William0cd
- Date posted
- 3y ago
Jenna OverbaughJenna Overbaugh
- User type
- Staff
- Date posted
- 3y ago
all of this is super common! first of all, pure o is a really common term that people often use when they think they have no compulsions - but there are always some compulsions present even if it's as subtle as avoidance or a mental compulsion which can be sneaky at times. even from what you've written out, it seems like "when my mind is idle" is a trigger for you. from what you mentioned it seems like this is when you end up scanning and checking for particular worries. i would encourage you to put yourself in more idle time type of activities eg driving or showering and nighttime tend to be harder for people . go into these activities with the intention of being mindful and maybe i do have worries maybe i don't but i'm not going to try to figure them out at this time. also think about any other related scenarios that you avoid or have to ritualize through in order to get through.
William0cdWilliam0cd
- Date posted
- 3y ago
Thank you! This is really helpful, it’s true I avoid moments where I have too much time to think so I’m going to try to be less avoidant. It’s weird I feel like the ERP is helping with the ocd but instead of the ocd I just have this weird nagging feeling, although its definitely better than the ocd loop.
zayjay123zayjay123
- Date posted
- 3y ago
Have you ever monitored your mood / thoughts throughout the day before? Tracking these can help identify triggers. I also thought that I didn’t have triggers until I read back through my log.
William0cdWilliam0cd
- Date posted
- 3y ago
No I haven’t don’t that as I’m just getting started, but I feel like I have these thoughts almost continually for 2 months so there’s absolutely no respite.
zayjay123zayjay123
- Date posted
- 3y ago
@William0cd It can be hard to think of exposures when it comes to themes that don’t have visible compulsions. It seems as if you’ve identified some compulsions already. Existentialism is one of my big themes & part of my exposure is leaving sticky notes of my biggest fears (such as my life being a simulation), and not engaging in ruminating. I definitely recommend doing some mood / thought tracking throughout the day as a good starting point. Are you doing ERP on your own?
William0cdWilliam0cd
- Date posted
- 3y ago
I have my first session this Tuesday with Heidi Vanderlei which I’m excited about, I tried to do erp on my own but I’m not sure I’m doing it correctly - I tried to sit with the thought but the compulsions are so quick in my mind even when you are trying not to do one your brain just gives you a micro reassurance so I’m worried it’s not going to work. How do you track your thoughts, in the app? Sticky notes is a good idea, I could try that!
Orange-Colored_GlassesOrange-Color...
- Date posted
- 3y ago
It’s great that you’re going to work with a therapist! She’ll demystify ERP for you! One thing you might learn in therapy is that you can “spoil” compulsions that come up automatically.
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