- Username
- hannie
- Date posted
- 5y ago
Trust me, I’m the same exact way. I think about some of my old obsessions and it’s like, what cares? But I think that’s just the nature of both hindsight and OCD. Things seem terrible when you’re going through them, you know? Idk if it’s just me, but I sometimes think I’d prefer my old obsessions but then I have to step back and remind myself that I was certainly not saying that when I was going through them.
What frustrates me the most is I was finally in a pretty positive space. I’m finishing up my Real estate license and was even looking for part time jobs to do so I could make extra money. My OCD has totally knocked my confidence in myself and makes me question if I’m even capable of it. I know that I could be but sometimes my thoughts are overwhelming.
Yeah I get that but it's just the nature of it, thinking to the past. You'll prob look back in a year and think I wasnt that bad then. It always seems the worst ever when you're in it
Yea I'm the same.. I've been dealing with a problem that I truly believed that others where judging me on. Now I'm on to something else which is like my biggest fear. And having these thoughts I always try to find answers, which I never get from people closest to me. It's just non stop negative thinking. I was put on gerax to calm me down. But I do have alot of paranoia around people which is even harder. I hope some counselling will get me true the storm that is intrusive thinking..
I do the same thing Hannie!
Thank you all for responding?
I’m so sorry you guys have to go through this as well. OCD is such a bully. It’s hard when you’re going through an obsession to recognize it as just that. You’re brain wants to make it a big deal and wants you to find answers when in reality there isn’t any. I always think that I wish I could go back to an obsession that wasn’t as bad, just so I could maybe have a better chance and stoping it so it wouldn’t of gotten far out of hand. I can’t live like that though. OCD will try and trick you and when it realizes you’re no longer scared of one thing it gives you something even scarier to think about. It really is a hard disorder to live with. You guys are all so strong and amazing and deserve nothing but happiness! Sending you guys nothing but positive thoughts. We can kick OCD’s ass???
Existential/philosophical obsessions? Anyone dealt with this before? I literally feel like I’m getting better with it and boom I get triggered by something I read unintentionally on the internet or talks with others, movies or tv and I feel like I’m back to square one with a new existential obsession that I feel like I need to solve. I just am so frustrated I’m trying to go about this in the right way I’m trying but I just don’t know how to go about it right. My ocd has taken many forms and everytime it’s one I wish for the other it’s so wierd. Like right now I rather be dealing with my health obsessions then this. But if it’s not one it’s the others it’s like I’m addicted to ocd and juggle obsessions. I just want peace but idk what to do. Does anyone else feel like they conquer one obsession and a new one pops up? I feel like I constantly am in a loop I look at old notebooks and realize I’ve been jumping around the same obsessions for over 3 years. Insanity. I would love to hear what has helped you guys and what I you think I should do?
I need an answer to this please: does your ocd change? I have obsessive thoughts over something for months (sometimes years) then it changes to something else & the other thing doesn’t bother me anymore. For example, I used to have relationship OCD for years and years (probably 5 years) I’m still with the person but now I have a different ocd completely, I’m scared that I have no real close friends which I kind of don’t but everything reminds me of it and I have triggers and everything :( I hate myself, I’m also pregnant atm and it’s made me so much worse
It’s so crazy how even though you have been through this a million times, when a new thought pops up or an old obsession resurfaces, it feels impossible to get through. You know the tools and you recognize the feelings, and yet somehow “this one” is different. It’s more serious, more disturbing, it’s a sign of your true desires, etc, etc. Taking the risk of uncertainty is not worth it “this time”because the consequences are too severe. Every time you start to make progress on an obsession or even just part of an obsession, you think you are finally getting the hang of it…and then ocd hits you back and it’s like all the confidence and progress you were starting to feel like you were developing gets blown away and in that moment you are back at the beginning. Ocd is truly diabolical and so smart. It causes so much suffering. I am so tired of making progress or even just maintaining my current obsessions just to get smacked in the face with something “different” and somehow “worse”. It is exhausting. One thing I never considered I would need to fight ocd and use erp was stamina. I really hope everyone out there struggling with ocd is doing ok. If you have ever felt like this, just know that I am in that same place.
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