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Iiterally my life lol i have times of peace And forget ocd is even a thing but sometimes it pins me and spins me lol... existensial is my theme rn too ans having some depersonaliztion i had health anxiety / ocd before this and yeah it paniced me occasionally and made me anxious but this existential ocd is the first one thats made me depressed so its hard
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Battling with existential OCD too finding it hard to make it through the day
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Yeah licia i agree i rather deal with my health ocd any day lol i had anxiety but i was happy i hate these scary thoughts about life and reality and existence because how can u enjoy anything questioning whats it matter if u enjoy it not lol
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Im in therapy just a regular therapist who has interest in OCD .. idk mostly talk therapy with him giving some advice but mostly alone... hby?
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I've just started my third medication and third lit of therapy. Nothing is helping and I've been suffering for over 2 years now.
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Yeah cbt isn’t enough for ocd I think erp and act are the best. I never heard of meta cognitive therapy
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Yeah but honestly i dont know if i have mental compulsions.. its hard for me to realize them. I do watch mark freeman i also listen to OCD stories podcast!
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Yeah the most annoying thing about existential ocd is the disconnect and depression with it and it’s like in my mind I rather have a different theme?? But it’s like I don’t want to keep fueling the cycle and jump around themes. I kinda nipped health anxiety in the butt and now this popped up and I’m trying to deal with it but yeah it’s so hard ?
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I’m sorry RDR86 it is very tough. And milio right? Lol it’s like how can I enjoy my day when Everything and everyone I look at I’m like questioning and like having these fearful anxiety ridden thoughts. I hate how it affects relationships with myself and others....it’s tough are you in therapy or doing anything to try and overcome this right now ?
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Milio I’m in not in therapy because I noticed it seems to exasperate my symptoms I think it has a lot to do with the fact they just think I have anxiety and depression now I’ve come to realize it’s ocd which is a blessing because now I do know how to go about it. I’ve been learning a lot online and educating myself problems is putting it in action and staying consistent is hard with out much support but it’s what I need to do... I’ve recently been applying erp which has helped a lot but I’m inconsistent which I think doesn’t help. I also am trying to track down my mental compulsions and eliminating them I actually was doing great for a few days then got triggered and because compulsive actions, my physical ones are researching online which I needed up doing all night and day today. I need to restart tomorrow and not give up. I heard talk therapy doesn’t really get to the root of the problem I really think you would benefit for ERP. It’s hard to find therapists that specialize in it so learning it yourself and applying it would be good
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RDR86 what type of therapy are you doing?
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Metacognitive therapy. I've tried CBT and it wasn't helpful.
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Im trying licia i also have been trying some erp/cbt on my own... reading books helps me a lot too OCD books etc... but we have the same compulsions - looking everything up and reading everything about it... lol that is my life that ive been trying to stop doing
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Milio yeah it’s hard my more you focus on something the bigger it becomes for sure. Once you have the knowledge about it it’s not about looking it up anymore or reading about it but putting what you learned into action while focusing on your values and goals. Mark freeman is great he son YouTube he has a buncha books and he has these online workshops and programs you should try... but I think that’s one of our bigggest problems is the constant looking up and stuff do you know about mental compulsions?
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Your probably do if you have ocd most likely you have mental compulsions mark freeman talks about them and it’s important to make a list of them because they can be a bit tricky anytime you start analayzing a thought, ruminating, checking your mind to see if obsession is still there, trying to repress a thought(does that complete opposite and makes it show up more), trying to replace thought with another(reassurance), trying to solve thought all are mental compulsions and feed the obsession you need to cut these out it’s very important. I just made flash cards actually and I’m going to start taking them everywhere to check in with myself and ask myself if I’m doing any of these things and if so stop it. These are different then just thoughts popping up in your head and feelings associated with the thoughts. This is something we do deliberately and create a habit of it that we need to break just like any other physical compulsion.
