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I’ve struggled a lot with this same thing. Having this feeling that if I’m not perfect I will be punished somehow. But I don’t believe God wants us to be miserable. We are His children and he loves us and wants us to be happy. He knows we can’t be perfect and I don’t think that’s the point anyway. We are here to learn and grow and lots of these trials are given to us so we can become better more empathetic humans. I was listening to another program today where they were talking about ‘divine neglect’. It’s the concept that you can’t possibly do everything you ‘should’ do every day so you do your best and let God make up the rest. He loves us and wants us to be at peace and will help. Hope this helps in some way!

It’s like reading my own story! The things you mentioned, I happened to think about that before. What helped me was my therapist said that don’t beat myself so hard about it. That God is everywhere, I can feel Him even in small things like appreciating the air I am breathing, looking at the nature etc. And I kinda exposed myself to the intrusive thoughts. Like if I feel guilty that I wasn’t able to do daily devotion, I will just let it be like that and say to myself that’s it’s okay. Before if I miss it, I will pray so hard and ask forgiveness to God. Don’t get me wrong, I still have Religious OCD, just shifted to different topic right now, my anxiety and guilty are so bad this past few days. I am resisting to do compulsions of searching Google and bible and ruminating. I am hoping it get better soon and that I am doing the right thing.

I can relate but unfortunately I have no solution

Hi there! Thank you so much for sharing on here. I’ve definitely experienced this even though I don’t think it was OCD related. I always felt like I wasn’t doing enough in my relationship with Christ. Have you brought this up with your therapist? You can do some exposures around this obsession. It will be distressing at first, but it will be very helpful to decrease your distress overtime. You could come up with some uncertainty statements such as, “I may or may not be doing enough in my relationship with Jesus.” Sitting with that uncertainty until your distressed lessons by 50% will be very helpful in the long run. I’m so sorry you’re experiencing such distress, but remember that you are stronger than OCD!

I think it’s really important to understand what God “actually” expects of us. Set some time aside to learn about that in the scriptures or from trusted religious leaders. Im a member of The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints so I do have a bias towards it’s principles. The scriptures say “feast upon Christ’s word”. Idk about you, but I feast maybe a max of 30min before I am too full to eat more. I believe god expects me to study his word, but has never specifically said for how long or how much. So for me, I feel 30min each day is sufficient. Set a realistic time goal, stick with it, and don’t do more out of compulsion.