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Although I do want to say that this can be fixed and cured. There is hope, my bf has a dinner tomorrow with women from his work and normally i’d feel really triggered and worried but I feel really calm and like I can trust him. I will feel the urge to do my nosy and check but I don’t think i’m goinf to be as bothered as I was before cos I’m not that bothered about losing him. Healing always ALWAYS starts with you. You have to stop focusing on him because part of what makes ocd thrive and live on is focuing all your attention on him. Ocd loves to do this. It doesn’t wanna see you heal, I just wants to grow stronger and what’s the besr way to do that? By making u worry and think about him. If you stop for a moment, take a deep deep breath and notice your body. Come back to the present moment, you’ll realise you are safe. Remember that anxiety makes us stuck in the future. You are in the here and now. Nothing is happening. You are okay. It is safe.
I am so sorry you’re going through this. I’ve been struggling with my rocd a lot lately too. It’s so frustrating how stressing about it causes the relationship more stress and then the cycle continues
Sometimes ovulation makes mines ever worse, more so than the period
Thank you for your response! Yes I always tell myself don't worry, do your business and let him be himself without worrying. There are days when I manage it and do good enough and other days thoughts just come back and attack me. Maybe at the time i get these thoughts is when I feel more lonely or sad so Rocd finds the ground to appear. I don't want to keep on being like this as i am waisting my life and self esteem. I don't want to care about what he does but what I do and how I spend happily my Life. This is my true self not worry and anxiety. Thank you!
Why does Rocd have to push me so hard?? Why do i have to be afraid all the time that i will be abandoned or betrayed??? My mind is creating scenarios over and over again so i ask.for reassurance from my husband even for the smallest details...its a torture because i feel anxious, doubtful and guilty as I don't show trust and feel like a sick person...i want it to leave me at last, it's like living with your enemy inside your head every single second...help guyyyys!!!
Today I tried to resist compulsions and stay as calm as I can but then Rocd attacked me again in a massive way. I kind of feel like my mind is foggy and messed up.most of the time so get triggered seems easy. Every little thing I hear and seems suspicious I will overanalyze it for hours because I am so afraid of being betrayed, dumped or someone do something bad behind my back. These thoughts have stuck inside my mind in such a level where my days are spent like that. When I get an intrusive thought it feels so catastrophic and horrible that I feel I can't do anything. I am stuck there thinking and analysing. It is so difficult to handle it, I feel so scared and alone in this...
I suffer from severe Rocd and recently try harder to do new things for my improvement such as study a course, go to the gym, get out more. The first few days I felt really good, having mild rocd symptoms but being in a good general state. I felt proud and hopeful. As the days went by, Rocd started coming back with horrible thoughts bombarding me in many different ways. I started doubting again, questioning my relationship with my husband, feeling scared and terrible. Yesterday it escalated with me having a serious Rocd episode crying, screaming and feeling it will never end. It felt like I started from zero again. It's like Rocd wants me back where I was, like being happy is bad and my destiny is to feel numb and scared...why does it come back so bad after a seemingly beautiful period??? I hate going back there , living the nightmare again and again...i felt so hopeless and alone experiencing Rocd all over again...any advice guys for this situation????
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