I am at the worst situation. My Rocd is back worse than ever. I had a period I fwlt slightly better and now it is like a monster back. I have benn having serious Rocd episodes all week long, I cry, yell, scream and live the thoughts like they are all true. Every thought leads to compulsions over and over again. I am waiting my period and spend time alone at home with baby so I feel.extra worried and lonely. I feel really negative insider me, like something has to be happening against me, like I am really lied betrayed. Any support would be helpful as I feel helpless, tortured and like the most miserable person. My husband tries to understand but he gets irritated for acusing him and yelling so he can just be there for me. Pleasee heeelp!!!!

Although I do want to say that this can be fixed and cured. There is hope, my bf has a dinner tomorrow with women from his work and normally i’d feel really triggered and worried but I feel really calm and like I can trust him. I will feel the urge to do my nosy and check but I don’t think i’m goinf to be as bothered as I was before cos I’m not that bothered about losing him. Healing always ALWAYS starts with you. You have to stop focusing on him because part of what makes ocd thrive and live on is focuing all your attention on him. Ocd loves to do this. It doesn’t wanna see you heal, I just wants to grow stronger and what’s the besr way to do that? By making u worry and think about him. If you stop for a moment, take a deep deep breath and notice your body. Come back to the present moment, you’ll realise you are safe. Remember that anxiety makes us stuck in the future. You are in the here and now. Nothing is happening. You are okay. It is safe.

I am so sorry you’re going through this. I’ve been struggling with my rocd a lot lately too. It’s so frustrating how stressing about it causes the relationship more stress and then the cycle continues

Sometimes ovulation makes mines ever worse, more so than the period

Thank you for your response! Yes I always tell myself don't worry, do your business and let him be himself without worrying. There are days when I manage it and do good enough and other days thoughts just come back and attack me. Maybe at the time i get these thoughts is when I feel more lonely or sad so Rocd finds the ground to appear. I don't want to keep on being like this as i am waisting my life and self esteem. I don't want to care about what he does but what I do and how I spend happily my Life. This is my true self not worry and anxiety. Thank you!