I am at the worst situation. My Rocd is back worse than ever. I had a period I fwlt slightly better and now it is like a monster back. I have benn having serious Rocd episodes all week long, I cry, yell, scream and live the thoughts like they are all true. Every thought leads to compulsions over and over again. I am waiting my period and spend time alone at home with baby so I feel.extra worried and lonely. I feel really negative insider me, like something has to be happening against me, like I am really lied betrayed. Any support would be helpful as I feel helpless, tortured and like the most miserable person. My husband tries to understand but he gets irritated for acusing him and yelling so he can just be there for me. Pleasee heeelp!!!!

Why does Rocd have to push me so hard?? Why do i have to be afraid all the time that i will be abandoned or betrayed??? My mind is creating scenarios over and over again so i ask.for reassurance from my husband even for the smallest details...its a torture because i feel anxious, doubtful and guilty as I don't show trust and feel like a sick person...i want it to leave me at last, it's like living with your enemy inside your head every single second...help guyyyys!!!

Today I tried to resist compulsions and stay as calm as I can but then Rocd attacked me again in a massive way. I kind of feel like my mind is foggy and messed up.most of the time so get triggered seems easy. Every little thing I hear and seems suspicious I will overanalyze it for hours because I am so afraid of being betrayed, dumped or someone do something bad behind my back. These thoughts have stuck inside my mind in such a level where my days are spent like that. When I get an intrusive thought it feels so catastrophic and horrible that I feel I can't do anything. I am stuck there thinking and analysing. It is so difficult to handle it, I feel so scared and alone in this...

I suffer from severe Rocd and recently try harder to do new things for my improvement such as study a course, go to the gym, get out more. The first few days I felt really good, having mild rocd symptoms but being in a good general state. I felt proud and hopeful. As the days went by, Rocd started coming back with horrible thoughts bombarding me in many different ways. I started doubting again, questioning my relationship with my husband, feeling scared and terrible. Yesterday it escalated with me having a serious Rocd episode crying, screaming and feeling it will never end. It felt like I started from zero again. It's like Rocd wants me back where I was, like being happy is bad and my destiny is to feel numb and scared...why does it come back so bad after a seemingly beautiful period??? I hate going back there , living the nightmare again and again...i felt so hopeless and alone experiencing Rocd all over again...any advice guys for this situation????