- Date posted
- 6y ago
- Date posted
- 6y ago
Thank you, I’m definitely better than I used to be (I used to get really mad and storm out of the room and then compulse; now I can accept that she loves me and I don’t get angry). It’s just a process, I guess. Such a hard process though...
- Date posted
- 6y ago
You won't though, gor that must be an awful ocd
- Date posted
- 6y ago
You won't gain any bad though don't worry. We tend to think ocd is magic when it isn't. It's a mental illness.
- Date posted
- 6y ago
Oh my goodness I have had this form of OCD when I was younger. I would literally carry hand sanitizer around and one time my uncle kissed the top of my head and I ran to the bathroom and just put hand sanitizer all over my head! You’re not alone, but remember that the bad isn’t there, to leave it be. Try your hardest to think, “does this ‘bad’ exist?”... “what does the ‘bad’ even consist of?”... asking in depth questions on what it is that you fear can help come to realizations that they aren’t as bad as you think they are, or even better, they’re don’t even exist. ❤️
- Date posted
- 6y ago
That’s a good way to put it, we do see it as magic. Scientifically, her touching me can’t “transfer” her thoughts and being into me, but my brain still irrationally likes to scream at me that it will still happen through some cosmic force haha. This has helped distract me from those thoughts though, thank you ❤️
- Date posted
- 6y ago
It's okay. I don't think I've ever had this ocd, I use to have contamination ocd and still have that a bit
- Date posted
- 6y ago
You guys are so great, this is really helpful! Thank you :) I like thinking about it logically — that goes against everything that OCD tries to tell me and it feels like a small victory
- Date posted
- 6y ago
Ya, I finally learned recently that other people have my similar form of OCD, and it’s called Emotional Contamination OCD. It actually gave me such relief to have a name for the ‘monster‘, and to know that other people have this weird form of it too
- Date posted
- 6y ago
That's a big step for what you said... step by step... in my case, since I was a kid, I have to touch 3 times wood if I have a bad though or a bad dream or I say something bad that can happen... it is like I believe in someway I have the superpower of create bad things if I just think about it and in some way wood stop the magic... trying to exposeme to this one is really tricky for me, so I decided to care with me always a piece of wood... it brings me confort and in case I can't resist the compulsion I have it with me... step by step
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- 17w ago
Every time I go to bed late and I’m falling asleep, I suddenly get an intrusive thought of a child’s face and my groinal area always responds to it. It’s such an uncomfortable experience. I am way too tired to try and freak out so I end up falling asleep. The next morning I’m always trying to figure out whether I had the groinal response first or after the thought. I start giving OCD power but it feels like If I let it go, then I’m in denial or whatever. I don’t want to ever do anything sexual with a child. I don’t even feel comfortable talking platonically with people who are 17, much less a child. My therapist says that I have a deep rooted fear that I’m this horrible person and that OCD loves to feed off of it. When you get a groinal response, it makes the thought that much more real. I never want these things to happen. I want to only be into adults. It’s so discomforting and stressful. Especially since I’m hyper checking how anxious I am, and if I find I didn’t really have much anxiety, then I’m like “well if I didn’t have anxiety, what does this mean?” And more questions occur til I end up in a rabbit hole
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- 15w ago
I was sitting down and my child wanted me tl hug her. She extended her arms. I leaned in and hugged her but my pocd freaks out says “dont brush up lr do anything inappropriate. Dont thrust my hips”. I leaned in and hugged her. I had these intrusive thoughts and worries. I hugged her still and i think i did compulsions to avoid these pocd and intrusive thoughts. I moved on and now im habing doubts and false memories on the details. I know as i hugged her i worried about brushing up or hips thrusting and i was anxious and uncomfortable. I known its ocd. I still hugged my child. Despite ocd discomfort. I thought i felt my body react like a hip thrust twitch or maybe its just in my head. I dont want to hip thrust. Thats why my mind was freaking out worrying about it when she asked for anhug. My therapist said my ocd and anxiety and these intrusive thiughts can cause my body to involuntarily react and do those things my ocd is obssessing over like hip thrusting or twitches or groinals down there.
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- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 13w ago
Does anyone imagine they are doing their harm thoughts during an action, making you feel like you acted on your thoughts? For example, someone gave me a hug and at the last second I imagined I was touching something I shouldn’t during the hug? I want to make it clear it’s something I have zero desire to do! But the problem is, I thought it on purpose and it makes me sick !! Obviously nothing happened but my mind is telling me that was me trying to do it. Even though it was physically impossible to do. Am I a monster or could this be OCD? I’m freaking out and don’t want to be here anymore. I feel like I’m the exception and that this isn’t OCD. I know I post about this stuff a lot but I’m struggling and don’t know what to do.
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