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it’s so annoying omfg! it’s also tough because my personality can seem like a lesbian occasionally :( i also have random worries that i was born a guy and transitioned to a girl or that i don’t deserve to be born a girl and it’s honestly ridiculous
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I’ve definitely had most of the thoughts on this thread, even the hermaphrodite one. I also totally get what you mean when you say hyperactive empathy, because I get that where I feel like I don’t know if I want to be like a person or date them (but that seems common with ocd themes, including HOCD and TOCD). It all feels very real. I think the important thing to remember is that there is no right way to be a woman (or man), and it’s only our OCD minds looking to categorize things into black and white thinking:)
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yeah me too! i’ve encountered feminine trans people and that had triggered me like “i’ll just be a really feminine trans guy”
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What are we like! This doesn't take over my life but the worrying people think I've got both parts bugs me a lot. At least my family know I'm a woman, and the men I've slept with. It triggered me so much when my sister said once `let's just make sure your birth certificate says female' I don't even know why she said that I have a flipping vagina and she's seen it before ? I was so confused and worried that she some how thought I'd sprouted out a dick or something. Sorry for my language just this blooming ocd is ruining my life
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I actually think she said that cause I do have some tom boy features and she thinks I'm a lesbian cause of how close I am to a friend I think. But I don't know why she thought there could be a possible mistake on my birth certificate. I had a nightmare after that that I was in a hospital and they diagnosed me with being a hermaphrodite because of my hips? And I have normal hips ?
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I've had that thought too. Like my mum is secretely hiding the fact that she had my parts changed into a vagina ? and that got well worse after my sister said let's make sure your birth certificate says female! She does joke a lot but she seemed serious.
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And the don't deserve to be a girl thought I've had too
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It's all ocd it all sucks ass
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You're not though, you'd have known without question since you learnt to crawl that you were the opposite gender, there'd be no question about it
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But remember, King sounds cool, it's just a word, has no real meaning really. Ocd convinces us that everything has meaning
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that’s alright, it’s probably my worst thing right now since it’s so easy to slip into a mindset like hey and convince yourself you’re a guy inside ?
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I’ve got the same from a male perspective. Had hocd and started to rationalize it by wondering if I was really just a girl. My internal voice gets higher pitched when I get excited and enthusiastic and of course my ocd targeted that as proof. When in all reality, im pretty damn manly, I take care of my girl, she thinks I’m manly, and I have a deep voice. Ocd is a trip!
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definitely! i worry so much that i felt like a guy inside when i was little and now i’m paranoid about all my interactions with people
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it sucks so bad because it confuses those two things and makes me think i’m super jealous and want to be a guy or that i’ve always been one. low self esteem doesn’t help
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i guess it makes sense too because i don’t want to look like one but my mind says i want to be one, which i’m guessing is just hyperactive attraction
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yeah! sometimes i get this bizarre intense “jealousy” of guys and even girls sometimes and it makes no sense
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it also bothers me that there are feminine guys or guys who aren’t super masculine and idk why?? it makes it seem like i could be closer to being trans
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something that triggers me is that sometimes, not often though, is that i would have a username like “king(name)” because king sounds better than queen to me but now i worry so much about it
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i guess you’re right ^^ do you ever get hyperactive empathy? like i will relate or project into a guy if that makes any sense to “test”, when it really does nothing because everyone’s human and and i’m biasing it with my own thoughts and experiences. regardless it’s very convincing and easy to get lost in empathy
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I don't actually, that's one ocd I don't get! Xx
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Thought I was the only one with the hermaphrodite one ?
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- 11w
I need too know that I'm not insane, really. I am 16 and for the past two weeks, this has been completely ruining my health and happiness. I only recently came out as a lesbian like 3 months ago after a lot of confusion about my attraction since I used to think I liked men. At first, I felt so sure that I liked women, but lately, I've been having these unwanted thoughts about the possibility of liking men. I never used to feel this way, but now, every time I look at a man, my brain obsessively fixates on it. It forces me to imagine kissing him, loving him, things I don’t want, and then tries to convince me that I do. It’s painful. The thought of this fills me with fear and anxiety, leading to panic attacks and breakdowns. I don’t want these thoughts. I hate them with every fiber of my being, but I’m terrified that one day I’ll act on them and somehow like it. I used to think I liked men, but back then, I was in a very unhealthy space in a time of escapism and something deeply parasocial. I’ve only ever liked the attention and validation a man could give me, but these experiences are somehow treated as further proof that I’m "bisexual." I’ve never been in a real relationship with anyone, which makes my brain constantly challenge me—telling me, “You don’t even know what love feels like.” It won’t shut up. It keeps obsessively trying to make me prove that I’m a lesbian, testing my reactions and questioning my certainty. Is this normal?
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As a lesbian with SO-OCD, I feel so helpless. It's truly exhausting because no one I know understands what I'm going through. The first response is always, "You're just confused" or "You don't have to know yet." But that's not the issue, I do know. I just never see any lesbians with SO-OCD so I feel so invalidated. These thoughts flood my brain constantly, forcing me to analyze my reactions to every man I see. I feel trapped in an endless cycle of "testing" myself, trying to prove that I don't like them. But my brain fights back, telling me I do want to love a man, making it feel real even though don't want it. It's terrifying. At this point, it's hard to even hold onto my identity as a lesbian because I'm so overwhelmed. I don't know if this is what real attraction is supposed to feel like, and that fear eats away at me. The truth is, when I think about being with a man, all I feel is disgust and fear-but my brain twists that into doubt. I hate it. I'm at the point where I'm scared I'm going to have to accept something I don't want because I don't know if this will ever go away. I miss who I was before all this.
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- 9w
I just recently kind of was getting over my Constant spiral of “am I a lesbian or bi?”(im a lesbian) and now I’ve been tackled by “am I trans” even tho I’ve never questioned my gender ever, I love being a woman, and I never thought I’d ever be dealing with this since I’ve always been so sure of being a woman, anybody else?
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