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- 5y ago
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- 5y ago
Guys.. this is all reassurance. You don't have to accept what your intrusive thoughts said, just accept they are intrusive. "I'm this now." This is only another way of seeing how dissapointed you are with the thought. This is only going to hurt you
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- 5y ago
and also, I totally understand. The anxiety aspect of my OCD used to be way worse and now I often feel nothing when they occur, and I was wondering why too. Completely normal, your mind has just gotten used to the feeling.
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- 5y ago
@lann with me, my naturally strong sex drive goes way down during OCD flare ups. All the mental testing, review etc added in with intrusive thoughts is a poor aphrodisiac ?Though sometimes I do appreciate being less attracted to women just for the sake of it not weighing on my interactions with them as not to over or under value people for a superficial thing.
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- 5y ago
I imagine it with the same sex.there is this pain in my chest.sometimes it gives me anxiety.but sometimes it feel like yes i am gay and this is what i wanted.and that all the attraction that i had till now for the opposite sex was fake.sometimes it does feel that i have accepted the truth and am happy with it but it again gives me anxiety.i am reassuring about it all day long. Previously i mean as a girl i felt good if a boy had crush on me but now it will make me feel uncomfortable thinking that this is not who i am.i should not entertain the idea of a boy having a crush on me!
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- 5y ago
Im in the exact same spot. I feel anxiety and displeasure when i think about women, and my brain is still telling me im repressing it. When i think about being sexual with them i just get so anxious and upset i could cry. I feel nothing towards them and when i look at pictures of women i cant even place what id say was attractive at all. My attraction to men comes and goes. Like a wave. For a long time though it was totally gone. I felt so awful. It just doesnt make any sense to me. I know the anxiety and the pre-occupation with the ocd thoughts put attraction into standby, it just sucks when i try and think about men and it just tells me "no you cant do that anymore."
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- 5y ago
Yes its still OCD. Youre self testing without knowing it by trying to see how you feel when you accept what your thoughts are telling you is the truth. This can actually be used as ERP though. Just like straight people enjoy thinking about being with the opposite sex, gay people enjoy thinking about the same sex. Hope this helped:)
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- 8w ago
Sorry long post. Anyone feel like now they’re just in extreme denial. Like when I was little I noticed guys more than girls in movies and was more drawn to them. I remember changing my mindset to switch that. 98%of my life has been straight until recently. I felt drawn to some guys but never thought of it sexually. Always had girl crushes dreams and porn. Now I watch porn and I feel like straight takes longer and then I go and watch gay porn and feel nothing until I tell myself it’s two attractive dudes and love is love and imagine physical sensations and then it hits like suddenly. Like I have to convince myself it’s alright. Then when I try again I can do all that but feel nothing and then straight porn works. Idk if it’s just getting a fix or the first time works with anything or what but it’s confusing. On top of that I’ve felt girl relationships including my wife maybe miss something and a guy maybe matches that feeling that but then I feel like I’d be missing something without a girl or my wife. Idk I’ve had some rough times in life with male figures in my life but idk. I feel like I have to convince myself more and more that I’m straight even more than the first time I dealt with this. Can someone relate? Please
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- 6w ago
I don’t want to look for reassurance but I seriously need help. I got diagnosed with OCD in January of 2024. My first theme was religious OCD. I feared that I would commit the unforgivable sin of blasphemy against the Holy Spirit. Maybe about five months later I walked in to my dad’s room where he was watching a movie, and two girls did some stuff if you know what I mean. Later that day I started to panic that I was that way. At the beginning of my hocd I did many compulsions and a lot of rumination. I had bad anxiety and knew that I did not want a relationship with a woman. I had always known myself to be straight. I’ve liked men since preschool. From having a crushes and celebrity crushes and only wanting and fantasizing about men. But fast forward to now with my hocd, I have no anxiety and I’m feel like I’m in denial. Which I know is common but I believe I truly want and like this. Even though before I would have had a panic attack and said ew. When I think about dating a girl I feel as though it’s normal and I have no anxiety about not having anxiety. I’m a very big Christian and I don’t really want to be this way. I mean if I am I’ll deal with it I guess but I’ve never felt this way before. I used to always watch movies and be like I hope I find a man like that but now i do that with both genders I feel like. I felt numb but now it feels normal and that I truly want and enjoy it and that I’m okay with it. Am I in denial or is it hocd still? Can anyone relate? It just feels so real like it’s not hocd anymore and I feel like I don’t care and I just want to know yk. UGH I don’t know how to explain it.
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- 18d ago
I’ve completely lost myself. I can’t focus on my studies, I can’t go to the gym. Dang it I can’t even be around my male friends normally anymore. I got no idea why or how this happened but the only thing I know for sure is that I never questioned my sexuality neither doubted it. I never cared in general. I just liked girls. I keep testing and keep testing and keep testing my arousal but no matter how many times I see but I don’t feel the same way for guys that I do with girls my mind will always try to make me believe that I am gay. It’s like it’s forcing me into an identity I never asked for. But at the end of the day like my psychologist told me. Sexuality doesn’t change. So since I never felt anything for guys in my life it’s ocd. I’ve been up and down for 5 months now and while the last week I was feeling way better. Monday now and I’m back to zero. I just want to go back when everything was normal. I can’t keep living with this.
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