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https://youtu.be/5Xk0rMvkw2Q this guy explains it well
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If youre still using this app how have you been? Hoping your doing better
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I’ve been stuck in this cycle for the last month or two and am not sure how to get out of it. Basically, I will work on ignoring the thoughts and not responding or engaging plus limiting/completely eliminating compulsions. After a week or two of constant work, the amount of intrusive thoughts in a day goes down. The anxiety each thought causes also goes down with some, but not all, thoughts passing without notice like they would for a normal person. The thoughts that do stick cause anxiety and make me want to ruminate or do other compulsions but I make sure to limit them. After a bit, I’m in a pretty good head space. This is usually when it goes down hill. I’ll start to question if I even have ocd because some of the thoughts (once again not all) pass without notice. The difficulty resisting compulsions goes down and so does the anxiety, only increasing the questioning. I spend a while questioning if I’ve ever had ocd in the first place and then something sets me off or the questioning itself becomes a trigger and I get stuck back into the same ocd cycle with constant rumination, anxiety, and other compulsions. This lasts for a week or two before I know I need to stop and try and work hard to get back to ignoring the thoughts. And the cycle just restarts over and over again. Does anyone have any tips to stop this from happening? It’s really harming my recovery as every few weeks I dive back into the same negative place I was.
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Hey guys so I’m new here and just recently started struggling with some health ocd and thinking I had a brain tumor but it’s taken a turn for the worse and become this existential ocd where I’m questioning quite literally everything in my life, the purpose of being here and stuff. I just started meds yesterday, which is scary for me cause I’ve never been on them before. I keep having thoughts like, why does everything feel like a blur, what’s the meaning of this and I wake up every day with just existential dread. I’ve been having very vivid dreams that make dreaming and reality confusing I also am scared cause I’m dealing with some DP/DR as well. I just wish my life could go back to a few months ago before I knew all of this was possible. I guess I’m just writing this too get it off my chest and see if any of you all have gone through something similar and made it out okay?
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I don’t even know where to start because there’s so much going on in my head and it feels like there’s so much evidence for every thought. Like my ocd feels like it doesn’t just have one specific theme it’s honestly every theme and it just switches throughout the day depending on the thoughts I have. This started all about a month ago, this whole ocd flare up. I’ve been diagnosed with ocd for about 3 years now and looking back on my childhood, I feel like I’ve had it for probably my entire life. My grandpa just recently died back in February and I feel like this whole ocd spiral is a result of dealing with grief especially because it didn’t even hit me for the whole month of April for some reason and things felt “normal”. But since this ocd flare up has started I’ve been constantly reviewing and revisiting my past, all my childhood memories and so many of them are terrifying which is weird because I never had a traumatic event hppen to me as a child. I feel like it’s always been “self-inflicted” trauma if that makes sense? My mind is telling me so many things related to so many topics like maybe I liked my family member as a kid and have just hid it to fit in with society? That my anxiety as a kid has caught up with me and I’m turning into a psychopath? That I’ve always been a creep and enjoyed looking at peoples privates or chests, etc but just ignored or allowed the thought this whole time. Also before this whole flare up I remember always feeling on autopilot and not really alive like everything I did I just felt numb about it. Which aids my ocd to tell me that these feelings are real and the thoughts are true and that I’m “waking up” or realizing or something. I haven’t felt such intense anxiety and distress since I was a kid and I didn’t even understand my own thoughts. It’s like I’m either hyper aware or totally unaware of what’s going on around me and it gets me thinking about my existence, personality, what my role in life is and like genuinely what I’m even doing in the moment like what’s the reason behind everything. I’m constantly questioning my intentions because I don’t know if they’re true or not and it’s like my ocd doesn’t even allow me to consider the thought it just jumps to conclusion. Like telling me I’m guilty before proven innocent. It honestly feels like so much at once to even simply call it ocd or anxiety because it feels like a crisis and any moment I could spiral and breakdown completely. Going to school everyday feeling like anytbing could trigger a panic attack at any moment makes me feel like I can’t be left alone with my thoughts. And like overall since I got down this rabbit hole, my first obsession was harm to myself, then it was harm to others specifically my family, then it was being a pervert or pedo, or being attracted or someone or something I shouldn’t be, which then makes me question my existence and who I am along with also being hyper aware of my facial movements like my eyebrows, nose, etc. Like why does ocd have to involve itself in every aspect of my life? It feels like there’s always something wrong that I need to fix.
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