Ugh, I went to my therapist today and she said in the last minutes of the session: No, but who knows. Some people with forty years or something discover their sexuality is other. We are here to stop make you obsessing and worrying. The theme is not important, so who knows. And it's like "thaaaaank you", know Im afraid for all the week with this in my head. What a bad way of portraying it, seriously. I know it is true and that is okay, and I know who I feel about it but these thought only make my rumination go wild. In some way is important to choose your words. She is great and all but sometimes I CAN'T.

She’s trying to get you to accept the thoughts. It is the uncertainty of this obsession that makes all of us obsess so much. It is the possibility that one could be gay, she cannot tell you what you are. She is just saying you will never truly know, and that is okay. the more you tell your brain “who knows” the less the thoughts have value. Ik that it can be tough and words can be triggers but try to look at this with a new perspective and also inform her that saying things like that can trigger you. And maybe she’ll word them differently. Don’t let it get to your head!!

Maybe what she dood was cracked OCD head on and your OCD is so not used to it. In the beginning when u start cutting out cumpolsion the thoughts fly by so quickly . The more insexure / confused you are now the better. Eventually the brain will get so confused that it will lose track of what's important and what's not and life will just take over. I swear

I'll tell her in the next session. Thank you both ♡ you help me to see it with another perspective.

I feel the same way. Today my therapist told me a story of a man that wasn’t gay but was super attracted to muscles that he started having sex with men. It wasn’t for the men but the muscles. He was a happily married straight man. I wanted to be like why the hell are you telling me this!!!!

I can relate to all of you. I have an appt tomorrow and already worried. Let’s stay strong.

Thanks. Good luck!

One of the cornerstones of OCD is the need to be 100% certain about things. When we can't be, we break down. But we can't be 100% certain about anything really, so the only way to cope long term is to learn to accept that there will always be uncertainty. That is what your therapist is trying to do here. We all go into therapy wanting to be fine - and we know that being certain about things would make us feel fine, so the natural response to sexual orientation OCD, which is rooted in your own head, is to try and get the professional analyser of how your head works to confirm that your thoughts don't mean anything and provide certainty that all is well. Which is giving in to OCD, not treating it. In reality, we have to learn to live with uncertainty - it's an exposure, just like touching something dirty is with contamination OCD. That means you have to make yourself feel uncertain (and really crappy) so that, over time, that experience gets less difficult with familiarity. This is horrible, but the research is there to show that, like other types of exposure, things will get better.

Good luck everyone! We can do this!

Thank you for the information ♡