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The anxiety can be overwhelming and that’s the time when you have to step back and be “above” your ocd looking down on it. You have the free choice to determine how you feel and slowing yourself down and being in a relaxed state is your right. Overthinking this non-stop creates immense anxiety for all of us.

Please watch the videos from Ali Greymond. It'll make you understand what OCD is and lowers the anxiety. Ever when I have an anxiety attack, I watch videos of Ali or try to do something like studying or something that keeps you busy. I know exactly how you feel, it's the worst.

You have to accept that uncertainty

We ocd’ers have the suicidal ideation 10x more than the average. Here’s the article: https://www.verywellmind.com/ocd-and-suicide-2510556

When you wake up at night or in the morning the ocd thoughts are so “strong” and it seems like most of us experience this phenomenon.

Ohh gotcha. Do you know grounding techniques? (Stay still and focus on 5 things only by touch, then sight, etc.) When your mind is no longer a safe space, getting out of it by focusing all of your efforts into things outside of yourself can help^_^ I always keep textured fidgets with me for this reason.

It takes over our emotions and just snowballs, take deep breaths and slowly relax. The stress and anxiety can do this...

Also, the twitching - you’re having a panic attack. (I have them too and losing control of your own muscles is terrifying?)That’s why you need to ground yourself and force yourself as much as possible to get out of your mind. You can do this.

I break the cycle by splashing cold water in my face, drying with a towel and then looking right in the mirror and saying “I love you, you’re worth everything life has to offer” it takes me out of the funk and changes how I’m thinking at the time. Kindness and forgiveness softens ocd.

Yea I don’t think those vids are helpful either

Oof I feel that. Instrumental only for me a lot of times. Breathe 4 secs in, 7 sec hold, 8 secs out

Never too old for that!!

I hope you can get to sleep ? Reply here later in the day to lmk how you’re doing:)

i hope youre doing ok now, ocd hates us alot :( you deserve the world!

You don’t. Sorry hun I’m going into work, I’ll get back on later to see how you’re doing.

Oof:/ Sounds like progress, tho:)

I’m sorry:( Is there anything you know of that helps calm the anxiety?

Well I think you’re doing really well?❤️

Glad you’re trying to sit with it! That’s good!

You’re okay. OCD is always targeting the past and future to get you to question everything. No matter what, God loves everyone!

@idont241 - I think your other post was deleted? Please don’t end it all. Ik what it’s like to be at this point - I’ve nearly killed myself twice in the last 2 months. Ik what it’s like to hate life and even to hate hope. You’re not alone in any of this. I’m here if you want to talk?

Same here. Just woke up with my mind going in different places. 1am here.

Do they know you have HOCD? If not, perhaps you could “come out” to them in this way, instead of telling them you’re gay. Bc...well...you’re on this app. And OCD is a fantastic liar:/ And you’re not in denial - you’re in distress. BIG difference.

Same here. Remember ocd comes in various forms, so you just have ocd related intrusive thoughts.

:) Key word in your comments is “feels” - OCD makes us think and feel so many things - but it DOES NOT have the ability to make them true. You decide that. I once had a friend tell me this and it really helped: “You can do this. It’s your damn car. It’s. Your. Damn. Car.”

Hang in there, be kind to yourself. It’s very easy to doubt yourself and then to start beating yourself up over ocd.

Ik it’s pretty much impossible to stop the thoughts, but you can stop your reaction to them. Do something RN that is physically stimulating - eating something you like, rubbing your hand over different textured surfaces, watching a show, listening to music, etc.

4:30 where I am. Unfortunately OCD doesn’t really have a predictable schedule:/ Cam you do anything I mentioned earlier? If you do t think you can - just start with your breathing. Breathe out for longer than you breathe in. When your breathing starts to slow a little, take that chance to count - 4 sec in, 7 sec hold, 8 sec out

Great! You can do this? OCD has to obey biochemical processes just like everything else that goes on in our body. Doing this WILL decrease activity in the brain.

Ooh I like that idea! Will try in the future?

One strategy down, but there are so many more! Try one or more of the ones myself and @Mike1234 talked about

Ok, 2 down!

Can you try the 4-7-8 breathing for 10 breaths??

You deserve to be joyful and free of pain and panic❤️

Oh! I just bought of something else hats grounding - rubbing an ice cube on your forearm!

Wow typos lol *thought *that’s

Please let us know how you are!

I understand. HOCD is so hard because it feels so real. It makes us question who we are. That’s the worst part. I think you need to at least talk to your parents about your OCD and let them know what you’re going through. I felt much better when I told my mom and boyfriend. They accept that I’m going through this disorder and at least are there to offer comfort. Once your parents know, maybe you can finally start to get some help.

That’s because of all the anxiety you have surrounding the HOCD. If you actually wanted it, it would be scary at all

But you’re terrified of it. That fear is ocd.

Hey:) I’m back on! How are you doing now? Were you able to get any sleep?

Try and focus just on the present! Ik that’s really hard, but tomorrow can worry about itself:)