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I’ve struggled a lot with this same thing. Having this feeling that if I’m not perfect I will be punished somehow. But I don’t believe God wants us to be miserable. We are His children and he loves us and wants us to be happy. He knows we can’t be perfect and I don’t think that’s the point anyway. We are here to learn and grow and lots of these trials are given to us so we can become better more empathetic humans. I was listening to another program today where they were talking about ‘divine neglect’. It’s the concept that you can’t possibly do everything you ‘should’ do every day so you do your best and let God make up the rest. He loves us and wants us to be at peace and will help. Hope this helps in some way!
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It’s like reading my own story! The things you mentioned, I happened to think about that before. What helped me was my therapist said that don’t beat myself so hard about it. That God is everywhere, I can feel Him even in small things like appreciating the air I am breathing, looking at the nature etc. And I kinda exposed myself to the intrusive thoughts. Like if I feel guilty that I wasn’t able to do daily devotion, I will just let it be like that and say to myself that’s it’s okay. Before if I miss it, I will pray so hard and ask forgiveness to God. Don’t get me wrong, I still have Religious OCD, just shifted to different topic right now, my anxiety and guilty are so bad this past few days. I am resisting to do compulsions of searching Google and bible and ruminating. I am hoping it get better soon and that I am doing the right thing.
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- 3y ago
I can relate but unfortunately I have no solution
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- 3y ago
Hi there! Thank you so much for sharing on here. I’ve definitely experienced this even though I don’t think it was OCD related. I always felt like I wasn’t doing enough in my relationship with Christ. Have you brought this up with your therapist? You can do some exposures around this obsession. It will be distressing at first, but it will be very helpful to decrease your distress overtime. You could come up with some uncertainty statements such as, “I may or may not be doing enough in my relationship with Jesus.” Sitting with that uncertainty until your distressed lessons by 50% will be very helpful in the long run. I’m so sorry you’re experiencing such distress, but remember that you are stronger than OCD!
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- 3y ago
I think it’s really important to understand what God “actually” expects of us. Set some time aside to learn about that in the scriptures or from trusted religious leaders. Im a member of The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints so I do have a bias towards it’s principles. The scriptures say “feast upon Christ’s word”. Idk about you, but I feast maybe a max of 30min before I am too full to eat more. I believe god expects me to study his word, but has never specifically said for how long or how much. So for me, I feel 30min each day is sufficient. Set a realistic time goal, stick with it, and don’t do more out of compulsion.
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- 16w ago
Lately my OCD has been very horrible, it’s been more convincing than ever to the point where I’m genuinely convinced that I like this stuff, when I get a thought, I’ll hear my intrusive thoughts go “oooh, I like that, I’d do that.” and I just don’t freak out nor feel bad, I just feel like I like it even more, and feel like I would do/act on it and like it, and the feeling is strong and it lingers forever? It genuinely feels like I do, and I’m just lying now, i can’t tell if I make these thoughts worse or anything All I remember mostly just being like confused sometimes when these thoughts happen, but since I’m getting strong emotions that I like it, my brain says that means I did and I’m worried about that being true because I don’t understand nor know It’s like I am resisting to like this stuff now, it’s even tougher now than it was before
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Hi, I’m new here!! I’m praying I don’t get judged for this. But, back in late May of 2022 ( literally right before I graduated high school), I added this one random girl from my school on Snapchat. She posted something about a graduation party , so I swiped up on her story basically saying how I can’t believe we’re almost graduated. She replied and we had a really short and simple conversation. The next day ( i believe) , we started talking a lot , and I just so happened to see her at the highschool when we were grabbing our graduation outfits and doing the rehearsal. When I saw her irl, I kinda got turned off ( I heard she was kinda crazy) , and on top of that , she was a little ugly irl. I remember seeing her Snapchat bio , and she was close friends with my female cousin ( a year younger than me) , who I happened to experiment sexually with when I was 10-11 years old. I remember going to work later that day and having sort of a lightbulb flick thought ( it wasn’t a good thought though) , what if my cousin told her about what happened when we were younger? So I started to kind of panic and immediately distanced myself from that girl. I also experimented sexually with one of my female friends when I was 10-11 , and from that day onwards, I’ve been pretty much living in paranoia and a little bit of guilt about someone finding out and my life being ruined . On top of that, It’s gotten worse to now sometimes I wonder if a girl I added off of quick add ( Snapchat) is underage even if they told me they were 18+ or had 18 and above in their bio, and I get so much guilt and anxiety about that. I even had a quick thought last February on what if I did something inappropriate with my younger cousin when I was 15-16 but I just can’t exactly remember when it happened , and it still eats me alive when I think about it, because I don’t know if it happened or not. I’m sorry for the long vent, I just wish I felt normal again. No matter how much I try to do things that old me used to do, life always feels “ off”. I always kept the top part about when I was younger a secret up until early (ish ) 2024, then I vented to one of my best friends and he told me that that’s a normal thing to do at a young age. Since then, I have told multiple friends and they all say they did similar stuff, but my brain just can’t accept that. Please help me, I quite literally overthink everything nowadays. 2021 was the last full year that I felt normal ( coincidentally, the best year of my life so far) . It’s not just about sexual related things either, sometimes I’ll wonder if I messed up something at work or hit a car while driving/hit someone and drove off. I just wanna live my life how I was supposed to live it after highschool ( carefree and happy) before whatever it is ( I think it’s ocd) hit me unexpectedly. Thanks to anyone who read this , I just needed to pour it out regardless of how negative I felt typing this, I hope someone can relate , because I feel so alone in my head at times.
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- 29d ago
TW religious ocd OCD is turning innapropriate desires into prayers. Essentially the best way I can describe it is everyone has innapropriate desires sometimes. One example is if I’m suicidal, I wouldn’t mind if a meteor hit while I was asleep. Obviously that affects other people too, but if it’s not my fault, selfishly I want it. Well, it essentially turns that “I want this” thought into me thinking towards god “this would be nice if it happens.” Especially if it wasn’t my fault at all, I wouldn’t mind. My brain can VERY easily turn that into a prayer. All I have to do is direct it for a second towards god, and boom, technically it’s a prayer. Has anyone else had this? It really seems like ocd, even if it is VERY technically a prayer. It doesn’t seem like a normal, thought out prayer
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