- Username
- Anonymous
- Date posted
- 2y ago
OCD is suffocating
I feel like I don’t know how to deal with OCD anymore and I feel like I am burned out. Anyone else feeling like this? It is just defeating. Any ways to combat these feelings?
I feel like I don’t know how to deal with OCD anymore and I feel like I am burned out. Anyone else feeling like this? It is just defeating. Any ways to combat these feelings?
I get the burned out feeling. My relationship with my parents right now is really bad, and today I told my mom it was because it feels like I am so emotionally depleted from my OCD it feels like I have no energy to put towards anything but surviving through each day
Yeah, I get that. Depleting is the perfect word for it. It is just depleting.
Yeah. I don't know your age or life situation, but I think there is a point where if you have someone in your life that you have a committed relationship with, it can help to have support, or someone encouraging you to do the things that you don't want to do.
Hi Anonymous, I know how you feel. I’ve been there many times over the years, some days and weeks are much worse than others, especially if there are outside stressors involved and some days I will feel completely drained and emotionally numb to everything. Sometimes I can keep my compulsions much better in check than other days, and sometimes I feel like if I just give into them maybe I can have some relief for even a bit…..but then I have to remind myself that I don’t wasn’t to go back to how I was when I would be almost paralyzed to do things I wanted to because my mind and my day was full of constant rumination and compulsions which fed the anxiety which fed the depression which fed the OCD… Try to focus on any and all the progress you have made up until this point and try to think about how much you will continue to make and what you will be able to do when you are able to have more of your mind and your life back to do what you choose to do, not what OCD wants you to NOT do or avoid. Whenever I get worn down I try to think about how my recovery is helping my kids to realize that there is help if they have or should ever develop my OCD (or one of the other that I have or run in my family). I try to focus on how not giving into my OCD Bully allows me to spend more time and more meaningful time with my loved ones and my friends and my puppy and my car and my coffee and that by NOT giving into the apathy and depression that my OCD Bully wants me to I am taking some of my life back from the Bully after it stole ~4 decades of mine from me. Try to think of anything positive that not giving into your OCD has or will bring you and hopefully that will help. Stay strong.
i think what helps me sometimes is to remember that recovery has peaks and valleys. there are some days where OCD can be super exhausting and i feel super defeated. what helped me get by it, is the reminder to take my OCD a day at a time. maybe tomorrow it'll be exhausting, but the possibility is that the following day it might not be. my bad OCD days were not so far off from my good days! sometimes i would even catch myself and think, "oh i haven't had any triggering thoughts today" and then a few days later it would come back. you're not alone, and be gentle with yourself on your harder days! you cannot make your OCD into perfection.
It’s so crazy how even though you have been through this a million times, when a new thought pops up or an old obsession resurfaces, it feels impossible to get through. You know the tools and you recognize the feelings, and yet somehow “this one” is different. It’s more serious, more disturbing, it’s a sign of your true desires, etc, etc. Taking the risk of uncertainty is not worth it “this time”because the consequences are too severe. Every time you start to make progress on an obsession or even just part of an obsession, you think you are finally getting the hang of it…and then ocd hits you back and it’s like all the confidence and progress you were starting to feel like you were developing gets blown away and in that moment you are back at the beginning. Ocd is truly diabolical and so smart. It causes so much suffering. I am so tired of making progress or even just maintaining my current obsessions just to get smacked in the face with something “different” and somehow “worse”. It is exhausting. One thing I never considered I would need to fight ocd and use erp was stamina. I really hope everyone out there struggling with ocd is doing ok. If you have ever felt like this, just know that I am in that same place.
When you just don’t know anymore. Is it OCD, is it me. Is it ocd because I’m questioning it? Can someone help me. I’m having a tough time with suicidal OCD and keep thinking that this is with me forever and it’s not going to get better. My ROCD has also started to kick in 😢 I feel like I can’t enjoy myself because these thoughts and feeling are just sitting over me
This is a little new for me. Each time I figure out or find peace with the OCD to the point where it’s practically nonexistent a flare up happens and suddenly I’m back to feeling “off” and not normal and thinking in my head all day all kind of ocd related thoughts. Endless questions and connections of things that are not at all related. Soo darn annoying. You guys, how do you keep pushing past this!? What tips do you have for this dealing with the feelings after the flare up. The worst part is being able to laugh and smile and just live life again and then just boom feeling soo awful again. Anyone experience feeling off after flare ups??
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