This feels weird. I feel like I’m gay, and when I “accept” My thoughts I don’t feel good or pleasure, just this weight on my chest. Like my mind says “okay you’re gay see” but when I think of me in gay scenarios I feel no pleasure at all. Yet I lost my attraction to women. My mind still says I’m gay though I feel nothing towards men. But it appears my attraction to women disappeared as well. What is this? Why did I used to have extremely mad anxiety over gay thoughts and now that I finally faced my thoughts I feel nothing as well? Like seriously what is this. I used to be girl crazy like to another level. Now I’m not attracted to women at all apparently but when I “accept” my thoughts and say ok I’m gay, I feel nothing towards men either. Is this still ocd? And why when I do have anxiety with gay thoughts it seems like I AM attracted to men. I don’t understand this. Do any of you have any experience and share some insight?

Guys.. this is all reassurance. You don't have to accept what your intrusive thoughts said, just accept they are intrusive. "I'm this now." This is only another way of seeing how dissapointed you are with the thought. This is only going to hurt you

and also, I totally understand. The anxiety aspect of my OCD used to be way worse and now I often feel nothing when they occur, and I was wondering why too. Completely normal, your mind has just gotten used to the feeling.

@lann with me, my naturally strong sex drive goes way down during OCD flare ups. All the mental testing, review etc added in with intrusive thoughts is a poor aphrodisiac ?Though sometimes I do appreciate being less attracted to women just for the sake of it not weighing on my interactions with them as not to over or under value people for a superficial thing.

I imagine it with the same sex.there is this pain in my chest.sometimes it gives me anxiety.but sometimes it feel like yes i am gay and this is what i wanted.and that all the attraction that i had till now for the opposite sex was fake.sometimes it does feel that i have accepted the truth and am happy with it but it again gives me anxiety.i am reassuring about it all day long. Previously i mean as a girl i felt good if a boy had crush on me but now it will make me feel uncomfortable thinking that this is not who i am.i should not entertain the idea of a boy having a crush on me!

Im in the exact same spot. I feel anxiety and displeasure when i think about women, and my brain is still telling me im repressing it. When i think about being sexual with them i just get so anxious and upset i could cry. I feel nothing towards them and when i look at pictures of women i cant even place what id say was attractive at all. My attraction to men comes and goes. Like a wave. For a long time though it was totally gone. I felt so awful. It just doesnt make any sense to me. I know the anxiety and the pre-occupation with the ocd thoughts put attraction into standby, it just sucks when i try and think about men and it just tells me "no you cant do that anymore."

Yes its still OCD. Youre self testing without knowing it by trying to see how you feel when you accept what your thoughts are telling you is the truth. This can actually be used as ERP though. Just like straight people enjoy thinking about being with the opposite sex, gay people enjoy thinking about the same sex. Hope this helped:)