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- 3y ago
- Date posted
- 3y ago
It took me about a year of therapy to be diagnosed with ocd. I’ve been dealing with ocd for as long as I can remember but I never wanted to label it in fear of discounting others experiences if I was wrong. It was in college that I started noticing some common compulsions associated width ocd but most of my ocd is not stereotypical ocd like many of us so I discounted my suspicions. I was diagnosed officially about three months ago. I’ve just started my journey but I’m thankful for my diagnosis to help understand myself better.
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- NOCD Alumni
- Date posted
- 3y ago
My OCD started in my early 20's, right after I had remembered sexual abuse I had blocked out from childhood, I had moved out of my parents house and was married and had a baby and my husband was not coming home for days, leaving us with out food and trasportation, etc.. So, looking back now I see that my themes were based around checking the house and contamination of food. I lived with this for many years and thought it was normal behavior and had no clue that others didn't feel the same. I was watching tv and there was a show called Obsessed and watching the behaviors of the people that is how I realized I had OCD. Good luck to you all in your journey!
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- 3y ago
I had to figure it out on my own, I was too scared to tell my therapists the extent of my thoughts because I didn't want them to tell me I had schizophrenia. So they just thought I had severe anxiety. Constant Google searches and listening to stories led me to OCD, which I had confirmed with an actual OCD therapist. It was comforting to know I wasn't losing my mind, but it's still hard.
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- 3y ago
Thanks for sharing your stories. Hopefully they can help others.
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- 21w ago
So I've had OCD since I was a child. Like really young. The first intrusive thought I can remember was when I was 5. It just keeps getting worse and lately they've been making me physically ill or throwing me into extreme panic attacks again ( ones where I can't move my body ) the other night I thought God was trying to kill me because I was thinking about ending myself from OCD+ life issues but in reality I was just having a panic attack😭😭it affects me daily. It gets a little better with therapy but I don't see therapy coming into my life any time soon and I'm not even sure if I would want to go (for multiple reasons). To wrap this up if you have severe ocd can you tell me what it's like?? I don't want to label anything without proper research and hearing others perspectives. Thank you!! <3 (My profile says all of my subtypes if that helps any)
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- 17w ago
Hi I kept seeing this app on repeat on TikTok over and over and I thought I give it a shot. I have never been diagnosed with OCD but I know that I have it. I’m a young adult and I found out the first time I had OCD was watching lelelons truth video? I was 14 at the time She had to resist sitting back down in a chair after her having sat down she started having a mental break down when she was told to resist. That’s when I knew. It started with myself going up and down a staircase twice buckling unbuckling my seat belt everytime I’m in the car ect I have always been super anti social but trying my best I can socialize but my mind wants to make it sexual with family and friends ughhhh I hate it because that’s not me when I graduated thoughts of hurting my loved ones corrupted my mind I broke down outside of church one time asking if this was really me or not i question if I’m a good enough friend or person in this world to begin with thinking everyone is judging me so so close how can I make this situation better did I do something wrong I struggle with depression as well not to bad but it’s there I come from a loving family but broken as well i believe in god and my OCD makes me go often he’s not real that stuff isn’t real no one is there to save you the list goes on. Anyway I struggle a lot and I really hope that this will help me because I feel extremely hopeless. Lucky for me I do have the ability to seek therapy and I am excited. The only person I ever tell my thoughts to is God no other human has heard so I’m really really hoping this helps me out if your reading this thank you it means a lot because this is my first time ever admitting all this it’s a lot to take in I know and I hope you are ok and that you have a great night and know that we got this
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- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 15w ago
Looking back, I realize I’ve had OCD since I was 7. though I wasn’t diagnosed until I was 30. As a kid, I was consumed by fears I couldn’t explain: "What if God isn’t real? What happens when we die? How do I know I’m real?" These existential thoughts terrified me, and while everyone has them from time to time, I felt like they were consuming my life. By 12, I was having daily panic attacks about death and war, feeling untethered from reality as depersonalization and derealization set in. At 15, I turned to drinking, spending the next 15 years drunk, trying to escape my mind. I hated myself, struggled with my body, and my intrusive thoughts. Sobriety forced me to face it all head-on. In May 2022, I finally learned I had OCD. I remember the exact date: May 10th. Reading about it, I thought, "Oh my God, this is it. This explains everything." My main themes were existential OCD and self-harm intrusive thoughts. The self-harm fears were the hardest: "What if I kill myself? What if I lose control?" These thoughts terrified me because I didn’t want to die. ERP changed everything. At first, I thought, "You want me to confront my worst fears? Are you kidding me?" But ERP is gradual and done at your pace. My therapist taught me to lean into uncertainty instead of fighting it. She’d say, "Maybe you’ll kill yourself—who knows?" At first, it felt scary, but for OCD, it was freeing. Slowly, I realized my thoughts were just thoughts. ERP gave me my life back. I’m working again, I’m sober, and for the first time, I can imagine a future. If you’re scared to try ERP, I get it. But if you’re already living in fear, why not try a set of tools that can give you hope?
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