I went to my therapist last monday and... wow I feel so good these last days. The more I talk with her about hocd, the best I feel. And the less Im thinking about this. I mean. Is still there, but it doesn't disturb me like before. I don't need to make a compulsion about it. And sometimes I have relapses and I'm going to have them in the future too because Im not perfect, but I really feel less anxiety than before. Im starting to feel like before, like who I am. Like the world is not ending and even if I am angry or frustrated sometimes because I have doubts or I don't know what is going to happen... you know, I'll be okay.

I think i am just going to stick to the mood Smith course for now. I am scared to death to tell anyone I actually know, it’s kind of embarrassing for me because it feels like I am coming out as gay (which I am not)

I think I am going to tell my pensé about ocd, they already know I suffer form anxiety just not ocd. I think that I am not going to tell them about hocd until I feel ready, until it’s really gotten out of hand.

That’s why I always talk to my mom when I’m anxious or having ocd. But I never really tell her it’s hocd, I just feel like I am not ready yet. I probably will be later but right now I cant

I wish I could go to therapist. There are no ocd specialists in my country. So glad you are doing better tho!

And I hope you'll find someone too... did you try skype sessions? Some therapist have that options and it's really cool. Im from Spain and I can't help you but maybe someone know about it! ♡

I understand. For me I told to my best friends and my mother but without much detail. You need to trust the one is going to help you get better :) dont worry

@idont241 I feel the same way. My mom knows I have OCD, but I hate to talk about it with her. She doesn't know it's Hocd, and even hiding this from her trigger me sometimes, specially when she asks me if I'm feeling better. My mind keeps telling me that I'm in denial and closeted. It's the worst feeling ever. I don't want any of this, it's terrible. Today, though, one person here quoted Paulo Coelho and I've been feeling so much better: "...no heart has ever suffered when it goes in search of its dreams..." I hope that helps, at least a little bit!

You need someone to talk about this. And make it normal. So it doesn't bother you in this extent. This is really important to heal

Look. There is going to be people that is not going to understand how we feel. Because you can only understand this when you got it and know what this hell means. BUT, there are a lot people out there who love you above everything and even if they can't understand pretty well what ocd is about, or why this is happening to you, they are going to see or know that you are really suffering, feeling miserable. And with no doubt they'll help you. People who love you will keep loving you no matter what :)

Thats okay. Take all the time you need