And it's okay! Your life would not be better; it would be just easier!!! I have a bf, and sometimes is really hard with thoose rocd doubts. I am sure that without him I wouldn't have any, but I don't want to stay alone forever!!
I realized my rocd existed when I got together with my boyfriend, but I can't get through this ocd without him!!!! He helps me through every episode of ocd I get, and is always there for me! I get scary thoughts of randomly leaving him for no reason but I never listen to those cause they aren't true and I love him so much and won't ever let dumb thoughts ruin my life that much more.