My grandmother just patted me on the head, which I realize is a sign of affection, but I HATE when people touch my head. I feel like I will gain all the “bad” from them and that my head will lose intelligence. Now I can’t stop compulsing.

Thank you, I’m definitely better than I used to be (I used to get really mad and storm out of the room and then compulse; now I can accept that she loves me and I don’t get angry). It’s just a process, I guess. Such a hard process though...

You won't though, gor that must be an awful ocd

You won't gain any bad though don't worry. We tend to think ocd is magic when it isn't. It's a mental illness.

Oh my goodness I have had this form of OCD when I was younger. I would literally carry hand sanitizer around and one time my uncle kissed the top of my head and I ran to the bathroom and just put hand sanitizer all over my head! You’re not alone, but remember that the bad isn’t there, to leave it be. Try your hardest to think, “does this ‘bad’ exist?”... “what does the ‘bad’ even consist of?”... asking in depth questions on what it is that you fear can help come to realizations that they aren’t as bad as you think they are, or even better, they’re don’t even exist. ❤️

That’s a good way to put it, we do see it as magic. Scientifically, her touching me can’t “transfer” her thoughts and being into me, but my brain still irrationally likes to scream at me that it will still happen through some cosmic force haha. This has helped distract me from those thoughts though, thank you ❤️

It's okay. I don't think I've ever had this ocd, I use to have contamination ocd and still have that a bit

You guys are so great, this is really helpful! Thank you :) I like thinking about it logically — that goes against everything that OCD tries to tell me and it feels like a small victory

Ya, I finally learned recently that other people have my similar form of OCD, and it’s called Emotional Contamination OCD. It actually gave me such relief to have a name for the ‘monster‘, and to know that other people have this weird form of it too

That's a big step for what you said... step by step... in my case, since I was a kid, I have to touch 3 times wood if I have a bad though or a bad dream or I say something bad that can happen... it is like I believe in someway I have the superpower of create bad things if I just think about it and in some way wood stop the magic... trying to exposeme to this one is really tricky for me, so I decided to care with me always a piece of wood... it brings me confort and in case I can't resist the compulsion I have it with me... step by step