening I really really needed this
Hey I think I saw your comment but it seems like it was deleted ?
FIRST OFF PLEASE DO BOT DO ANYTHING HARMFUL TO YOURSELF
Can I talk to someone please
What’s going on?
I'm having horrible thoughts about hurting children 😭😭 which I never would but I'm not sure how to tell if it's OCD
It’s like that annoying song Baby Shark that gets stuck in your head and you just keep singing it over and over again in your head, until you don’t even realize that like an hour later you didn’t even think about it anymore. Think of intrusive thoughts as annoying sings. They go away the less you pay attention to them. Your good Shelley ❤️
Hey! I struggle with this a lot. Honestly the way I try to control is to remember it’s just a thought and an intrusive one. It’s not real and it’s not who you are. Sometimes it’s hard to remember that but just try your best block out the thought after you have had it. I usually just focus on something else. Like tv or walking etc. You got this!
A ton of it! Again tho my best advice is to literally sit there and continue doing what you were doing before the thought came in. Just sit with the uncomfortable feeling, the more you try to push it away or the more you try to rationalize with a thought the worse it gets. Literally acknowledge the thought as OCD and call it for what it is an intrusive thought that was conjured by OCD. Don’t panic, don’t cry, don’t get angry, literally either do nothing and sit with the uncomfortable feeling until it passes which it will or do what you were doing before you got distracted by the thought. Don’t give it any power. You got this!
Thank you I think I've have gave them some thought already as this is new to me I'm struggling ... My thoughts have no really triggers can that happen like they hit me mostly when I'm at home
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Are you the same person? Confused 😅
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No one really listens No one is there for me People are all minding their owns I don’t have a loved one. I feel alone I wish someone would really listen. Really understand this messed up mind of mine. I can’t talk to anyone I am afraid they don’t wanna listen. I am afraid i will act like a burden. Thought about texting some people i trust. Like mr. ***** or dr. *****. But I’m scared they will be like: “what’s wrong with this girl??? What on earth is going on??? We don’t care! Why did she text us??? What have she thought??? “ No one is here for me. Not even me myself. I had enough and life is being really tough lately The more goes on, the more i feel alone I admit i got no one Guess no one is interested in knowing what the hell is going on in my mind. Who cares?? Really? You know what?! Why talking to my therapist? What will she say? Just like classes Just like teachers She would say: do what i told you. Do your CBT sh*t. But i am tired of that I hate it. I love (loved) to be independent but.. I have to admit this: I really Really Need someone to rescue me Outta this thing. I am having suicidal thoughts And I can’t let them go I scratched my wrist. Help please
Hi is anyone available to talk. I am in a really bad place right now.
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