I can't tell if what I'm thinking about is OCD or not...

Questioning whether its ocd or not is a downward spiral. You cant be sure when your ocd about ocd. Its an insidious problem. But eventually you have to accept it might or might not be ocd. Eventually you can learn when its most likely ocd and you have to do exposures and treatment for it. But when your deep in it you have to take risk it migjt or might be. Otherwisd itll just drive you nuts forever. Youll be googling symptoms questioning everything. Its a rabbit hole.

Trying to figure out if its ocd or not is a compulsion that makes ocd stronger. I was diagnosed for the second time and I still questioned it for months and months and it just got worse and worse. I developed new compulsions and more anxiety. Its a rabbit hole with no answer. I try to ask myself what difference does it make if this ocd thought or not? I dont find an answer but I find its better then spending days, weeks on end wondering. When you can do that you can at least focus on treatment of the other compulsions and start to feel a little better about it. When you see so e changes you start to feel a bit better. If your feeling better and acceoting thoughts might or might nit be ocd what are you losing? Your only losing certainty you cant have. I still question it by the way. So I say this as someone who is not over that fear. I just know it leads nowhere.

I guess it's like perfectionism. With relationships, grades, and just how I live my life. But idek honeslty my brain is seriously messy.

What's the obsession?

I have the same issue. I cant distinguish. When things that I fear come true, it ruins my ability to ignore the complusion.

I really struggle with this too. Unfortunately I feel I have to know for certain it’s OCD or I struggle to get passed it. You’re not alone.