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- 6y
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Thank you, I’m definitely better than I used to be (I used to get really mad and storm out of the room and then compulse; now I can accept that she loves me and I don’t get angry). It’s just a process, I guess. Such a hard process though...
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- 6y
You won't though, gor that must be an awful ocd
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- 6y
You won't gain any bad though don't worry. We tend to think ocd is magic when it isn't. It's a mental illness.
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- 6y
Oh my goodness I have had this form of OCD when I was younger. I would literally carry hand sanitizer around and one time my uncle kissed the top of my head and I ran to the bathroom and just put hand sanitizer all over my head! You’re not alone, but remember that the bad isn’t there, to leave it be. Try your hardest to think, “does this ‘bad’ exist?”... “what does the ‘bad’ even consist of?”... asking in depth questions on what it is that you fear can help come to realizations that they aren’t as bad as you think they are, or even better, they’re don’t even exist. ❤️
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- 6y
That’s a good way to put it, we do see it as magic. Scientifically, her touching me can’t “transfer” her thoughts and being into me, but my brain still irrationally likes to scream at me that it will still happen through some cosmic force haha. This has helped distract me from those thoughts though, thank you ❤️
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- 6y
It's okay. I don't think I've ever had this ocd, I use to have contamination ocd and still have that a bit
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- 6y
You guys are so great, this is really helpful! Thank you :) I like thinking about it logically — that goes against everything that OCD tries to tell me and it feels like a small victory
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- 6y
Ya, I finally learned recently that other people have my similar form of OCD, and it’s called Emotional Contamination OCD. It actually gave me such relief to have a name for the ‘monster‘, and to know that other people have this weird form of it too
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- 6y
That's a big step for what you said... step by step... in my case, since I was a kid, I have to touch 3 times wood if I have a bad though or a bad dream or I say something bad that can happen... it is like I believe in someway I have the superpower of create bad things if I just think about it and in some way wood stop the magic... trying to exposeme to this one is really tricky for me, so I decided to care with me always a piece of wood... it brings me confort and in case I can't resist the compulsion I have it with me... step by step
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- 23w
Every night when I get home from work, I have this habit of touching the tree at the end of my street. Tonight I had an intrusive thought/ image of myself laughing at someone getting a serious health diagnosis. It caused my anxiety to increase as that’s so unlike me and I work in a hospital so I’m dealing with health problems on the daily and it’s not funny. My brain basically was telling me I had to go and touch all these trees again to rectify the situation or I can no longer buy items I was wanting to buy (had my eye on a few things to get). I just keep going doing I circles, I know it’s not logical but I can’t help it :(
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- 10w
Wait. Is this a compulsion? Like I didn't realize compulsions can be something like this? Not looking for reassurance but just wondering if that sounds accurate? Thanks guys! I know I'll never get the certainty I want, but I want to feel safe to be around my nephew again. I was holding my nephew, he's a newborn, and he was getting hungry so he started squirming around and grazed my chest (yes I was fully clothed). Of course, that caused very intense groinals.. It didn't feel bad in the moment but just anxious, and without thinking, I was holding his head still right there and I was moving it closer in that spot (at least felt that way) to make the feeling continue I guess. It was such an anxious all over my body feeling. I was so anxious and triggered by that feeling. It's like my groinals were so intense I automatically leaned into them without thinking a second thought? So I ended up having another groinal. After that I put the baby down and realized what had happened then panicked so much.
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- 6w
hi yall im new here but not new to ocd. for as long as i remember ive had tendencies and ive had compulsions. when i was like 6 i remember counting my steps and that started this life long thing. i get looks in public because ive been touching each side of my face for the past 10 minutes because it “didn’t feel right”. about every one in my life knows i have severe ocd and that’s fine but my grandmother told my mom behind my back one night that i was ‘manipulating’ her and that my ocd could be fake. this is because i can’t take the trash out of the track can because i can’t risk getting sick from old food, i cant use cleaning products on my hands to clean them. i have no probably taking the trash out it’s just removing it from the bin. i can’t do the dishes because its not clean and ill have an anxiety attack because its just simply too overwhelming for my ocd. those aren’t the only things but the list is just too long to write out. but we don’t live with my grandmother anymore. when we did my ocd wasn’t as progressed as it is now and i was able to hide most of my compulsions and “rituals” (what i call them) in private, therefore she doesn’t see how much it can affect my every move. this happened a while ago but i keep thinking about it and i get in my head. when im really struggling it’s hard to not convince myself that i’ve been lying to myself and so many others for 18 years. all my compulsions and intrusive thoughts and the goddamn hallucinations i’ve had from ocd are in fact real but how can my own grandmother call me manipulative like i don’t get it truthfully. i cannot imagine a situation in which someone would go through the trouble of washing their hands 4 times, of blinking 16 times before shutting their phone off. rewriting a whole text to their boyfriend because i misspelt a word and so now the whole text is wrong or any other of these things i and SO MANY people who have ocd or ocd tendencies would go through the trouble because it is SO paralyzing. clearly i’m not going to explain myself to her because i don’t have that energy esspecially if she is going to ‘mhm’ me and then go again behind my back and tell my mom (who fully understands and has tendencies herself and knows i don’t make this stuff up) that im a manipulator.
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