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- Brooklyn33
- Date posted
- 5y ago
I think i am just going to stick to the mood Smith course for now. I am scared to death to tell anyone I actually know, it’s kind of embarrassing for me because it feels like I am coming out as gay (which I am not)
I think I am going to tell my pensé about ocd, they already know I suffer form anxiety just not ocd. I think that I am not going to tell them about hocd until I feel ready, until it’s really gotten out of hand.
That’s why I always talk to my mom when I’m anxious or having ocd. But I never really tell her it’s hocd, I just feel like I am not ready yet. I probably will be later but right now I cant
I wish I could go to therapist. There are no ocd specialists in my country. So glad you are doing better tho!
And I hope you'll find someone too... did you try skype sessions? Some therapist have that options and it's really cool. Im from Spain and I can't help you but maybe someone know about it! ♡
I understand. For me I told to my best friends and my mother but without much detail. You need to trust the one is going to help you get better :) dont worry
@idont241 I feel the same way. My mom knows I have OCD, but I hate to talk about it with her. She doesn't know it's Hocd, and even hiding this from her trigger me sometimes, specially when she asks me if I'm feeling better. My mind keeps telling me that I'm in denial and closeted. It's the worst feeling ever. I don't want any of this, it's terrible. Today, though, one person here quoted Paulo Coelho and I've been feeling so much better: "...no heart has ever suffered when it goes in search of its dreams..." I hope that helps, at least a little bit!
You need someone to talk about this. And make it normal. So it doesn't bother you in this extent. This is really important to heal
Look. There is going to be people that is not going to understand how we feel. Because you can only understand this when you got it and know what this hell means. BUT, there are a lot people out there who love you above everything and even if they can't understand pretty well what ocd is about, or why this is happening to you, they are going to see or know that you are really suffering, feeling miserable. And with no doubt they'll help you. People who love you will keep loving you no matter what :)
Thats okay. Take all the time you need
Ugh, I went to my therapist today and she said in the last minutes of the session: No, but who knows. Some people with forty years or something discover their sexuality is other. We are here to stop make you obsessing and worrying. The theme is not important, so who knows. And it's like "thaaaaank you", know Im afraid for all the week with this in my head. What a bad way of portraying it, seriously. I know it is true and that is okay, and I know who I feel about it but these thought only make my rumination go wild. In some way is important to choose your words. She is great and all but sometimes I CAN'T.
HOCD people. I am doing more exposure therapy. Its been over a decade and only now am I really dealing with this in a meaningful way. I actually went to a massage center and they only had a male masseuse available. I usually would say no. I was able to get through the whole thing with almost no discomfort. I would have been a wreck before. I'm really happy for you others who share your story. I always doubted if I really had OCD or not, and having a community makes it so much easier. Thank you guys for making treatment possible
Don’t know if this is a part of ocd recovery or what but my hocd thoughts don’t give me anxiety anymore. Sometimes it feels like this tapped into my feelings. I don’t know how to explain it. Like when I get the thoughts now my mind is like “you’ve always been like that” but I feel no anxiety. I’m also regaining some attraction for the opposite sex and that feels great but at the same time my mind says I’m lying to myself and I get this weird feeling in my chest. Idk what this is.
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