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My ocd tends to catastrophize my past events and makes me spiral into what if’s or turn it into some kind of guilt trip that makes me feel so bad I wonder if I even deserve to have good things. If you’re feeling that kind of way that’s not normal, past experiences should be learning experiences not shameful horrible thoughts. :) hope that helps
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Guilt and shame are human emotions that non-OCD people experience, just like anxiety, that play an important role in life. However, with OCD these emotions can often be malignant and actually can hinder the growth we need to be a better person. How do you tell the difference? You don’t need to tell the difference between obsessive guilt and “real” guilt— the answer in both those cases is the same. You just sit with it. On the other hand, we can often, perhaps as a compulsion, say or do things to ourselves to inflict guilt and shame on purpose because we think it’s what we should feel, because it will absolve us. This, whether a compulsion because of OCD or some other reason, is not helpful. It will not change the past or make us better persons in the future if we remain miserable, our will and agency broken because we are forcing ourselves to only feel pain. But neither should we be afraid of guilt, whether OCD or real. The approach is the same. Let it be there, don’t suppress it, don’t try to make it worse, etc. It will pass and when you have the calmness and perspective to think about it more clearly, you may have clarity. Or it still may take some more time and perspective. At the end, you might say what you did was anywhere from awful to saintly, though most people’s experience with Real Event OCD results in “well it’s bad but not as much as my OCD said it was.” For me, it was “others might not agree with me, but I think this is bad and would like to improve as a person, though that may take some time.” And y’know, that acknowledgement, divorced of any need to punish myself or to rehearse the event in my head over and over and try to drum up the courage to act differently, doesn’t feel so horrible. Just to offer another perspective on that. You can at least feel comfort in knowing that, wherever guilt appears, there’s only one approach to take and that it will pass and that you can still enjoy the greener pastures when they come.
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I’m dealing with these feelings too along with embarrassment, regret, and anxiety over my real event ocd. It’s so hard to fight with an obsession that isn’t hypothetical because it already happened. I’ve caught myself thinking how crazy it is that one day I just thought about the events in a different way and I’ve been tormented ever since. But then I start to think that I should have been tormented the whole time and the crazy thing is that I wasn’t struggling with these feelings since the events occurred. It seems to be a relatively common struggle with real event ocd. I wish they had a support group for this subtype. It’s awful! You aren’t alone.
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@Have a sunflower🌻 I wonder why this is! I didn’t struggle with these things that happened either, most of them are from years ago😵💫 they didn’t bother me until recently when my ocd spiraled and got much worse
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@Anonymous_1 I’m sorry you are too!
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@carlweagle Yep and then I’m confused how to feel because I’m frustrated that one thought changed everything moving forward but also feeling like I should be struggling with what I did and I got away with not feeling bad for too long.
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@Have a sunflower🌻 I wouldn’t beat yourself up too bad I know it’s hard but I have a quote that says “if it didn’t bother you then and it’s bothering you now. It’s not you it’s ocd” and it’s true! It’s normal to feel guilty and then move on but it’s not normal to continuously beat ourselves up and feel so much shame that it becomes hindering, that’s just our ocd talking!
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@carlweagle That’s a great way to look at it. Unfortunately, my ocd just counters with the fact that because it didn’t bother me just means I was a bad and stupid person before that finally realized the error of my ways.
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- 14w
17f I have a lot of events, but my main and my worst one which is absolutely fucking diabolical was done when I was 14 and repeated when I was 16. Everytime I post something about real event ocd here people are like you are probably didn't do anything that bad, and when they hear what I did they are like yeah that's bad. Someone even asked me if I'm autistic cause "it's crazy how you didn't realize that the thing ypu were doing was wrong at this age." And I kinda agree, like it's fucked up It's just that my event is bad. Doesn't mean I don't have real event ocd. You can have a reocd over the event that was bad, it doesn't mean the event wasn't that bad or you don't have recod. It's just people always expect it to be something innocent and it's not Even a healthy person would feel guilty over it, it's just that I had ocd my whole life and it's making the guilt absolutely destructive, like to the point when I sometimes have a hard time breathing when I think about it, I lost more than a year of life to it, almost checked myself out couple of times if I wasn't so scared of pain/failure, the event haunts me in my dreams, it's in my head 24/7 and I will never able to forgive myself. That ocd. But the event itself was bad. So maybe i deserve it.
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- 4w
Due to real event ocd and past mistakes? I’ve been actively trying to work on this and try to accept and not pay too much attention to it but the confession thing has been bugging me but I’m also trying to accept that I don’t need to confess every single mistake I’ve made and we’ve all made mistakes Recently I’ve been wanting to work on myself and be more positive but because of my real events in childhood, I feel like I can’t live a normal life or deserve a normal life.
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- 26d
just wanted to see if others struggle with real event ocd really kicking their a**. i feel like my mind is a constant battleground of every mistake ive made and they feel so huge and life altering to me that it’s hard to continue going on in their wake. just wondering if anyone else feels this way too.
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