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- 5y ago
Thank you, I’m definitely better than I used to be (I used to get really mad and storm out of the room and then compulse; now I can accept that she loves me and I don’t get angry). It’s just a process, I guess. Such a hard process though...
You won't though, gor that must be an awful ocd
You won't gain any bad though don't worry. We tend to think ocd is magic when it isn't. It's a mental illness.
Oh my goodness I have had this form of OCD when I was younger. I would literally carry hand sanitizer around and one time my uncle kissed the top of my head and I ran to the bathroom and just put hand sanitizer all over my head! You’re not alone, but remember that the bad isn’t there, to leave it be. Try your hardest to think, “does this ‘bad’ exist?”... “what does the ‘bad’ even consist of?”... asking in depth questions on what it is that you fear can help come to realizations that they aren’t as bad as you think they are, or even better, they’re don’t even exist. ❤️
That’s a good way to put it, we do see it as magic. Scientifically, her touching me can’t “transfer” her thoughts and being into me, but my brain still irrationally likes to scream at me that it will still happen through some cosmic force haha. This has helped distract me from those thoughts though, thank you ❤️
It's okay. I don't think I've ever had this ocd, I use to have contamination ocd and still have that a bit
You guys are so great, this is really helpful! Thank you :) I like thinking about it logically — that goes against everything that OCD tries to tell me and it feels like a small victory
Ya, I finally learned recently that other people have my similar form of OCD, and it’s called Emotional Contamination OCD. It actually gave me such relief to have a name for the ‘monster‘, and to know that other people have this weird form of it too
That's a big step for what you said... step by step... in my case, since I was a kid, I have to touch 3 times wood if I have a bad though or a bad dream or I say something bad that can happen... it is like I believe in someway I have the superpower of create bad things if I just think about it and in some way wood stop the magic... trying to exposeme to this one is really tricky for me, so I decided to care with me always a piece of wood... it brings me confort and in case I can't resist the compulsion I have it with me... step by step
I’ve tried to tell my grandma how bad I feel, that I’m scared that I am a bad person and she tried to reassure me by telling me "as long as you don’t have thoughts about harming people then it’s okay" but I do have very bad intrusive graphic thoughts/images and since then I’ve been feeling even worse. I don’t know what to do, all I’ve been doing since our call is thinking even more about it, reading every pure o article ever written and feeling very anxious when I don’t have the same symptoms as a diagnosed person. I feel hopeless, my brain is literally trying to kill me. I know I’m not supposed to be reassured but I just needed to get that out because I can’t say anything to my family and friends, and it’s driving me insane. I’m so scared of my own mind.
Okay this is going to sound VERY weird. But please it’s effecting my health and I need ways to stop this compulsion before it gets really bad. Btw I’ve had this compulsion since I was about 8 or 9 years old (I’m 24). Every night I have 2 prayers I repeat for almost 20 mins. One prayer in particular is praying for my health, my puppies health, and my boyfriends health. Before I pray for my health I pray really really really hard by applying pressure to my head and then I continue my little prayer and pray for my lungs, my stomach, breasts, butt, skin, etc while I touch each body part. Then I put pressure to my head and pray for my teeth. Then I put pressure to my head and pray for my eyes. And then I pray really really really hard and put pressure to my head and pray for my puppy and boyfriend. It’s gotten so bad I get a headache by the end of prayer and it’s hell if I keep messing up and have to completely restart my prayer. I do this EVERY night. EVERY night for almost more than a decade and my prayers have only gotten longer and added more compulsions to it. Please please help. It’s getting irritating and I’m dreading every night when I have to pray!!!! 😫😫😫 please don’t judge idk why I do this I just need to to make sure my prayer is the way I need it. I guess I have this compulsion where I feel the need for God to understand this prayer is really important to me so I’m showing him by inflicting pain on myself. Idk I’m weird and have weird habits and compulsions related to OCD. Just please help. 🤦🏻♀️🥲 I also am so embarrassed I haven’t told anyone this my entire life until I was just recently diagnosed with severe OCD, I thought it was normal. I’m embarrassed to do this in front of my boyfriend (I don’t want him watching me in the corner doing my little ritualistic prayer and touching my body like a crazy person)
I’m at the hospital with my niece waiting for my grandma to get a heart test done and while we are waiting my niece was talking and she touched my arm weird and I felt like I got groinal response it happened so weird and I’m scared to death right now I pray to God it wasn’t something else that it was just groinal response but I’m literally freaking out right now. What do I do! I really hope I didn’t do anything wrong or nothing is wrong with me. It was so weird when she touched my arm and shes 12. I love my niece and I would never hurt her or anything but it doesn’t make sense why that happened. I really hope it wasn’t what the ocd is saying happened. I don’t want to be a monster 💔
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